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What is Hive Being, and Why the Name?

You have likely heard talk of a hive mind, where one global mind finds more or less figurative expression in various local minds. Such talk is common enough in nature documentaries, especially ones concerning ants or bees, and in sci-fi programs. Take that notion, at least a loose version of it, and broaden its scope. That will be a decent first step in understanding the title I have chosen both for my Blog and for the first five-volume installment of my magnum opus Made For You and Me, a fragmentary collection of minimalist stanzas from 2016 to 2020.

In alignment with Spinoza (the 17th Century Rationalist to whom I devoted my doctoral studies), I view reality in its totality as a grand hive Being: all entities are but pulsating manifestations of the buckstopping fount of everything, an ultimate being we might call “God” or “Nature” (so long as, out of respect for the capital “G” and the capital “N,” we limit it neither to some anthropomorphic cloud father hurling lightning bolts nor to mere wilderness untouched by human smog). According to the hive-Being view (where reality is one lone superorganism, a monistic—and we might even say unividualist—conception I defend in both my creative and academic capacities), each non-foundational being (each being, that is, whose essence does not involve existence) is an utterly necessitated expression or eruption or exudation of this eternal source—each is, perhaps better put, a mode or manner of being, and so a focal point through which is disclosed, what classical theists sometimes call “being itself” (ipsum esse subsistens): the realness of the real, the being of whatever may be, the sheer activity of being, the very isness of whatever is. This Blog, which duplicates my Substack, throbs as but one among many literary unfurlings of this self-necessitated foundation, this supreme wellspring, of which we—like black holes and broken beliefs, like fractal ferns and flickering flames—are the inevitable stylings.

My Journey

I am an academic who found himself pressured into early retirement by the rising tides of cancel culture. The illiberal scourge of censoring, silencing, and shaming—although always with us throughout our evolution—reached a local peak around 2021. That was the turbulent year my creative pursuits, which the old left once encouraged as a healthy outlet for the stresses of a childhood steeped in poverty and illiteracy, drew the ire of the new safe-space left. A small cadre of self-proclaimed victims and their allies, several of whom continue to berate me years later under pseudonyms as see through as their sexual infatuation, sought to erase me and my heterodoxy. They found support from a wannabe-woke dean, covered in the grand inquisitor robes of our decadent modernity (full-body tattoos) and just itching to signal his commitment to protecting “vulnerable populations” from triggering material (even if just, as it was in my case, off-duty poems “unbecoming for someone calling himself a teacher”). Although I eventually won my due-process case with the help of The Foundation for Individual Rights and Expression, I slunk away from a college that turned its back on protecting freedom of expression and from an institution increasingly intolerant of intellectual diversity.  

The wrecking ball to my too-comfy office in the windowless ivory tower came with a silver lining. From the ashes of my professional aspirations rose a phoenix of increased freedom to fulfill the literary calling I have pursued for decades. Reputation concerns never stopped me, even within academia’s sterile halls of conformity. Indeed, my unapologetic defiance, which has long baffled friends and family, no doubt chummed even safe waters—almost as if I were asking for it all along—until the cancel shiver grew too frenzied to hold back its blind thrashings. But now, now I piston the most forbidden territories of human thought with no longer even a twinge of conscience. The newfound freedom means extra time to hone my craft. When not assisting special-needs communities (a day job far more rewarding than freeway-flyer drudgeries), I pursue my literary mission with Dionysian fervor.

Call for Co-Conspirators

This space, my digital sanctuary, showcases the fruits of my mission. Think of my posts, even those linking to my publications, as works in progress. I want your input, unflinching brutality included. Each post begins with an invitation to action: “Let’s workshop this [draft about x, y, z].” Your contributions, whether through public comments or my contact page, help hammer scraps of ore into polished blades fit for magazine publication.

Your input is valuable, even if you are neither a writer nor a reader of literature—twin disciplines dying by the cyber nanosecond. Sometimes—even if at the risk of uttering banalities—an outsider’s fresh vantage can pierce the veils of convention to reveal what insiders miss. It often takes an outsider to make us even think to question our ingrained presuppositions and attitudes. I stand by the hygienic value of contagion. That is one reason I advocate so strongly for intellectual diversity and freedom of expression. And that is also one reason I was so harrowed by the anti-diversity swell of cancel culture in academia (an institution that should be the utmost caretaker of such values)—harrowed especially insofar as that swell masqueraded under the gaslighting guise of “diversity”).

