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What is Hive Being, and Why the Name?
You have likely heard talk of a hive mind, where one global mind finds more or less figurative expression in various local minds. Such talk is common enough in nature documentaries, especially ones concerning ants or bees, and in sci-fi programs. Take that notion, at least a loose version of it, and broaden its scope. That will be a decent first step in understanding the title I have chosen both for my Blog and for the first five-volume installment of my magnum opus Made For You and Me, a fragmentary collection of minimalist stanzas from 2016 to 2020.
In alignment with Spinoza (the 17th Century Rationalist to whom I devoted my doctoral studies), I view reality in its totality as a grand hive Being: all entities are but pulsating manifestations of the buckstopping fount of everything, an ultimate being we might call “God” or “Nature” (so long as, out of respect for the capital “G” and the capital “N,” we limit it neither to some anthropomorphic cloud father hurling lightning bolts nor to mere wilderness untouched by human smog). According to the hive-Being view (where reality is one lone superorganism, a monistic—and we might even say unividualist—conception I defend in both my creative and academic capacities), each non-foundational being (each being, that is, whose essence does not involve existence) is an utterly necessitated expression or eruption or exudation of this eternal source—each is, perhaps better put, a mode or manner of being, and so a focal point through which is disclosed, what classical theists sometimes call “being itself” (ipsum esse subsistens): the realness of the real, the being of whatever may be, the sheer activity of being, the very isness of whatever is. This Blog, which duplicates my Substack, throbs as but one among many literary unfurlings of this self-necessitated foundation, this supreme wellspring, of which we—like black holes and broken beliefs, like fractal ferns and flickering flames—are the inevitable stylings.
My Journey
I am an academic who found himself pressured into early retirement by the rising tides of cancel culture. The illiberal scourge of censoring, silencing, and shaming—although always with us throughout our evolution—reached a local peak around 2021. That was the turbulent year my creative pursuits, which the old left once encouraged as a healthy outlet for the stresses of a childhood steeped in poverty and illiteracy, drew the ire of the new safe-space left. A small cadre of self-proclaimed victims and their allies, several of whom continue to berate me years later under pseudonyms as see through as their sexual infatuation, sought to erase me and my heterodoxy. They found support from a wannabe-woke dean, covered in the grand inquisitor robes of our decadent modernity (full-body tattoos) and just itching to signal his commitment to protecting “vulnerable populations” from triggering material (even if just, as it was in my case, off-duty poems “unbecoming for someone calling himself a teacher”). Although I eventually won my due-process case with the help of The Foundation for Individual Rights and Expression, I slunk away from a college that turned its back on protecting freedom of expression and from an institution increasingly intolerant of intellectual diversity.
The wrecking ball to my too-comfy office in the windowless ivory tower came with a silver lining. From the ashes of my professional aspirations rose a phoenix of increased freedom to fulfill the literary calling I have pursued for decades. Reputation concerns never stopped me, even within academia’s sterile halls of conformity. Indeed, my unapologetic defiance, which has long baffled friends and family, no doubt chummed even safe waters—almost as if I were asking for it all along—until the cancel shiver grew too frenzied to hold back its blind thrashings. But now, now I piston the most forbidden territories of human thought with no longer even a twinge of conscience. The newfound freedom means extra time to hone my craft. When not assisting special-needs communities (a day job far more rewarding than freeway-flyer drudgeries), I pursue my literary mission with Dionysian fervor.
Call for Co-Conspirators
This space, my digital sanctuary, showcases the fruits of my mission. Think of my posts, even those linking to my publications, as works in progress. I want your input, unflinching brutality included. Each post begins with an invitation to action: “Let’s workshop this [draft about x, y, z].” Your contributions, whether through public comments or my contact page, help hammer scraps of ore into polished blades fit for magazine publication.
Your input is valuable, even if you are neither a writer nor a reader of literature—twin disciplines dying by the cyber nanosecond. Sometimes—even if at the risk of uttering banalities—an outsider’s fresh vantage can pierce the veils of convention to reveal what insiders miss. It often takes an outsider to make us even think to question our ingrained presuppositions and attitudes. I stand by the hygienic value of contagion. That is one reason I advocate so strongly for intellectual diversity and freedom of expression. And that is also one reason I was so harrowed by the anti-diversity swell of cancel culture in academia (an institution that should be the utmost caretaker of such values)—harrowed especially insofar as that swell masqueraded under the gaslighting guise of “diversity”).
