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What is Hive Being, and Why the Name?

You have likely heard talk of a hive mind, where one global mind finds more or less figurative expression in various local minds. Such talk is common enough in nature documentaries, especially ones concerning ants or bees, and in sci-fi programs. Take that notion, at least a loose version of it, and broaden its scope. That will be a decent first step in understanding the title I have chosen both for my Blog and for the first five-volume installment of my magnum opus Made For You and Me, a fragmentary collection of minimalist stanzas from 2016 to 2020.

In alignment with Spinoza (the 17th Century Rationalist to whom I devoted my doctoral studies), I view reality in its totality as a grand hive Being: all entities are but pulsating manifestations of the buckstopping fount of everything, an ultimate being we might call “God” or “Nature” (so long as, out of respect for the capital “G” and the capital “N,” we limit it neither to some anthropomorphic cloud father hurling lightning bolts nor to mere wilderness untouched by human smog). According to the hive-Being view (where reality is one lone superorganism, a monistic—and we might even say unividualist—conception I defend in both my creative and academic capacities), each non-foundational being (each being, that is, whose essence does not involve existence) is an utterly necessitated expression or eruption or exudation of this eternal source—each is, perhaps better put, a mode or manner of being, and so a focal point through which is disclosed, what classical theists sometimes call “being itself” (ipsum esse subsistens): the realness of the real, the being of whatever may be, the sheer activity of being, the very isness of whatever is. This Blog, which duplicates my Substack, throbs as but one among many literary unfurlings of this self-necessitated foundation, this supreme wellspring, of which we—like black holes and broken beliefs, like fractal ferns and flickering flames—are the inevitable stylings.

My Journey

I am an academic who found himself pressured into early retirement by the rising tides of cancel culture. The illiberal scourge of censoring, silencing, and shaming—although always with us throughout our evolution—reached a local peak around 2021. That was the turbulent year my creative pursuits, which the old left once encouraged as a healthy outlet for the stresses of a childhood steeped in poverty and illiteracy, drew the ire of the new safe-space left. A small cadre of self-proclaimed victims and their allies, several of whom continue to berate me years later under pseudonyms as see through as their sexual infatuation, sought to erase me and my heterodoxy. They found support from a wannabe-woke dean, covered in the grand inquisitor robes of our decadent modernity (full-body tattoos) and just itching to signal his commitment to protecting “vulnerable populations” from triggering material (even if just, as it was in my case, off-duty poems “unbecoming for someone calling himself a teacher”). Although I eventually won my due-process case with the help of The Foundation for Individual Rights and Expression, I slunk away from a college that turned its back on protecting freedom of expression and from an institution increasingly intolerant of intellectual diversity.  

The wrecking ball to my too-comfy office in the windowless ivory tower came with a silver lining. From the ashes of my professional aspirations rose a phoenix of increased freedom to fulfill the literary calling I have pursued for decades. Reputation concerns never stopped me, even within academia’s sterile halls of conformity. Indeed, my unapologetic defiance, which has long baffled friends and family, no doubt chummed even safe waters—almost as if I were asking for it all along—until the cancel shiver grew too frenzied to hold back its blind thrashings. But now, now I piston the most forbidden territories of human thought with no longer even a twinge of conscience. The newfound freedom means extra time to hone my craft. When not assisting special-needs communities (a day job far more rewarding than freeway-flyer drudgeries), I pursue my literary mission with Dionysian fervor.

Call for Co-Conspirators

This space, my digital sanctuary, showcases the fruits of my mission. Think of my posts, even those linking to my publications, as works in progress. I want your input, unflinching brutality included. Each post begins with an invitation to action: “Let’s workshop this [draft about x, y, z].” Your contributions, whether through public comments or my contact page, help hammer scraps of ore into polished blades fit for magazine publication.

Your input is valuable, even if you are neither a writer nor a reader of literature—twin disciplines dying by the cyber nanosecond. Sometimes—even if at the risk of uttering banalities—an outsider’s fresh vantage can pierce the veils of convention to reveal what insiders miss. It often takes an outsider to make us even think to question our ingrained presuppositions and attitudes. I stand by the hygienic value of contagion. That is one reason I advocate so strongly for intellectual diversity and freedom of expression. And that is also one reason I was so harrowed by the anti-diversity swell of cancel culture in academia (an institution that should be the utmost caretaker of such values)—harrowed especially insofar as that swell masqueraded under the gaslighting guise of “diversity”).

You will witness the breathing evolution of my writings over time. To track these changes, I label each revision by round: “ROUND 2,” ROUND 3,” and so forth. Each piece undergoes continuous refinement based on your feedback and my own revisitations. Sometimes changes will mar the work. That is the risk of creative tinkering as a finite creature. I hope you will alert me to missteps. After many semesters of university writing workshops, one rule has impressed itself upon me: when someone senses a flaw, something almost always needs to change—even if, yes, the proposed solution misses the mark (which often it does). From a quick look into the archives, accessible here, you can see how much I have benefited from your feedback so far.

My Hope

Sharing drafts can be daunting. But showing you the ravaged and unperfumed real deal unfiltered by makeup (stuttering starts and falsities, awkward line breaks and clumsy word choices, grammatical errors and misspellings)—that not only makes my work more relatable, but helps me refine things through your input. I hope the unfiltered look at the raw process of fumbling, rather than just the polished product, also helps other writers develop their craft. Imperfect works often instruct more than perfect ones: whereas the perfect ones tend to have a grace by which they slip inside us without activating our scrutiny, the imperfect ones—especially the near perfect ones—show us glaringly what not to do.

People laugh at me, seeing—in my tilting at the windmills of literary excellence—a Don Quixote clunking around in Arthurian armor in a post-knight era. I am not naïve. I am well aware of the diminishing ability to read, let alone well: slowly and deeply, with gratitude. I am also aware that my style, which often nests subpoints within larger points, never waters down virtuosity for the sake of mass appeal. I watch readers stumble over my sentences, unable to unlock even just the music of the envelope let alone the semantic meat within, which—given my tendency to flashlight through the darker facets of human nature (the addicts, the miscreants, the abusers among us)—only adds an additional alienating layer of difficulty). Beholding these depressive scenes of even supportive family members getting bucked off my syntactic bronco makes me feel like a dinosaur who should get a hint and, if not succumb to the brain rot of skibidi-toilet speak, just hang himself already. Even though the decline in linguistic background and grammatical voltage makes my compositions seem quixotic in a world binging Netflix and TikTok, I persist—raging against the dying of the light—by some internal compulsion to celebrate the richness of language and thought.

My hope is that, despite social media’s unparalleled power to farm our attention, people never forget the unique power of writing. Beyond unveiling hypocrisy, teasing out complex implications, and detailing the commonalities between even the most alien phenomena, writing offers something we need today—trapped in agoraphobic cyber bubbles only thickened by the Lyme dangers of forests and the COVID dangers of cities—perhaps more than ever. Granting us rich access to the first-person perspectives of others (to how things feel to them), writing serves as one of humanity’s best tools for combating loneliness. It allows us to linger, broadly and deeply and at high resolution, within the inner lives of others in a way that other arts can only suggest.

What to Expect

My work spans a broad spectrum: from metaphysical discourses on free will and determinism and the ontology of holes to the ephemera of western culture (whether the childhood impacts of the hypersexual mono-image of black woman as squirting twerkers or Terrence Howard’s sham revolution of mathematics). Some tight and minimal, others free-flowing sprawls; some heady and abstract, others emotional and imagistic—my inkwell musings, which often blend scholarly rigor with a dark humor from both high and low culture, aim to capture the visceral intensity of our personal and social and ultimately existential predicaments.

By no means can I deny that drug abuse, sexual assault, and the tales of the broken and the damned loom large in the tag cloud of my work. My writing will never be a paradise of easy truths and comforting lies. It will challenge you, provoke you, and at times even repulse you. I offer no apologies for the monsters I unleash. They are as much a part of us, at long root scared rodent mammals scurrying in the shadows of dinosaurs, as our noblest aspirations.