You will witness the breathing evolution of my writings over time. To track these changes, I label each revision by round: “ROUND 2,” ROUND 3,” and so forth. Each piece undergoes continuous refinement based on your feedback and my own revisitations. Sometimes changes will mar the work. That is the risk of creative tinkering as a finite creature. I hope you will alert me to missteps. After many semesters of university writing workshops, one rule has impressed itself upon me: when someone senses a flaw, something almost always needs to change—even if, yes, the proposed solution misses the mark (which often it does). From a quick look into the archives, accessible here, you can see how much I have benefited from your feedback so far.

My Hope

Sharing drafts can be daunting. But showing you the ravaged and unperfumed real deal unfiltered by makeup (stuttering starts and falsities, awkward line breaks and clumsy word choices, grammatical errors and misspellings)—that not only makes my work more relatable, but helps me refine things through your input. I hope the unfiltered look at the raw process of fumbling, rather than just the polished product, also helps other writers develop their craft. Imperfect works often instruct more than perfect ones: whereas the perfect ones tend to have a grace by which they slip inside us without activating our scrutiny, the imperfect ones—especially the near perfect ones—show us glaringly what not to do.

People laugh at me, seeing—in my tilting at the windmills of literary excellence—a Don Quixote clunking around in Arthurian armor in a post-knight era. I am not naïve. I am well aware of the diminishing ability to read, let alone well: slowly and deeply, with gratitude. I am also aware that my style, which often nests subpoints within larger points, never waters down virtuosity for the sake of mass appeal. I watch readers stumble over my sentences, unable to unlock even just the music of the envelope let alone the semantic meat within, which—given my tendency to flashlight through the darker facets of human nature (the addicts, the miscreants, the abusers among us)—only adds an additional alienating layer of difficulty). Beholding these depressive scenes of even supportive family members getting bucked off my syntactic bronco makes me feel like a dinosaur who should get a hint and, if not succumb to the brain rot of skibidi-toilet speak, just hang himself already. Even though the decline in linguistic background and grammatical voltage makes my compositions seem quixotic in a world binging Netflix and TikTok, I persist—raging against the dying of the light—by some internal compulsion to celebrate the richness of language and thought.

My hope is that, despite social media’s unparalleled power to farm our attention, people never forget the unique power of writing. Beyond unveiling hypocrisy, teasing out complex implications, and detailing the commonalities between even the most alien phenomena, writing offers something we need today—trapped in agoraphobic cyber bubbles only thickened by the Lyme dangers of forests and the COVID dangers of cities—perhaps more than ever. Granting us rich access to the first-person perspectives of others (to how things feel to them), writing serves as one of humanity’s best tools for combating loneliness. It allows us to linger, broadly and deeply and at high resolution, within the inner lives of others in a way that other arts can only suggest.

What to Expect

My work spans a broad spectrum: from metaphysical discourses on free will and determinism and the ontology of holes to the ephemera of western culture (whether the childhood impacts of the hypersexual mono-image of black woman as squirting twerkers or Terrence Howard’s sham revolution of mathematics). Some tight and minimal, others free-flowing sprawls; some heady and abstract, others emotional and imagistic—my inkwell musings, which often blend scholarly rigor with a dark humor from both high and low culture, aim to capture the visceral intensity of our personal and social and ultimately existential predicaments.

By no means can I deny that drug abuse, sexual assault, and the tales of the broken and the damned loom large in the tag cloud of my work. My writing will never be a paradise of easy truths and comforting lies. It will challenge you, provoke you, and at times even repulse you. I offer no apologies for the monsters I unleash. They are as much a part of us, at long root scared rodent mammals scurrying in the shadows of dinosaurs, as our noblest aspirations.