You will witness the breathing evolution of my writings over time. To track these changes, I label each revision by round: “ROUND 2,” ROUND 3,” and so forth. Each piece undergoes continuous refinement based on your feedback and my own revisitations. Sometimes changes will mar the work. That is the risk of creative tinkering as a finite creature. I hope you will alert me to missteps. After many semesters of university writing workshops, one rule has impressed itself upon me: when someone senses a flaw, something almost always needs to change—even if, yes, the proposed solution misses the mark (which often it does). From a quick look into the archives, accessible here, you can see how much I have benefited from your feedback so far.
My Hope
Sharing drafts can be daunting. But showing you the ravaged and unperfumed real deal unfiltered by makeup (stuttering starts and falsities, awkward line breaks and clumsy word choices, grammatical errors and misspellings)—that not only makes my work more relatable, but helps me refine things through your input. I hope the unfiltered look at the raw process of fumbling, rather than just the polished product, also helps other writers develop their craft. Imperfect works often instruct more than perfect ones: whereas the perfect ones tend to have a grace by which they slip inside us without activating our scrutiny, the imperfect ones—especially the near perfect ones—show us glaringly what not to do.
People laugh at me, seeing—in my tilting at the windmills of literary excellence—a Don Quixote clunking around in Arthurian armor in a post-knight era. I am not naïve. I am well aware of the diminishing ability to read, let alone well: slowly and deeply, with gratitude. I am also aware that my style, which often nests subpoints within larger points, never waters down virtuosity for the sake of mass appeal. I watch readers stumble over my sentences, unable to unlock even just the music of the envelope let alone the semantic meat within, which—given my tendency to flashlight through the darker facets of human nature (the addicts, the miscreants, the abusers among us)—only adds an additional alienating layer of difficulty). Beholding these depressive scenes of even supportive family members getting bucked off my syntactic bronco makes me feel like a dinosaur who should get a hint and, if not succumb to the brain rot of skibidi-toilet speak, just hang himself already. Even though the decline in linguistic background and grammatical voltage makes my compositions seem quixotic in a world binging Netflix and TikTok, I persist—raging against the dying of the light—by some internal compulsion to celebrate the richness of language and thought.
My hope is that, despite social media’s unparalleled power to farm our attention, people never forget the unique power of writing. Beyond unveiling hypocrisy, teasing out complex implications, and detailing the commonalities between even the most alien phenomena, writing offers something we need today—trapped in agoraphobic cyber bubbles only thickened by the Lyme dangers of forests and the COVID dangers of cities—perhaps more than ever. Granting us rich access to the first-person perspectives of others (to how things feel to them), writing serves as one of humanity’s best tools for combating loneliness. It allows us to linger, broadly and deeply and at high resolution, within the inner lives of others in a way that other arts can only suggest.
What to Expect
My work spans a broad spectrum: from metaphysical discourses on free will and determinism and the ontology of holes to the ephemera of western culture (whether the childhood impacts of the hypersexual mono-image of black woman as squirting twerkers or Terrence Howard’s sham revolution of mathematics). Some tight and minimal, others free-flowing sprawls; some heady and abstract, others emotional and imagistic—my inkwell musings, which often blend scholarly rigor with a dark humor from both high and low culture, aim to capture the visceral intensity of our personal and social and ultimately existential predicaments.
By no means can I deny that drug abuse, sexual assault, and the tales of the broken and the damned loom large in the tag cloud of my work. My writing will never be a paradise of easy truths and comforting lies. It will challenge you, provoke you, and at times even repulse you. I offer no apologies for the monsters I unleash. They are as much a part of us, at long root scared rodent mammals scurrying in the shadows of dinosaurs, as our noblest aspirations.
But make no mistake. It is not all downer darkness. The archives are my receipts. You will find pieces exploring the pursuit of authenticity in a media-saturated world, the search for meaning in an indifferent cosmos, and the celebration of beauty in both the sublime and the profane. I locate much of my inspiration, in fact, in novelists like Dostoevsky and poets like Ted Kooser—writers unafraid to pursue moral agendas or risk Hallmark sentimentality in an age that often sneers at sincerity.
Be they satirical dissections of modern social dynamics or poignant poems about addiction or academic articles on moral responsibility, my goal is to provoke thought, evoke emotion, and foster meaningful dialogue. Fear has not and will not stop me from challenging humanity’s fundamental taboos (like bestiality and cannibalism) or self-reflecting into the dark chaos of the subconscious, even if that means exposing the Jungian shadows—the inner Goebbels—lurking within us all!
Expect posts each day, no day missed. Donations are welcome, but I impose no paywall: it feels wrong to charge for art, especially given our date with obliteration. Feel free to explore what amounts to, at the time of writing this, close to a thousand pieces of poetry and prose here. That should give you a sense of what awaits.