But make no mistake. It is not all downer darkness. The archives are my receipts. You will find pieces exploring the pursuit of authenticity in a media-saturated world, the search for meaning in an indifferent cosmos, and the celebration of beauty in both the sublime and the profane. I locate much of my inspiration, in fact, in novelists like Dostoevsky and poets like Ted Kooser—writers unafraid to pursue moral agendas or risk Hallmark sentimentality in an age that often sneers at sincerity.

Be they satirical dissections of modern social dynamics or poignant poems about addiction or academic articles on moral responsibility, my goal is to provoke thought, evoke emotion, and foster meaningful dialogue. Fear has not and will not stop me from challenging humanity’s fundamental taboos (like bestiality and cannibalism) or self-reflecting into the dark chaos of the subconscious, even if that means exposing the Jungian shadows—the inner Goebbels—lurking within us all!

Expect posts each day, no day missed. Donations are welcome, but I impose no paywall: it feels wrong to charge for art, especially given our date with obliteration. Feel free to explore what amounts to, at the time of writing this, close to a thousand pieces of poetry and prose here. That should give you a sense of what awaits.

Join me—specula holstered—on this literary odyssey into the public and private nooks of the hive Being. Let us navigate the labyrinth of creation together, confronting our demons and even slaying our darlings if we must. Let us dance on the razor’s edge between the sublime and the profane in pursuit of an elusive literary perfection never to be confused—as it has been confused in our declining civilization—with the pursuit of popularity or likeability over truth.

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MAPs
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

MAPs

"MAPs" serves as a potent, albeit minimalistic, exploration of the dark and complex relationship between early childhood experiences and the development of deviant sexual attractions, particularly among minor-attracted persons (MAPs). Through a juxtaposition of vivid, culturally resonant imagery, such as the iconic Judy Garland ruby slippers and the innocent setting of monkey bars, the poem subtly yet powerfully reflects on how moments from childhood, often marked by innocence, can crystallize into disturbing fetishes in adulthood. The poem’s brevity intensifies its impact, leaving much to the reader’s interpretation, which mirrors the often elusive and shadowy nature of such psychological developments.

The work encourages a scholarly dialogue on the ways in which early formative experiences, including those that might seem insignificant or innocent at the time, can leave indelible marks on the psyche, potentially steering individuals towards complex and problematic sexual identities. By using minimal language to evoke powerful and disturbing images, the poem suggests that these early encounters with seemingly benign objects or scenarios can become deeply embedded in the psyche, shaping future sexual inclinations in ways that are difficult to unpack or confront.

The poem also touches on broader themes such as the societal taboo surrounding discussions of MAPs, the stigma that obscures open discourse on how such predilections form, and the often tragic outcomes when these tendencies are not understood or addressed early on. The minimalism of the poem is intentional, reflecting the stark and often unspoken reality of these issues, forcing the reader to confront the unsettling implications without the comfort of elaborate explanations or justifications.

MAPs, minor-attracted persons, sexual fetishes, psychological development, childhood experiences, deviant attractions, human sexuality, taboo, societal stigma, poetry analysis, minimalist poetry, disturbing imagery.

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Suspension of Disbelief
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Suspension of Disbelief

"Suspension of Disbelief" captures the raw emotional landscape of those battered by life's relentless hardships—disloyalty, disease, and death—finding solace in collective rituals that offer a fleeting escape from despair. The poem reflects on the power of communal experiences, where the act of synchrony, whether in worship or shared delusion, becomes a necessary refuge for those worn down by the brutal realities of existence. The imagery of swaying and shouting, of pews filled with fervor too overwhelming to bear alone, emphasizes the human need for connection and the comfort that comes from losing oneself in the collective rhythm, even if only momentarily. This suspension of disbelief, the poem suggests, is less about genuine faith and more about a primal, almost instinctual, clinging to the comfort found in unity when confronted with the inevitable sufferings of life.

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Suspension of disbelief, communal rituals, shared experiences, disloyalty, disease, death, solace, synchrony, human connection, collective rhythm, faith, emotional refuge, existential struggle, poetry, collective comfort.

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An Introduction to Chaos Magic(k)
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

An Introduction to Chaos Magic(k)

"An Introduction to Chaos Magic(k)" offers a nuanced portrayal of a young woman in the digital age, navigating a complex web of societal pressures, personal insecurities, and self-imposed fantasies. The poem is a striking exploration of how contemporary youth, particularly those on the fringes of traditional and digital cultures, grapple with identity, purpose, and reality in an increasingly fragmented world. The character, a self-styled “metaverse brujita,” embodies the contradictions of modern existence: she is both a product of her environment and an active participant in its creation, constructing a persona that reflects the intersection of digital hyper-reality and archaic mystical beliefs.

Through vivid imagery and detailed descriptions, the poem captures the essence of this young woman’s world—a world where the boundaries between reality and fantasy blur, where identity is both curated and chaotic, and where the pursuit of meaning is fraught with pitfalls. Her life, marked by a series of contradictions—spiritual yet nihilistic, empowered yet fragile, creative yet destructive—serves as a commentary on the broader cultural shifts in the 21st century, particularly the resurgence of mysticism in an era dominated by technology and social media.

The character's engagement with chaos magic, astrology, and other occult practices is depicted not merely as a quirky lifestyle choice but as a desperate attempt to assert control over a life that feels increasingly out of her hands. Her belief in these practices, coupled with her deep-seated insecurities and a pervasive sense of disillusionment, underscores the psychological and emotional turbulence that defines her existence. The poem suggests that these practices, while providing temporary solace, ultimately exacerbate her sense of alienation and contribute to a broader cultural drift toward irrationality and superstition.

Yet, despite her flaws and the toxic elements of her worldview, the poem also expresses a degree of empathy for her. The character’s struggles are emblematic of a generation caught between the promises of technology and the harsh realities of a world that often fails to deliver on those promises. Her dreams, however misguided, are genuine, and her efforts to find meaning and self-worth in a confusing and often hostile world are portrayed with a measure of compassion. The poet’s reflection at the end of the piece acknowledges the character’s potential for growth and change, even as it critiques the cultural forces that shape her.

midst the backdrop of LA's gaunt beauty, sculpted by missed meals and Starbucks, she dons a SpongeBob baseball cap and a Queen of Pentacles tarot card tattoo, symbols that reflect both her childlike nostalgia and her aspirations toward mystical power. Her IG bio declares her a "metaverse brujita," a digital witch navigating the ether with a blend of technology and spirituality, while her surroundings—a one-room world decorated in a mishmash of enchanted forest fairycore and steampunk vintage—mirror her inner turmoil. As she sits on her $400 Moon Pod, she attempts a "mindfulness ritual" meant to exorcise self-loathing and embrace her inner child, but beneath the surface, her actions are driven by a deeper, sublinguistic hope to ward off the growing bitterness toward reality itself.

The poem delves into her psyche, revealing her struggles with identity, her obsession with social validation, and her flirtations with nihilism. Her interactions on social media, her curated digital presence, and her consumption of pop culture all contribute to a sense of disconnection from reality, as she grapples with feelings of inadequacy and the fear of being ordinary. Her rituals, her creative endeavors, and even her relationships are tainted by this inner conflict, as she oscillates between grandiose delusions of self-importance and the crushing weight of self-doubt.

The poem’s narrative is interspersed with moments of raw vulnerability, such as her reflection on past traumas, her obsessive focus on physical imperfections, and her fantasies of escape into a world where she is the central figure—untouched by the harsh judgments of the real world. Yet, despite her struggles, there is a sense of resilience in her, a potential for growth that flickers beneath the layers of magical thinking and victimhood. The author’s note that follows the poem offers a critical yet empathetic perspective, acknowledging the protagonist's flaws while also recognizing her humanity and potential for positive change.