But make no mistake. It is not all downer darkness. The archives are my receipts. You will find pieces exploring the pursuit of authenticity in a media-saturated world, the search for meaning in an indifferent cosmos, and the celebration of beauty in both the sublime and the profane. I locate much of my inspiration, in fact, in novelists like Dostoevsky and poets like Ted Kooser—writers unafraid to pursue moral agendas or risk Hallmark sentimentality in an age that often sneers at sincerity.

Be they satirical dissections of modern social dynamics or poignant poems about addiction or academic articles on moral responsibility, my goal is to provoke thought, evoke emotion, and foster meaningful dialogue. Fear has not and will not stop me from challenging humanity’s fundamental taboos (like bestiality and cannibalism) or self-reflecting into the dark chaos of the subconscious, even if that means exposing the Jungian shadows—the inner Goebbels—lurking within us all!

Expect posts each day, no day missed. Donations are welcome, but I impose no paywall: it feels wrong to charge for art, especially given our date with obliteration. Feel free to explore what amounts to, at the time of writing this, close to a thousand pieces of poetry and prose here. That should give you a sense of what awaits.

Join me—specula holstered—on this literary odyssey into the public and private nooks of the hive Being. Let us navigate the labyrinth of creation together, confronting our demons and even slaying our darlings if we must. Let us dance on the razor’s edge between the sublime and the profane in pursuit of an elusive literary perfection never to be confused—as it has been confused in our declining civilization—with the pursuit of popularity or likeability over truth.

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An Introduction to Chaos Magic(k)
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

An Introduction to Chaos Magic(k)

"An Introduction to Chaos Magic(k)" offers a nuanced portrayal of a young woman in the digital age, navigating a complex web of societal pressures, personal insecurities, and self-imposed fantasies. The poem is a striking exploration of how contemporary youth, particularly those on the fringes of traditional and digital cultures, grapple with identity, purpose, and reality in an increasingly fragmented world. The character, a self-styled “metaverse brujita,” embodies the contradictions of modern existence: she is both a product of her environment and an active participant in its creation, constructing a persona that reflects the intersection of digital hyper-reality and archaic mystical beliefs.

Through vivid imagery and detailed descriptions, the poem captures the essence of this young woman’s world—a world where the boundaries between reality and fantasy blur, where identity is both curated and chaotic, and where the pursuit of meaning is fraught with pitfalls. Her life, marked by a series of contradictions—spiritual yet nihilistic, empowered yet fragile, creative yet destructive—serves as a commentary on the broader cultural shifts in the 21st century, particularly the resurgence of mysticism in an era dominated by technology and social media.

The character's engagement with chaos magic, astrology, and other occult practices is depicted not merely as a quirky lifestyle choice but as a desperate attempt to assert control over a life that feels increasingly out of her hands. Her belief in these practices, coupled with her deep-seated insecurities and a pervasive sense of disillusionment, underscores the psychological and emotional turbulence that defines her existence. The poem suggests that these practices, while providing temporary solace, ultimately exacerbate her sense of alienation and contribute to a broader cultural drift toward irrationality and superstition.

Yet, despite her flaws and the toxic elements of her worldview, the poem also expresses a degree of empathy for her. The character’s struggles are emblematic of a generation caught between the promises of technology and the harsh realities of a world that often fails to deliver on those promises. Her dreams, however misguided, are genuine, and her efforts to find meaning and self-worth in a confusing and often hostile world are portrayed with a measure of compassion. The poet’s reflection at the end of the piece acknowledges the character’s potential for growth and change, even as it critiques the cultural forces that shape her.

midst the backdrop of LA's gaunt beauty, sculpted by missed meals and Starbucks, she dons a SpongeBob baseball cap and a Queen of Pentacles tarot card tattoo, symbols that reflect both her childlike nostalgia and her aspirations toward mystical power. Her IG bio declares her a "metaverse brujita," a digital witch navigating the ether with a blend of technology and spirituality, while her surroundings—a one-room world decorated in a mishmash of enchanted forest fairycore and steampunk vintage—mirror her inner turmoil. As she sits on her $400 Moon Pod, she attempts a "mindfulness ritual" meant to exorcise self-loathing and embrace her inner child, but beneath the surface, her actions are driven by a deeper, sublinguistic hope to ward off the growing bitterness toward reality itself.