Join me—specula holstered—on this literary odyssey into the public and private nooks of the hive Being. Let us navigate the labyrinth of creation together, confronting our demons and even slaying our darlings if we must. Let us dance on the razor’s edge between the sublime and the profane in pursuit of an elusive literary perfection never to be confused—as it has been confused in our declining civilization—with the pursuit of popularity or likeability over truth.
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An Olive Branch to the Cancelers
**An Olive Branch to the Cancelers** is a nuanced and provocative essay that addresses the complex interplay between free expression and the impulse to cancel unsettling art and ideas. The essay seeks to empathize with those who believe in canceling problematic content while proposing a solution that honors both the value of free expression and the dangers it can pose.
The essay begins by acknowledging that even the most well-intentioned cancelers of divergent art and thought, those who believe they are protecting vulnerable groups, have a point. They genuinely feel that their actions are just, even if they resort to extreme measures like censoring, shaming, and destroying the careers of artists and thinkers. This perspective is driven by a belief that unsettling art and ideas can cause real harm to certain groups, and that any length of cruelty against creators is justified to protect these groups.
The essay then delves into the genuine risks posed by artists and thinkers. These individuals hold up a mirror to society, revealing uncomfortable truths and challenging cherished beliefs. The reflections they present can be deeply unsettling, leading to crises of identity and belonging. Art and thought can expose the fragility of human existence, the inherent cruelty in our actions, and the disturbing realities of the universe. For many, facing these truths is intolerable, leading to a desire to suppress and cancel the sources of such discomfort.
The author illustrates how the immune systems of those who cannot digest these dangerous truths often protect them through mechanisms like ignorance, ridicule, and evasion. However, there are exceptions—individuals whose defenses are too weak to block out these truths, leading to significant psychological harm. The canceling impulse is thus seen as a reasonable response to protect these vulnerable individuals.
Despite acknowledging the validity of canceling impulses, the essay also argues that these dangers are often overblown. It highlights the resilience of most people to withstand unsettling art and ideas, suggesting that exposure to such content can foster growth and resilience. The essay contends that the widespread fear of art and thought is often performative and driven by a desire for power and control rather than genuine vulnerability.
The author proposes a radical solution: instead of restricting artists and thinkers from creating, restrict the audience from accessing their work. This gatekeeping approach would involve testing and vetting individuals to determine their ability to handle potentially triggering content. The aim is to protect both the creators and the vulnerable individuals, ensuring that only those with the requisite resilience and critical acumen can engage with challenging art and ideas.
The essay suggests that this approach would not only safeguard artistic expression but also elevate the respect for art and thought. By requiring individuals to prove their worthiness to access certain content, society would foster a deeper appreciation for the value and power of art and thought. The proposal is admittedly extreme and satirical, born out of frustration with the current cancel culture, but it aims to spur discussion on balancing free expression with the need to protect vulnerable individuals.
In the concluding section, the author clarifies that the gatekeeping solution is not an ideal in itself but a tactical response to the rampant censorship and cancel culture. While the author personally leans towards open discourse and the cultivation of emotional resilience, the essay emphasizes the need to counter the performative outrage of cancelers by taking their claims seriously and restricting their access to unsettling content. The proposal serves as a rhetorical jujitsu, flipping the script on cancel culture and exposing its performative nature.
**An Olive Branch to the Cancelers** is a thought-provoking essay that seeks to bridge the gap between free-expression advocates and cancelers. It highlights the genuine dangers posed by unsettling art and ideas while proposing a controversial solution to protect both creators and vulnerable individuals. The essay ultimately calls for a nuanced approach to preserving and celebrating artistic expression while minimizing its potential harm.
Subway Restraint
"Subway Restraint" is an intense, visceral exploration of societal frustrations and the psychological balancing act of restraint versus violent release. Set within the confined, pressurized environment of a subway train, the poem delves into a surreal confrontation where an individual grapples with the mounting desire to break free from both physical entrapment and societal constraints. The speaker teeters on the edge of violent action, contemplating using a concealed weapon to lash out against a chaotic mob led by a "fanatic" obstructing the train doors. This tension becomes a metaphor for the speaker’s internal struggle against social pressures, personal impotence, and the need to maintain control when everything around them invites destruction.
The focus on the weaponry—specifically the "Urban Pal" pocket dagger and later the bear mace—serves as a tangible representation of both the speaker’s desire for self-defense and the underlying rage bubbling beneath the surface. The blade, described with cold practicality, and the bear mace, with its detailed specifications, embody the readiness for violence, suggesting that the speaker is far from indifferent to the consequences of their actions but is fully aware of the calculated nature of their thoughts. This awareness becomes both a tool of restraint and an incitement toward the catharsis of violence.