Ultimately, "An Introduction to Chaos Magic(k)" is a poignant exploration of the challenges faced by a generation caught between the digital and the real, the magical and the mundane, as they search for meaning and identity in an increasingly chaotic world. The poem captures the tension between the desire for control and the fear of being overwhelmed by forces beyond one's understanding, offering a nuanced portrayal of a young woman on the edge of self-discovery.

Chaos Magic(k), digital age, modern identity, mysticism, societal pressures, personal insecurities, metaverse brujita, Carl Sagan, victimhood, cultural shifts, Gen Z, psychological turbulence, digital hyper-reality, cultural critique, poetic exploration.

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MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 34)
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 34)

"Stir Better Angels" is a powerful collection of vivid, thought-provoking snapshots that explore the complexities of human experience, the contradictions of modern life, and the tension between instinct and societal norms. Each line serves as a meditation on the varied dimensions of existence, from the mundane to the profound, often tinged with a sense of irony or dark humor. The poem traverses themes such as depression, memory, survival, and the instincts buried beneath the comforts of contemporary living. It challenges the reader to consider how deeply ingrained behaviors and rituals—whether rooted in cultural training, survival instincts, or the necessity of routine—shape our understanding of identity and belonging.

The work also delves into the conflicts inherent in human nature, such as the struggle between following societal expectations and embracing primal instincts. It touches on the often unnoticed but significant impact of seemingly small actions and decisions on one's mental state and sense of self. The juxtaposition of trivial and significant moments serves to highlight the fragility and unpredictability of life, as well as the ways in which we cope with or avoid confronting deeper existential truths.

The poem’s structure, a series of vivid vignettes, allows for a fragmented yet cohesive exploration of these themes, each line acting as a standalone reflection while contributing to the overall narrative of human struggle, survival, and the search for meaning in a world that often feels disconnected from its own primal roots. The imagery used is both visceral and relatable, making abstract concepts tangible and emotionally resonant.

Human experience, societal norms, primal instincts, identity, routine, cultural conditioning, survival, depression, memory, existential truth, modern life, dark humor, irony, human nature, poetry, vignettes, instinctual drives, existentialism.

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Nymphology
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Nymphology

"Nymphology" presents a visceral exploration of the entanglement between artistic devotion and destructive desire. The metaphor of the man as a plant needing fire to propagate its seeds underscores the paradox of creation and destruction, where his artistic drive is intertwined with a dark, consuming passion. His vigilance "about where he came" signals a self-awareness of the consequences of his actions, particularly the potential to create life—a responsibility he feels unprepared to handle. Yet, this awareness is overshadowed by his inability to resist the allure of "feral teenyboppers," whose "succubi stares" represent an overpowering temptation that drives him to the brink of moral collapse. The repeated failure to "pull out" is not just a literal failure (he does indeed bust bigtime loads in all these "teenyboppers") but a metaphorical one, symbolizing his inability to detach from the perilous edge where his art and his desires meet. The poem, therefore, delves into the destructive side of creative passion, where the line between creation and annihilation blurs, leading to a complex and dangerous interplay of impulses that the speaker finds himself unable to escape. Through stark and provocative imagery, "Nymphology" questions the costs of artistic devotion when it is entangled with unrestrained and potentially ruinous desires.

Nymphology poem, artistic devotion, destructive desire, creation and annihilation, succubi stares, feral teenyboppers, moral collapse, creative passion, temptation and danger, M. A. Istvan Jr., poetic exploration, dark impulses, self-awareness, provocative imagery, artistic struggle.

Nymphology poem, artistic devotion, destructive desire, creation and annihilation, succubi stares, feral teenyboppers, moral collapse, creative passion, temptation and danger, M. A. Istvan Jr., poetic exploration, dark impulses, self-awareness, provocative imagery, artistic struggle.

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Plausible Deniability
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Plausible Deniability

In "Plausible Deniability," the speaker captures a moment of self-deception and moral reckoning, set against the backdrop of an impending revelation. The imagery of "huddled eyes glued to the glowing anchor" suggests a figure fixated on the television, perhaps seeking solace or distraction in the news. The act of quickly finishing off the "brewskis" highlights a desperate attempt to cling to the last vestiges of denial before the sobering truth, represented by the "sobering bulletin," sets in. This bulletin is a metaphorical moment of clarity, a point at which the reality of the situation becomes undeniable, even to someone entrenched in self-deception. The phrase "speed’s uneasy price" hints at the consequences of trying to escape or outpace the inevitable, suggesting that the speaker is aware of the cost of their actions but still chooses to indulge. The final lines, where the intake of anything, "even of gum," becomes "indecent," underscore the depth of this moral awakening. It's a stark recognition that no amount of escapism can shield one from the truth. The poem thus explores themes of denial, accountability, and the fleeting nature of self-imposed ignorance, illustrating the tension between indulgence and the inevitable confrontation with reality.

Plausible Deniability poem, self-deception, moral reckoning, escapism, fleeting ignorance, sobering truth, moment of clarity, accountability, indulgence vs. reality, M. A. Istvan Jr., poetic exploration, confrontation with truth, emotional tension, denial and acceptance.

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Many Hands of Myopia
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Many Hands of Myopia

In the poem "Many Hands of Myopia," M. A. Istvan Jr. crafts a vivid and unsettling depiction of the celebratory aftermath following a significant scientific breakthrough, one with potentially catastrophic consequences. The imagery used throughout the poem juxtaposes the euphoria of achievement with the ominous implications of the scientists' work, suggesting a critical reflection on the ethical dimensions of scientific progress and the collective responsibility of those involved.

The opening lines, "Champagne bubbles rising / like mushroom pillars / in a toasted afterglow of detonation," immediately set a tone of paradoxical celebration. The simile comparing champagne bubbles to mushroom clouds evokes the imagery of nuclear explosions, blending the joy of success with the horror of destruction. This duality introduces the central theme of the poem: the myopic focus on achievement without fully grappling with the broader consequences.

Istvan's portrayal of the "men of science" further emphasizes this theme. The scientists are depicted massaging their necks, suggesting physical and perhaps moral discomfort in the "televised fallout of their grind." This phrase captures both the literal and figurative fallout of their work, implying that their grind—while successful—has led to results that must be publicly scrutinized and personally grappled with.

The collective clapping and cheering, described as "too loudly," underscores a sense of forced enthusiasm, as if the scientists are trying to drown out their own doubts and fears. The use of "every eye / darts for pats of reassurance" suggests a pervasive anxiety among the group, with each individual seeking validation from their peers to mitigate their own uncertainties. This dynamic highlights the shared burden of responsibility and the human tendency to seek comfort in collective affirmation, even in the face of morally ambiguous achievements.

The poem’s closing lines—"for others to share in the load"—bring the theme of collective responsibility to the forefront. It suggests that while individual scientists may seek to offload their ethical concerns onto the group, the weight of their actions is a shared burden. The myopia referred to in the title thus becomes a collective blindness, a willful ignorance shared by all involved to cope with the potentially devastating implications of their work.

Istvan’s poem invites readers to reflect on the ethical dimensions of scientific and technological advancements. It questions the celebratory narratives often surrounding breakthroughs, urging a deeper consideration of the long-term impacts and moral responsibilities of those who drive progress. Through vivid imagery and a keen examination of human behavior, "Many Hands of Myopia" critiques the tendency to prioritize achievement over ethical reflection, highlighting the importance of acknowledging and sharing the burden of responsibility in the face of potentially harmful advancements.

M. A. Istvan Jr., Many Hands of Myopia, poem, scientific progress, ethical reflection, collective responsibility, nuclear imagery, moral burden, vivid imagery, technological advancement, myopia, human behavior, celebration and destruction, ethical dimensions, literary critique.

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MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 33)
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 33)

In this excerpt from "Made for You and Me 2017," M. A. Istvan Jr. weaves together a series of poignant and thought-provoking observations, creating a tapestry of existential reflections and societal critiques. The mosaic of imagery and themes invites readers to delve into the complexities of human experience, touching on addiction, loss, resilience, and the quest for meaning in a seemingly indifferent universe.