The poem delves into her psyche, revealing her struggles with identity, her obsession with social validation, and her flirtations with nihilism. Her interactions on social media, her curated digital presence, and her consumption of pop culture all contribute to a sense of disconnection from reality, as she grapples with feelings of inadequacy and the fear of being ordinary. Her rituals, her creative endeavors, and even her relationships are tainted by this inner conflict, as she oscillates between grandiose delusions of self-importance and the crushing weight of self-doubt.

The poem’s narrative is interspersed with moments of raw vulnerability, such as her reflection on past traumas, her obsessive focus on physical imperfections, and her fantasies of escape into a world where she is the central figure—untouched by the harsh judgments of the real world. Yet, despite her struggles, there is a sense of resilience in her, a potential for growth that flickers beneath the layers of magical thinking and victimhood. The author’s note that follows the poem offers a critical yet empathetic perspective, acknowledging the protagonist's flaws while also recognizing her humanity and potential for positive change.

Ultimately, "An Introduction to Chaos Magic(k)" is a poignant exploration of the challenges faced by a generation caught between the digital and the real, the magical and the mundane, as they search for meaning and identity in an increasingly chaotic world. The poem captures the tension between the desire for control and the fear of being overwhelmed by forces beyond one's understanding, offering a nuanced portrayal of a young woman on the edge of self-discovery.

Chaos Magic(k), digital age, modern identity, mysticism, societal pressures, personal insecurities, metaverse brujita, Carl Sagan, victimhood, cultural shifts, Gen Z, psychological turbulence, digital hyper-reality, cultural critique, poetic exploration.

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Nymphology
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Nymphology

"Nymphology" presents a visceral exploration of the entanglement between artistic devotion and destructive desire. The metaphor of the man as a plant needing fire to propagate its seeds underscores the paradox of creation and destruction, where his artistic drive is intertwined with a dark, consuming passion. His vigilance "about where he came" signals a self-awareness of the consequences of his actions, particularly the potential to create life—a responsibility he feels unprepared to handle. Yet, this awareness is overshadowed by his inability to resist the allure of "feral teenyboppers," whose "succubi stares" represent an overpowering temptation that drives him to the brink of moral collapse. The repeated failure to "pull out" is not just a literal failure (he does indeed bust bigtime loads in all these "teenyboppers") but a metaphorical one, symbolizing his inability to detach from the perilous edge where his art and his desires meet. The poem, therefore, delves into the destructive side of creative passion, where the line between creation and annihilation blurs, leading to a complex and dangerous interplay of impulses that the speaker finds himself unable to escape. Through stark and provocative imagery, "Nymphology" questions the costs of artistic devotion when it is entangled with unrestrained and potentially ruinous desires.

Nymphology poem, artistic devotion, destructive desire, creation and annihilation, succubi stares, feral teenyboppers, moral collapse, creative passion, temptation and danger, M. A. Istvan Jr., poetic exploration, dark impulses, self-awareness, provocative imagery, artistic struggle.

Nymphology poem, artistic devotion, destructive desire, creation and annihilation, succubi stares, feral teenyboppers, moral collapse, creative passion, temptation and danger, M. A. Istvan Jr., poetic exploration, dark impulses, self-awareness, provocative imagery, artistic struggle.

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Three Verses on "Beacon Speaks"
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Three Verses on "Beacon Speaks"

In the poem "Beacon Speaks," M. A. Istvan Jr. and collaborators explore the enduring influence of Beacon, a city in New York's Hudson Valley, on its former residents. Through various voices and perspectives, the poem captures the complexities of identity, memory, and the struggle to rise above one's origins while still being inevitably shaped by them. The chorus sections emphasize the lasting impact of Beacon's culture and environment on those who have left, while the verses delve into personal experiences and the gritty realities of life in and around Beacon.

The poem opens with a chorus that sets the stage for the exploration of Beacon's influence, noting how even those who have "made it out on top" carry traces of their past: "bad teeth, self-doubt, slang, even our bop." This establishes a theme of inescapable heritage, where one's origins continue to speak through their current selves, often in ways that are subtly discernible to others.