Social commentary permeates the poem as it critiques modern ideological movements, mob mentality, and institutional failure. The mob’s chants of “No! One! Gets! Off!” and the racial dynamics introduced through the description of the officer’s paralysis in the face of escalating tension reveal the broader social context within which this personal drama plays out. The speaker’s dark reflections on race, media-fueled hysteria, and the moral manipulation of protests add a layer of critique about contemporary societal dysfunction. Through this, the poem engages with the themes of systemic breakdown and individual powerlessness.
Furthermore, the imagery of violence and the meticulous attention to tools of harm highlight the conflict between impulse and control. The subway becomes a crucible where patience, fury, and desire for action clash, with the speaker’s struggle for self-restraint serving as an allegory for the broader societal struggle to contain its most destructive instincts. The poem critiques the notion of “reasonable” behavior in an unreasonable world, suggesting that true power lies not in unchecked action but in the strategic release of violence, only when it can serve the speaker’s interests in a more calculated and perhaps morally justified way. This layered exploration of personal and social violence culminates in an imagined moment of catharsis, where chaos reigns supreme but remains deeply rooted in the speaker’s control.
psychological restraint, mob mentality, subway violence, urban chaos, social critique, calculated aggression, weaponized patience, societal breakdown, racial dynamics, systemic dysfunction, personal agency, catharsis, urban environment.
Upstart 1996
"Upstart 1996" delves into the juxtaposition between the dream of stardom and the gritty realities of daily life, particularly as experienced in the small, cramped spaces of a New York City apartment. The figure of the stardom-dreamer, clad in black tights and heavily applied perfume (the era-evoking CK One), symbolizes youthful ambition and an effort to create an image of glamour and sophistication. However, the poem quickly undermines this projection by placing her in a dingy, banal bathroom, a stark reminder of the grounding forces that weigh down even the loftiest dreams. The details of the bathroom—such as the toothpaste-splattered mirror too small to reflect her fully, and the cracked, groaning infrastructure—serve as a metaphor for the fragmentation of her idealized self-image. The bathroom, an intimate yet unglamorous setting, becomes the stage where the harshness of reality and the mundanity of life collide with her aspirations.
The poem’s rich sensory imagery emphasizes the contrast between the dreamer’s vision of herself and the world she inhabits. The cracked tile, cast-iron pipe, and roach trap evoke a sense of decay and neglect, contrasting sharply with the aspirational glamour suggested by the smokey eye shadow and perfume. This tension between desire and reality is further highlighted by the items strewn about the bathroom: the Bic razor, a symbol of practicality and the maintenance of appearances, and the audaciously stained panties and Monistat tube, which point to the raw and unfiltered aspects of her bodily existence. The image of a legless panhandler on the Z train, who knows her by name, reinforces the sense of shared struggle and disillusionment in the urban environment.
The poem effectively captures the atmosphere of 1990s New York, a time and place often romanticized for its gritty yet vibrant artistic scene. The stardom-dreamer’s studio, located within a dilapidated prewar building, embodies the tension between the allure of artistic rebellion and the often harsh, unsentimental realities that accompany it. The Z train, a symbol of the city's ceaseless movement and anonymity, provides a backdrop of urban grit and resilience, reflecting the broader theme of navigating the space between aspiration and survival. In this way, "Upstart 1996" reflects on the struggle to maintain a sense of self and ambition in the face of overwhelming banality, the dreamer’s performative glamour barely concealing the rawness of her experience.
1990s New York, stardom dreams, urban decay, youthful ambition, artistic struggle, CK One, urban reality, studio life, juxtaposition, daily existence, unglamorous reality, fragmented self-image.
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Don’t let anyone tell you that real life is lacking in poetic interest. This is exactly what the poet is for: he has the mind and the imagination to find something of interest in everyday things. Real life supplies the motifs, the points that need to be said—the actual heart of the matter; but it is the poet’s job to fashion it all into a beautiful, animated whole. You are familiar with Fürnstein, the so-called “nature poet”? He has written a poem about growing hops, and you couldn’t imagine anything nicer. I have now asked him to write some poems celebrating the work of skilled artisans, in particular weavers, and I am quite sure he will succeed; he has lived among such people from an early age, he knows the subject inside out, and will be in full command of his material. That is the advantage of small works: you need only choose subjects that you know and have at your command. With a longer poetic work, however, this is not possible. There is no way around it: all the different threads that tie the whole thing together, and are woven into the design, have to be shown in accurate detail. Young people only have a one-sided view of things, whereas a longer work requires a multiplicity of viewpoints—and that’s where they come unstuck.—Goethe (Conversations with Eckermann)
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