The opening line, "junkies, fibrotic even at the quirkiest needle sites, driveling over unspoiled vascularity," immediately sets a tone of decay and desperation. The depiction of addicts, whose bodies bear the scars of their relentless search for veins, highlights the physical and psychological toll of addiction. The reference to "unspoiled vascularity" underscores a yearning for purity and normalcy, a stark contrast to their current state of degradation.

This theme of destruction extends to the natural world with "one’s birth tree choked out by disease." Here, Istvan juxtaposes the personal and the ecological, suggesting a parallel between the corruption of the body and the demise of nature. The imagery of a tree, a symbol of life and growth, succumbing to disease, evokes a sense of inevitable decline that pervades the poem.

The recurring motif of animals and their behaviors serves as a metaphor for human tendencies. "Dogs returning to their vomit" and "preferring the known of misery over the unknown of change" reflect a profound commentary on the human condition. These lines suggest a proclivity to cling to familiar suffering rather than embrace the uncertainty of transformation. The reference to scientists "popping corks in the atomic glow" adds a layer of irony, highlighting the dissonance between scientific celebration and the potential for catastrophic consequences, underscoring the tension between progress and ethical responsibility.

Istvan's exploration of identity and transformation continues with the image of "Brenda’s Adam’s apple in the morning florescence of the hotel bathroom." This line poignantly captures the vulnerability and complexity of gender identity, hinting at the personal struggles and societal judgments faced by those who do not conform to traditional norms. The morning light, often symbolic of new beginnings, here illuminates the ongoing challenges of self-acceptance and societal perception.

The poet's contemplation of mortality and language is evident in the lines, "although we use it each day (and casually), our behavior shows that we find 'dying' to be the most vile word in the language." This reflection on the aversion to death, despite its inevitability, highlights the paradoxical nature of human existence. The subsequent image of an infant, "unkindled to laughter by the faces meant to make it laugh," delving into reflective curiosity, underscores the innate human tendency towards introspection and the search for meaning, even from an early age.

The poem further examines the aftermath of triumph with "is that regular mode of life following a great victory a chance to reflect and reenergize, or one to wonder why you did not simply kill yourself in the climax?" This line starkly portrays the existential void that can follow significant achievements, questioning the purpose and fulfillment derived from success. The image of wearing a "photo-mask of mom so the orphan will feed from the bottle" evokes themes of deception and survival, illustrating the lengths to which individuals go to nurture and sustain life in the face of loss.

Istvan's meditation on generational trauma is evident in "traumas transmuting across generations without deliberate effort," suggesting the pervasive and enduring impact of past wounds on present and future lives. This notion of inherited pain resonates with the subsequent lines on the absurdity of human desires and the search for spiritual enlightenment, emphasizing the cyclical and often futile nature of these pursuits.

The poem concludes with a reflection on the self and the impossibility of fully transcending one's identity. "Religions that ask a given self to discover its own nonexistence ask the impossible of that self" encapsulates the tension between spiritual aspirations and the inherent limitations of human consciousness.

Istvan's "Made for You and Me 2017" is a profound exploration of human frailty, resilience, and the relentless quest for meaning amidst the chaos of existence. Through vivid imagery and poignant reflections, the poet invites readers to confront the darkest and most vulnerable aspects of their own humanity.

M. A. Istvan Jr., Made for You and Me 2017, existential reflections, addiction, identity, resilience, human experience, quest for meaning, societal critique, vivid imagery, poetry, generational trauma, spiritual enlightenment, human frailty, philosophical poetry.

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Three Verses on "Beacon Speaks"
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Three Verses on "Beacon Speaks"

In the poem "Beacon Speaks," M. A. Istvan Jr. and collaborators explore the enduring influence of Beacon, a city in New York's Hudson Valley, on its former residents. Through various voices and perspectives, the poem captures the complexities of identity, memory, and the struggle to rise above one's origins while still being inevitably shaped by them. The chorus sections emphasize the lasting impact of Beacon's culture and environment on those who have left, while the verses delve into personal experiences and the gritty realities of life in and around Beacon.

The poem opens with a chorus that sets the stage for the exploration of Beacon's influence, noting how even those who have "made it out on top" carry traces of their past: "bad teeth, self-doubt, slang, even our bop." This establishes a theme of inescapable heritage, where one's origins continue to speak through their current selves, often in ways that are subtly discernible to others.

Istvan's verse delves into the specific social dynamics and characters of Beacon, painting a vivid picture of life in the city. He describes the allure of "hoodrats" and the chaotic scenes of black preggos, acrylic-nail scratches, and blunt-rolling alley cats. This verse highlights the cyclical nature of life in Beacon, where even those who leave are drawn back to familiar environments and relationships, often fraught with dysfunction and struggle. The scene is raw, filled with blunt-rolling alley cats and Baby Phat-wearing women. The struggle is palpable—child support dodges, cracked 40 Miller drafts, and chaotic confrontations. These characters are deeply entrenched in a cycle that seems impossible to break, highlighting the relentless grip of their environment.

The second chorus shifts the focus to those who have given up certain vices but still carry emotional and psychological scars: "teary eyes, rage-outs, fear, even our cocks." This section underscores the pervasive sense of incompleteness and the lingering effects of past behaviors and experiences.

Aly-Al's verse provides a deeply personal account of addiction, portraying a life dominated by the pursuit of drugs and the consequential spiral into deeper dependency. The narrative is one of relentless pursuit and inevitable relapse, despite attempts at recovery. The verse is a raw depiction of the challenges faced by those trying to escape the cycle of addiction, with Aly-Al highlighting the paradox of temporary escape through substance abuse and the perpetual return to the same destructive patterns. The father-son dynamic is fraught with chasing highs and petty theft, with crack and cheap booze as their companions. The passage of time shows a craft honed in addiction, hiding tracks in the summer heat, and the relentless cycle of relapse and detox. The vivid imagery of bartering stolen goods under a bridge and the constant battle with sobriety underscores the inescapable nature of addiction.

The third chorus extends the theme of being perceived as "off" by others due to past behaviors and associations, this time focusing on the physical and social markers that set former Beacon residents apart: "crooked grills, distrust, dress, even jump shots." The refrain reinforces the idea that the influence of one's origins is pervasive and recognizable, affecting how they are received in new environments.

Space Jesus's verse (missing in this fragment) would likely contribute to the narrative by adding another layer of personal or communal reflection, further enriching the tapestry of voices and experiences.

The fourth chorus addresses those who have sought philosophical or spiritual insights, noting how even such pursuits are colored by their past: "drug abuse, con ways, stress, even our ox." This section suggests that no matter how far one moves intellectually or spiritually, the influence of one's background persists.

Cride's verse wraps up the poem with a nostalgic look at Beacon through the lens of music and personal memories. He recalls listening to mixtapes, smoking weed, and engaging in the local music scene. This verse emphasizes the deep, lasting impact of Beacon on his artistic identity and personal history, showing how the city's cultural elements continue to shape his creative expressions.

Overall, "Beacon Speaks" is a powerful exploration of the inescapable influence of one's origins. It captures the enduring mark of a place on its people, illustrating how past environments and experiences continue to shape identities and perceptions. Through vivid imagery and personal narratives, the poem delves into themes of identity, struggle, and the complex relationship between one's past and present.

M. A. Istvan Jr., Beacon Speaks, poem, identity, struggle, Beacon NY, addiction, personal narrative, cultural influence, memory, community, past and present, literary exploration, social dynamics, lyrical poetry, urban life, Hudson Valley.

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Why Must He Write from the Third Person?
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Why Must He Write from the Third Person?