Istvan's verse delves into the specific social dynamics and characters of Beacon, painting a vivid picture of life in the city. He describes the allure of "hoodrats" and the chaotic scenes of black preggos, acrylic-nail scratches, and blunt-rolling alley cats. This verse highlights the cyclical nature of life in Beacon, where even those who leave are drawn back to familiar environments and relationships, often fraught with dysfunction and struggle. The scene is raw, filled with blunt-rolling alley cats and Baby Phat-wearing women. The struggle is palpable—child support dodges, cracked 40 Miller drafts, and chaotic confrontations. These characters are deeply entrenched in a cycle that seems impossible to break, highlighting the relentless grip of their environment.

The second chorus shifts the focus to those who have given up certain vices but still carry emotional and psychological scars: "teary eyes, rage-outs, fear, even our cocks." This section underscores the pervasive sense of incompleteness and the lingering effects of past behaviors and experiences.

Aly-Al's verse provides a deeply personal account of addiction, portraying a life dominated by the pursuit of drugs and the consequential spiral into deeper dependency. The narrative is one of relentless pursuit and inevitable relapse, despite attempts at recovery. The verse is a raw depiction of the challenges faced by those trying to escape the cycle of addiction, with Aly-Al highlighting the paradox of temporary escape through substance abuse and the perpetual return to the same destructive patterns. The father-son dynamic is fraught with chasing highs and petty theft, with crack and cheap booze as their companions. The passage of time shows a craft honed in addiction, hiding tracks in the summer heat, and the relentless cycle of relapse and detox. The vivid imagery of bartering stolen goods under a bridge and the constant battle with sobriety underscores the inescapable nature of addiction.

The third chorus extends the theme of being perceived as "off" by others due to past behaviors and associations, this time focusing on the physical and social markers that set former Beacon residents apart: "crooked grills, distrust, dress, even jump shots." The refrain reinforces the idea that the influence of one's origins is pervasive and recognizable, affecting how they are received in new environments.

Space Jesus's verse (missing in this fragment) would likely contribute to the narrative by adding another layer of personal or communal reflection, further enriching the tapestry of voices and experiences.

The fourth chorus addresses those who have sought philosophical or spiritual insights, noting how even such pursuits are colored by their past: "drug abuse, con ways, stress, even our ox." This section suggests that no matter how far one moves intellectually or spiritually, the influence of one's background persists.

Cride's verse wraps up the poem with a nostalgic look at Beacon through the lens of music and personal memories. He recalls listening to mixtapes, smoking weed, and engaging in the local music scene. This verse emphasizes the deep, lasting impact of Beacon on his artistic identity and personal history, showing how the city's cultural elements continue to shape his creative expressions.

Overall, "Beacon Speaks" is a powerful exploration of the inescapable influence of one's origins. It captures the enduring mark of a place on its people, illustrating how past environments and experiences continue to shape identities and perceptions. Through vivid imagery and personal narratives, the poem delves into themes of identity, struggle, and the complex relationship between one's past and present.

M. A. Istvan Jr., Beacon Speaks, poem, identity, struggle, Beacon NY, addiction, personal narrative, cultural influence, memory, community, past and present, literary exploration, social dynamics, lyrical poetry, urban life, Hudson Valley.

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Don’t let anyone tell you that real life is lacking in poetic interest. This is exactly what the poet is for: he has the mind and the imagination to find something of interest in everyday things. Real life supplies the motifs, the points that need to be said—the actual heart of the matter; but it is the poet’s job to fashion it all into a beautiful, animated whole. You are familiar with Fürnstein, the so-called “nature poet”? He has written a poem about growing hops, and you couldn’t imagine anything nicer. I have now asked him to write some poems celebrating the work of skilled artisans, in particular weavers, and I am quite sure he will succeed; he has lived among such people from an early age, he knows the subject inside out, and will be in full command of his material. That is the advantage of small works: you need only choose subjects that you know and have at your command. With a longer poetic work, however, this is not possible. There is no way around it: all the different threads that tie the whole thing together, and are woven into the design, have to be shown in accurate detail. Young people only have a one-sided view of things, whereas a longer work requires a multiplicity of viewpoints—and that’s where they come unstuck.—Goethe (Conversations with Eckermann)


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