"Why Must He Write from the Third Person?" by Michael Anthony Istvan Jr. is a stark and unsettling piece that delves into the psyche of a character grappling with the horrors of their own actions. The poem’s exploration of disturbing themes such as sexual violence, obsession, and the disassociation necessary to cope with one’s atrocities is both powerful and deeply troubling. Istvan employs the third person to create a distance between the narrator and the protagonist, which serves to highlight the protagonist’s inability to confront their own reality directly.

The opening lines, "Cliché arson did not hide / a rape flubbed in that," immediately set a dark tone, indicating a failed attempt to cover up a heinous act through destruction. The use of "cliché arson" suggests a worn-out or predictable method, implying that the protagonist’s actions are not only criminal but also unimaginative and desperate. The mention of a "rape flubbed" points to an unsuccessful or incomplete attempt at sexual violence, adding to the sense of chaos and failure surrounding the protagonist.

Istvan’s choice to describe the protagonist’s desires as "his dream on a hentai platter" brings a disturbing element of fantasy into the mix. Hentai, a genre of Japanese animated pornography, indicates the protagonist’s warped sexual fantasies and the detachment from reality. The imagery of the protagonist needing to "roll / his exchange sister’s finger / for laptop access" is both grotesque and pathetic, illustrating the lengths to which he goes to fulfill his perverse desires. The use of "kana keys" emphasizes the foreignness and the cultural specificity of the situation, while "crushing her hyoid" starkly portrays the violent climax of the protagonist’s actions.

The phrase "open-layup airball" at the poem's conclusion brings a jarring juxtaposition of sports imagery with the violent act described. An "open-layup airball" signifies a missed opportunity in basketball, a moment of failure in an otherwise easy situation. This metaphor serves to underscore the protagonist’s incompetence and the ultimate futility of his actions. The use of such an everyday sports term in the context of violence adds a layer of surrealism and detachment, reinforcing the protagonist's dissociation from his own actions.

The poem’s title, "Why Must He Write from the Third Person?", poses a critical question about the necessity of detachment in narrating such a story. By writing in the third person, the protagonist distances himself from the reality of his deeds, reflecting a psychological need to disassociate from the guilt and horror of his actions. Istvan's choice to frame the narrative in this way allows readers to see the protagonist’s internal conflict and denial more clearly, making the horror of the situation even more palpable.

In "Why Must He Write from the Third Person?", Michael Anthony Istvan Jr. explores themes of violence, fantasy, and psychological detachment with a raw and unsettling intensity. The poem’s vivid imagery and stark language confront readers with the disturbing reality of the protagonist’s actions, while the third-person perspective underscores the disassociation and denial inherent in the character’s psyche. This piece stands as a powerful commentary on the darkness that can reside within the human mind and the lengths to which one might go to avoid facing it directly.

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Every Curve a Middle Finger
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Every Curve a Middle Finger

"Every Curve a Middle Finger" by Michael Anthony Istvan Jr. is a scathing critique of performative activism and the commodification of resistance. The poem dissects the dynamics of a post-abortion party, examining how acts of rebellion can become hollow gestures when they are more about social media approval than genuine defiance. Istvan's incisive language and vivid imagery expose the contradictions and superficiality of the characters’ actions, questioning the authenticity of their proclaimed ideals.

The title, "Every Curve a Middle Finger," sets the tone for the poem, suggesting a bold and confrontational attitude. This phrase captures the essence of the poem’s critique: the way personal expression and bodily autonomy are used as tools of defiance against oppressive structures, yet often in a way that can seem insincere or performative.

The poem opens with "Drunken talk after / the livestreamed abortion party," immediately placing the reader in a setting of casual revelry mixed with heavy social and political undertones. The concept of an "abortion party" is jarring, highlighting the extreme measures taken to reclaim and celebrate bodily autonomy. However, the "drunken talk" hints at the lack of seriousness and depth in the participants’ engagement with such a profound issue.

Istvan reveals the group’s collective mindset with "a unanimity already clear / in finger snaps and hashtag cringe." The finger snaps—a common gesture of approval in certain activist and artistic circles—coupled with the "hashtag cringe" reflect a culture that prioritizes surface-level engagement and social media validation. The phrase "Slay, Queen" epitomizes this, showcasing how acts of rebellion are often reduced to catchy slogans and digital approval.

The lines "parading about / holding many men / in pure lard" serve as a metaphor for the superficial and sometimes absurd ways in which the group believes they are challenging the status quo. The imagery of "pure lard" suggests excess and grotesqueness, implying that their methods are not just ineffective but also mockingly counterproductive. It’s a stark visual that conveys a sense of misguided defiance.

The poem culminates with the declaration that such actions "help dismantle / the white patriarchy that just / loves to control our bodies." This statement, dripping with irony, underscores the poem’s central critique: that these performative acts of rebellion are seen as dismantling oppressive structures, yet they often fail to address the deeper, more systemic issues. Istvan's use of the word "just" highlights the oversimplification of complex social problems, pointing to the inadequacy of these gestures in effecting real change.

Through "Every Curve a Middle Finger," Michael Anthony Istvan Jr. challenges readers to reflect on the nature of modern activism. The poem questions the authenticity and effectiveness of performative acts of resistance, urging a deeper engagement with the issues at hand. By exposing the superficiality and contradictions within these acts, Istvan calls for a more sincere and impactful approach to challenging oppressive structures.

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performative activism, bodily autonomy, social media validation, superficial resistance, post-abortion party, Michael Anthony Istvan Jr., poetry, incisive critique, modern activism, hollow gestures, oppressive structures, authentic defiance, vivid imagery, cultural critique, social dynamics, digital approval, systemic issues, challenging status quo, performative rebellion, incisive language.

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Istvan Academic BIO FAQ
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Istvan Academic BIO FAQ

The pursuit of becoming a professor in philosophy, as described in the provided academic biography, is a narrative that intertwines personal struggle, intellectual curiosity, and a deep commitment to the search for truth. The author's journey is marked by an early and profound engagement with existential questions, driven not by formal education or traditional mentorship but by a personal quest for understanding amidst challenging circumstances.

From an early age, the author was captivated by the profound questions that touch upon the essence of human existence. This intellectual curiosity was not sparked by a serendipitous encounter with a philosophical text or a mentor but rather emerged from the author's introspective nature and the harsh realities of their environment. Growing up in a community where academic pursuits were foreign and survival often took precedence, the author's early life was characterized by a sense of alienation and a relentless pursuit of understanding.

The author's narrative reveals a profound dissatisfaction with the conventional narratives and imaginative games of childhood, leading to a deeper engagement with philosophical inquiry. This early introspection, combined with an acute awareness of the emptiness of societal norms, laid the groundwork for a lifelong commitment to exploring the fundamental questions of existence. The author's journey into academia was not a straightforward path but rather a pilgrimage marked by personal struggle and intellectual discovery.

In high school and later in undergraduate studies, the author found glimpses of philosophical inquiry in literature and other academic disciplines. However, it was not until college that the author formally encountered philosophy, which offered a structured way to explore the deep questions that had always intrigued them. This formal introduction to philosophy provided the author with the tools to study cosmic conundrums head-on, without the crutch of plot and character found in literature.

The author's academic journey, including earning degrees in Philosophy and English, and later an MA in Philosophy and Creative Writing, reflects a balance between continental and analytic philosophical traditions. This diverse educational background enabled the author to approach philosophical questions from multiple perspectives, blending rigorous argumentation with a poetic and imaginative exploration of reality.

Throughout their academic career, the author grappled with the central problems of philosophy, focusing particularly on metaphysical questions about God and free will. The author's work is characterized by a commitment to logical rigor and an aversion to rhetorical sleight-of-hand, reflecting a deep-seated belief in the principle of sufficient reason. This philosophical orientation, rooted in the rationalist tradition of Spinoza and Nietzsche, underpins the author's approach to intellectual inquiry and teaching.

Despite the challenges of balancing teaching, research, and personal life, the author remained dedicated to the pursuit of philosophical truth. The narrative reveals a profound sense of mission, driven by the belief that philosophical inquiry is essential to understanding the human condition and addressing contemporary societal issues. The author's commitment to philosophy is portrayed as a relentless quest for understanding, driven by an insatiable curiosity and a desire to challenge conventional thinking.

In conclusion, the provided academic biography offers a rich and nuanced portrait of a philosopher's journey. It highlights the interplay between personal struggle and intellectual curiosity, revealing how the author's early experiences and deep-seated philosophical questions shaped their academic career. The narrative underscores the importance of philosophy as a lifelong endeavor, characterized by a relentless pursuit of truth and a commitment to exploring the fundamental questions of existence.

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MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 32)
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 32)

"Squat-crapping on the fanned-out covers of outdated Time at the doctor’s office," a selection from Michael Anthony Istvan Jr.'s "Made for You and Me 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017—part 31)," continues the poet's exploration of contemporary existentialism and societal critiques through fragmented, vivid imagery and darkly humorous vignettes. This section encapsulates a mosaic of human experience, juxtaposing the mundane with the absurd, and the sacred with the profane, to create a disjointed yet profound commentary on modern life.

Istvan’s poem opens with the stark image of "squat-crapping on the fanned-out covers of outdated Time at the doctor’s office," setting a tone of irreverence and decay. This visceral image is mirrored later by "ball-dangling defecation on the chemo center’s magazine table of polite fictions," reinforcing a sense of bodily degradation in spaces meant for healing. These images challenge the reader to confront the raw, unfiltered aspects of human existence that are often sanitized in polite society.

The poet questions the efficacy of collective prayer with "does God better hear a prayer when launched from an entire parish?" This line prompts reflection on the nature of faith and communal belief, juxtaposed with the chaos and fragmentation depicted in other parts of the poem. The imagery of "a flash unbuckle blasts diarrhea at the waiting-room bead maze, children slack jawed" further underscores the juxtaposition between innocence and grotesque reality.

Themes of memory and loss permeate the poem, as seen in "realizing that you are starting to forget what she looked like" and "reading the personal anchors she left behind— / lotion, a brush full of tangles—not as snakeskin, / but as promises that she will come back home." These lines convey the poignancy of holding onto memories and the personal items of loved ones, evoking a deep sense of longing and the passage of time.

The poem also delves into philosophical and psychological musings, such as "it is question begging to say that when the materialist reduces Susan’s pain— / reduces it not just to anybody’s complex of neurophysiology but to Susan’s— / he fails to capture the qualia of her pain, the first-person what-it-is-like-for-her." This reflection on the nature of pain and subjective experience challenges materialist perspectives and invites readers to consider the limitations of empirical understanding.

Istvan continues to weave together disparate elements of modern life, from the absurdity of "motorcycle club patches, and the process of sewing them on" to the critique of consumerism in "Gucci bags over homeless legs." These images serve as commentary on identity, social status, and the often superficial ways we define ourselves and others.

The poem also touches on themes of vulnerability and exploitation, with lines like "not exploiting her vulnerability—his aikido style of exploitation" and "bared-throat defenselessness is itself a defense, / ironclad, around those whose honor (or desire / to signal honor) blocks them from exploiting it." These observations highlight the complex dynamics of power and protection in human relationships.

In "bits of steel from the fallen towers given out as gifts," Istvan reflects on the commodification of tragedy and the ways in which we memorialize and commercialize collective trauma. This theme is echoed in "coffins afloat down city streets," a haunting image that speaks to the pervasive presence of death and the ways it infiltrates everyday life.

Through "Squat-crapping on the fanned-out covers of outdated Time at the doctor’s office," Istvan masterfully captures the fragmented, often contradictory nature of contemporary existence. His use of stark, evocative imagery and philosophical reflections invites readers to engage deeply with the complexities of modern life, confronting both its absurdities and its profound moments of human experience.

existentialism, contemporary poetry, Michael Anthony Istvan Jr., modern life critique, vivid imagery, fragmented narrative, bodily degradation, communal faith, memory and loss, subjective experience, materialism critique, social commentary, vulnerability and exploitation, commodification of tragedy, human experience, philosophical reflections.

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The Jerkiest Waltzes Still Follow Protocol?
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

The Jerkiest Waltzes Still Follow Protocol?

Michael Anthony Istvan Jr.'s poem "The Jerkiest Waltzes Still Follow Protocol" critiques the bureaucratic and impersonal nature of institutional support systems. Through vivid imagery and metaphor, Istvan questions the authenticity of roles typically seen as societal lifelines, such as teachers, nurses, and priests. These figures, described as "sanctioned lifelines," appear overly regulated and detached from genuine human connection, encapsulated in the phrase "coiled in red tape."

Istvan employs the metaphor of these roles as "scripted NPCs" to emphasize their lack of spontaneity and genuine interaction. Non-playable characters (NPCs) in video games follow predetermined scripts, and by likening societal lifelines to NPCs, Istvan underscores the mechanical and impersonal nature of these roles. This comparison highlights the systemic issues within these institutions, suggesting that the individuals within them are constrained by protocols that strip away their authenticity and ability to provide real support.

The poem delves deeper into the human condition, suggesting that this scripted existence is a universal plight. The lines "too much maybe / like all of us flung, / full of encoded drives, / into this game" reflect a deterministic view of life, where individuals operate within the confines of pre-existing conditions and societal expectations. This perspective aligns with Istvan's broader philosophical themes, exploring the tension between free will and determinism.

The concluding lines emphasize the personal impact of this institutional detachment. The inability of these lifelines to serve as "authentic / beacons to turn to" leaves individuals, especially those in need of support, without reliable sources of guidance and comfort. Istvan's poem ultimately calls for a more genuine and empathetic approach to roles that are meant to provide care and support, challenging the reader to reflect on the limitations imposed by rigid structures and the need for authentic human connection.

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Michael Anthony Istvan Jr., institutional critique, societal lifelines, teachers, nurses, priests, scripted NPCs, bureaucratic detachment, human connection, deterministic existence, philosophical poetry, critique of institutions, empathy, authentic support, poetry analysis.

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Sims School Bus in the Tsunami
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Sims School Bus in the Tsunami

"Sims School Bus in the Tsunami" is a concise yet profound poem that delves into existential themes of suffering, resilience, and the human capacity for adaptation in the face of overwhelming adversity. Through its stark imagery and philosophical undertones, the poem captures a poignant reflection on the nature of existence and the relentless challenges posed by the universe.

The poem opens with an assertion about the cosmos, suggesting it "insinuates malignant design." This phrase implies a universe that often appears hostile or indifferent to human suffering, evoking a sense of malevolent intent behind the random chaos of life. The reference to a "dental-drilling demiurge" further emphasizes this idea, painting a picture of a creator or force that is both painful and uncaring, akin to the discomfort and dread associated with a relentless dental drill.

In contrast to this cosmic indifference, the poem introduces a "Promethean knack" within humans—a reference to Prometheus, the mythological figure who defied the gods to bring fire (and thus knowledge and progress) to humanity. This symbolizes the human spirit's tenacity and ingenuity, its ability to adapt and find new baselines of normalcy even as suffering intensifies. The metaphor of "frogs in water slowly heated" vividly illustrates this gradual adaptation to worsening conditions, highlighting how humans often acclimate to pain and distress until it becomes unbearable.

The poem's culmination in the line "until death obliterates us / into untorturable smithereens" brings a stark conclusion to the meditation on suffering and resilience. Here, death is portrayed not merely as an end but as a release from the capacity to be tortured—an obliteration into "smithereens" that cannot be tormented any further. This final image offers a bleak yet perhaps comforting resolution, suggesting that in death, the relentless cycle of suffering ceases.

"Sims School Bus in the Tsunami" employs its compact form to deliver a powerful exploration of existential angst, the resilience of the human spirit, and the ultimate release from suffering. The poem's use of mythological and everyday imagery juxtaposes the grandeur of human defiance with the mundane reality of enduring pain, inviting readers to ponder the profound complexities of life and death.

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MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 31)
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 31)

In "Kudzu Vines of Cult Indoctrination," a segment from the larger mosaic poem "MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017—part 31)," the poet navigates a labyrinth of modern existential dilemmas and societal critiques. This passage encapsulates the fragmentation and complexity of contemporary life through a series of vivid, often unsettling images that provoke reflection on themes of identity, societal norms, and the human condition.

The opening metaphor of "kudzu vines of cult indoctrination strangling gardens of parental investment" sets the tone for the poem. Kudzu, an invasive species known for its rapid and uncontrollable spread, symbolizes the pervasive and destructive nature of cult-like ideologies. These ideologies suffocate the carefully nurtured values and investments of parents, illustrating a struggle between individual upbringing and overpowering external influences. This metaphor resonates with the anxiety of losing control over one's cultural and moral legacy to more aggressive, external forces.

The following line, "reviving someone only to beat the shit out of them," presents a stark and brutal image. This line conveys a sense of cyclical violence and futility, highlighting the cruelty of giving life only to inflict pain. It reflects a deeper commentary on societal practices that ostensibly aim to help or heal but end up perpetuating harm.

"The furry pause between teen identities seems more pregnant than ever" captures the liminality and turbulence of adolescence. The "furry pause" suggests a moment of softness and uncertainty, a transitional phase laden with potential and anxiety. This period is described as "pregnant," emphasizing its significance and the myriad possibilities it holds for personal growth and identity formation.

"Toes curled away from the cold tile of dawn footsteps" evokes a visceral reaction to discomfort and fear. The image of curling toes in response to cold tiles at dawn suggests a reluctance to face the harsh realities of the new day, symbolizing a broader hesitation to confront uncomfortable truths or challenges.

The poem continues with "wondering whether you were liked because of your race or in spite of it," touching on the complex and often painful considerations of racial identity and acceptance. This line underscores the internal conflict and self-doubt experienced by individuals navigating racially charged environments, where acceptance may be conditional or superficial.

"Illegal to eat a swan—nasty, ornery, source of coronation down—in a land of famine" juxtaposes luxury and necessity, highlighting societal contradictions. The swan, a symbol of beauty and nobility, is protected even in times of extreme scarcity, suggesting misplaced priorities and the absurdities of legal and social norms.

The passage also delves into the dynamics of heroism and resistance with "struggling, real hard, to resist the fatalistic tug of his groomer-camp-counselor look." This line portrays the inner battle against predestined roles or manipulative influences, emphasizing the effort required to maintain autonomy and resist external pressures.

"Dramatic dying, even if tamer than grenade-leaping heroism (even if no more than shunning hospice’s morphined stupor), is—like free-range kids popping wheelies on knee-bloody bikes beyond screens—safeguarded, for now, by the grubby poor" contrasts different forms of valor and the socio-economic factors that preserve certain freedoms. It suggests that genuine, everyday acts of defiance and resilience are often preserved by those living on society's margins.

The poem critiques superficial judgments with "criticized for having subjects too posed even though poses reveal something about them." It acknowledges the value in seemingly artificial presentations, suggesting that poses can convey deeper truths about individuals.

Through lines like "imagine if we did the NBA like we do now our colleges: Team USA competitiveness plunging—China’s prayers answered—as we chase the jungle’s standard of diversity," the poem satirizes contemporary approaches to diversity and inclusion, questioning their impact on merit and excellence.

The final stanzas delve into personal and societal decay, with images of "prison hospice," "cursory editing of old work so as to get to new work," and "the urge to sew together identical twins." These lines evoke a sense of deterioration and the desperate, often absurd attempts to find meaning or connection in a fragmented world.

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Cram Session
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Cram Session

“Cram Session" delves into the complex dynamics of online interactions, personal insecurities, and the pressures of contemporary social engagement. The poem offers a brief yet incisive glimpse into the protagonist's mental and emotional state as he grapples with his intention to connect with a digital acquaintance under the veil of secrecy from his spouse.

The title "Cram Session" sets the tone, suggesting a hurried, pressured attempt to absorb or perform, much like a student preparing last-minute for an exam. This metaphor extends to the protagonist's plan to cold call his DM (direct message) pal, implying a rushed and somewhat desperate attempt to establish a connection or to fulfill a social obligation.

The protagonist's decision to call while his wife showers highlights a clandestine nature to his actions. This secrecy adds a layer of tension and guilt, suggesting that his motivations might not be entirely pure or that he fears judgment from his spouse. The act of "cold calling" someone he knows only through digital interactions underscores the impersonal and awkward nature of such connections, emphasizing the artificiality and uncertainty inherent in online relationships.

The poem's focus on the protagonist's intention "just to praise her brave tweet" brings forth the theme of social validation. In the age of social media, where affirmations and likes often substitute for meaningful interactions, the protagonist's desire to praise the tweet can be seen as an attempt to gain favor or to participate in the performative aspect of digital culture. This desire to praise, however, is undercut by his inability to recall the specific content of the tweet, exposing the superficiality of his engagement. He remembers it as "brave" and "controversial," but these descriptors are vague and reveal more about the social currency of controversy and bravery than about the actual substance of the tweet.

The protagonist's anxiety is further amplified by his "what-if worries of pressure to spell out the praise." This line captures the fear of being exposed as insincere or uninformed. The pressure to articulate specific praise highlights the fragility of online interactions, where one's value and sincerity are constantly scrutinized. The protagonist's realization that he cannot remember her point "beyond it being controversial" underscores the performative nature of his praise. It suggests that what matters in digital interactions is not the depth of understanding or genuine engagement, but rather the adherence to social norms of validation and support.

The poem subtly critiques the performative aspects of social media, where interactions are often reduced to superficial affirmations and where controversy itself becomes a marker of value. The protagonist's internal struggle and the resulting inarticulateness reflect a broader societal issue: the challenge of maintaining genuine connections and meaningful discourse in an increasingly digital and performative world.

online interactions, social media critique, personal insecurities, digital relationships, performative praise, social validation, superficial engagement, contemporary social dynamics, mental and emotional state, secrecy, artificial connections, meaningful discourse.

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Acid Bath of Market Forces
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Acid Bath of Market Forces

"Acid Bath of Market Forces" presents a sharp critique of the commercialization of educational and cultural institutions. Through a succinct and pointed critique, the poem addresses the ways in which market-driven values increasingly overshadow qualities such as character and integrity.

The title "Acid Bath of Market Forces" suggests a corrosive impact of economic imperatives on various societal structures, notably education and media. The metaphor of an acid bath implies a destructive process that erodes core values, leaving behind a superficial veneer.

The poem opens with the image of "sunset shadow of optics over character," which evokes a sense of the fading or obscuring of true character by the overpowering influence of appearance and perception. This shadow represents the creeping influence of market forces on institutions traditionally valued for their intrinsic qualities rather than their external appeal.

The poem's reference to "college" and "Disney" establishes a contrast between educational institutions and popular media. Both are presented as being affected by market forces, though in different ways. The notion that Disney's reboots are driven by "populist profit" indicates a prioritization of financial gain over artistic or educational integrity. The mention of "teachers chosen for color" like "Cinderella for curves" is a direct critique of tokenism and the superficial selection criteria that prioritize appearance over competence and ethical standards.

The phrase "how that thang squirt, how it smell" adds a layer of satirical commentary, suggesting a further descent into commodification and objectification. It implies that future selections might prioritize even more superficial attributes or aspects that cater to market trends rather than genuine qualifications or contributions.

The poem's use of contrasting images—such as the idealized character of Cinderella and the practical, merit-based role of teachers—serves to highlight the disparity between appearance and substance. By juxtaposing the superficial attributes celebrated in commercial media with the deeper values traditionally associated with educational institutions, the poem underscores the detrimental effects of market forces on these fields.

Overall, "Acid Bath of Market Forces" offers a critique of how economic considerations increasingly dictate the standards by which individuals and institutions are evaluated. It calls attention to the erosion of integrity and the growing emphasis on market-driven, superficial criteria at the expense of more meaningful values.

Acid Bath of Market Forces poem, commercialization critique, market-driven values, educational integrity, media commodification, tokenism critique, Disney reboots, superficial selection criteria, economic imperatives, character versus appearance, educational institutions, media influence, cultural commodification.

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Puberty Blocker
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Puberty Blocker

"Puberty Blocker" delves into the concept of juvenile rebellion as a vital and transformative force within the natural and social order. The poem employs metaphoric language to draw parallels between biological processes and social phenomena, ultimately presenting youth's defiance as an essential catalyst for progress and evolution.

The title "Puberty Blocker" itself is evocative, suggesting an interruption or manipulation of natural developmental processes. It immediately brings to mind contemporary debates surrounding medical interventions in adolescence, but the poem takes this idea and expands it into a broader philosophical discourse.

The opening lines, "How much of a stretch is it / to call juvenile rebellion / Earth’s prophylaxis against / memetic sclerosis," posit juvenile rebellion as a necessary countermeasure against cultural stagnation. "Memetic sclerosis" here refers to the rigidity and resistance to change within societal norms and ideas, akin to the hardening of arteries in a biological context. By framing rebellion as "Earth’s prophylaxis," the poem suggests that youthful defiance serves as a protective measure, preventing the ossification of cultural and intellectual landscapes.

The metaphor of rebellion as "an injection / of molten chaos—like / the gene-shuffle of sex" furthers this notion. Just as sexual reproduction introduces genetic diversity, rebellion injects "molten chaos" into the cultural milieu, fostering innovation and dynamic change. This comparison underscores the poem's argument that disruption and disorder, while often perceived negatively, are crucial for growth and adaptation.

The idea of rebellion catalyzing "Ubermenschean leaps / from the organic Petri dish" invokes Nietzsche’s concept of the Übermensch, or "Overman." In this context, the poem suggests that such leaps in human development and capability are contingent upon the turbulent forces of youthful defiance. The "organic Petri dish" symbolizes the environment in which humanity evolves, and rebellion acts as the catalyst for transcending current limitations.

In essence, "Puberty Blocker" celebrates the chaotic energy of youth as a driving force for societal and evolutionary advancement. By likening rebellion to biological processes that ensure diversity and adaptability, the poem underscores its necessity in preventing cultural stagnation and fostering the emergence of superior human potentials.

Puberty Blocker poem, juvenile rebellion, memetic sclerosis, cultural stagnation, Earth’s prophylaxis, molten chaos, gene-shuffle, societal evolution, Ubermenschean leaps, Nietzsche Übermensch, cultural innovation, biological metaphors, societal progress, youth defiance, transformative force.

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Istvan Bio FAQ
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Istvan Bio FAQ

"Istvan Bio FAQ" is a compelling mosaic of personal reflections, cultural critiques, and intellectual explorations. The piece is structured as a series of candid responses to hypothetical frequently asked questions, each offering insights into Istvan’s life, beliefs, and experiences. Through this format, Istvan constructs a nuanced self-portrait that melds autobiographical elements with broader social and philosophical commentary.

The narrative begins with Istvan's upbringing in the Hudson Valley, specifically the Newburgh-Beacon area. He vividly describes the transformation of this region due to gentrification, juxtaposing the past squalor with the present affluence. This contrast serves as a backdrop for Istvan’s reflections on identity and belonging. His nostalgic yet critical view of his hometown reveals a deep connection to place, tempered by a recognition of the socio-economic forces that have reshaped it. The imagery of "vagrant-squatting factories" becoming "million-dollar lofts" encapsulates this transformation, highlighting the loss of a familiar, albeit gritty, environment.

Istvan’s intense personality is a recurring theme. Descriptions of his "manic eyes" and "frenzied strokes" of his hands paint a picture of a passionate and driven individual. His intensity, both a blessing and a curse, is central to his identity. This characteristic, coupled with his commitment to truth and disdain for mediocrity, positions Istvan as a figure both compelling and polarizing. The anecdote of him inadvertently cornering a colleague at a conference, turning a casual conversation into an overwhelming encounter, underscores his unyielding nature and the impact it has on those around him.

Istvan identifies as a Spinozist, embracing a deterministic view of the universe where everything is interconnected and governed by natural laws. This philosophical stance informs his understanding of human agency and moral responsibility. He contends that while everything is determined, human efforts to influence outcomes remain meaningful. This nuanced perspective allows for a complex interplay between determinism and agency, aligning with Istvan’s broader commitment to intellectual rigor and philosophical inquiry.

Politically, Istvan's views are marked by their complexity and resistance to easy categorization. He critiques both left-wing cancel culture and right-wing authoritarianism, advocating for a more nuanced and principled approach to social and political issues. His support for controversial positions, such as the moral permissibility of bestiality and the abolition of retributive justice, reflects his commitment to challenging conventional wisdom and exploring the boundaries of ethical thought. Istvan’s advocacy for noocracy or epistocracy, the rule of the wise, further emphasizes his belief in the importance of intellectual and moral rigor in governance.

Istvan’s reflections on his personal challenges, such as his susceptibility to anger and low self-esteem, reveal a vulnerability that contrasts with his otherwise formidable intellectual persona. His disciplined nature, while often a strength, also becomes a hindrance when it leads him to persist in unfavorable situations. This introspection adds depth to Istvan’s self-portrait, presenting him as a figure of considerable complexity and resilience.

Istvan’s exploration of his interests, particularly his recent dive into the world of niche perfumery, offers a fascinating glimpse into his quest for sensory and aesthetic experiences. His detailed descriptions of various fragrances and their impact on him underscore his appreciation for the art of olfaction. This hobby, juxtaposed with his intense intellectual pursuits, highlights Istvan’s multifaceted personality and his drive to explore and appreciate diverse aspects of life.

Istvan’s daydreams, often centered on themes of rescue and mentorship, reveal a deeply ingrained desire to make a positive impact on others. These fantasies reflect his savior complex and his longing for meaningful connections and contributions. His personal philosophy, rooted in Spinozism and the pursuit of individual greatness, aligns with these daydreams, underscoring his commitment to intellectual and moral excellence.

"Istvan Bio FAQ" is a rich tapestry of personal narrative, philosophical inquiry, and cultural critique. Istvan’s candid reflections and detailed descriptions offer a profound insight into his life and mind. The piece is a testament to his unwavering commitment to truth, intellectual rigor, and the exploration of human potential. Through this self-portrait, Istvan invites readers to engage with the complexities of his identity and the broader questions of existence that drive his work.

Michael Anthony Istvan Jr., Hudson Valley upbringing, personal reflections, Spinozist philosophy, nuanced political views, cancel culture critique, niche perfumery, intellectual rigor, existential inquiry, personal challenges, cultural critique, human potential, autobiographical narrative.

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Don’t let anyone tell you that real life is lacking in poetic interest. This is exactly what the poet is for: he has the mind and the imagination to find something of interest in everyday things. Real life supplies the motifs, the points that need to be said—the actual heart of the matter; but it is the poet’s job to fashion it all into a beautiful, animated whole. You are familiar with Fürnstein, the so-called “nature poet”? He has written a poem about growing hops, and you couldn’t imagine anything nicer. I have now asked him to write some poems celebrating the work of skilled artisans, in particular weavers, and I am quite sure he will succeed; he has lived among such people from an early age, he knows the subject inside out, and will be in full command of his material. That is the advantage of small works: you need only choose subjects that you know and have at your command. With a longer poetic work, however, this is not possible. There is no way around it: all the different threads that tie the whole thing together, and are woven into the design, have to be shown in accurate detail. Young people only have a one-sided view of things, whereas a longer work requires a multiplicity of viewpoints—and that’s where they come unstuck.—Goethe (Conversations with Eckermann)


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