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What is Hive Being, and Why the Name?
You have likely heard talk of a hive mind, where one global mind finds more or less figurative expression in various local minds. Such talk is common enough in nature documentaries, especially ones concerning ants or bees, and in sci-fi programs. Take that notion, at least a loose version of it, and broaden its scope. That will be a decent first step in understanding the title I have chosen both for my Blog and for the first five-volume installment of my magnum opus Made For You and Me, a fragmentary collection of minimalist stanzas from 2016 to 2020.
In alignment with Spinoza (the 17th Century Rationalist to whom I devoted my doctoral studies), I view reality in its totality as a grand hive Being: all entities are but pulsating manifestations of the buckstopping fount of everything, an ultimate being we might call “God” or “Nature” (so long as, out of respect for the capital “G” and the capital “N,” we limit it neither to some anthropomorphic cloud father hurling lightning bolts nor to mere wilderness untouched by human smog). According to the hive-Being view (where reality is one lone superorganism, a monistic—and we might even say unividualist—conception I defend in both my creative and academic capacities), each non-foundational being (each being, that is, whose essence does not involve existence) is an utterly necessitated expression or eruption or exudation of this eternal source—each is, perhaps better put, a mode or manner of being, and so a focal point through which is disclosed, what classical theists sometimes call “being itself” (ipsum esse subsistens): the realness of the real, the being of whatever may be, the sheer activity of being, the very isness of whatever is. This Blog, which duplicates my Substack, throbs as but one among many literary unfurlings of this self-necessitated foundation, this supreme wellspring, of which we—like black holes and broken beliefs, like fractal ferns and flickering flames—are the inevitable stylings.
My Journey
I am an academic who found himself pressured into early retirement by the rising tides of cancel culture. The illiberal scourge of censoring, silencing, and shaming—although always with us throughout our evolution—reached a local peak around 2021. That was the turbulent year my creative pursuits, which the old left once encouraged as a healthy outlet for the stresses of a childhood steeped in poverty and illiteracy, drew the ire of the new safe-space left. A small cadre of self-proclaimed victims and their allies, several of whom continue to berate me years later under pseudonyms as see through as their sexual infatuation, sought to erase me and my heterodoxy. They found support from a wannabe-woke dean, covered in the grand inquisitor robes of our decadent modernity (full-body tattoos) and just itching to signal his commitment to protecting “vulnerable populations” from triggering material (even if just, as it was in my case, off-duty poems “unbecoming for someone calling himself a teacher”). Although I eventually won my due-process case with the help of The Foundation for Individual Rights and Expression, I slunk away from a college that turned its back on protecting freedom of expression and from an institution increasingly intolerant of intellectual diversity.
The wrecking ball to my too-comfy office in the windowless ivory tower came with a silver lining. From the ashes of my professional aspirations rose a phoenix of increased freedom to fulfill the literary calling I have pursued for decades. Reputation concerns never stopped me, even within academia’s sterile halls of conformity. Indeed, my unapologetic defiance, which has long baffled friends and family, no doubt chummed even safe waters—almost as if I were asking for it all along—until the cancel shiver grew too frenzied to hold back its blind thrashings. But now, now I piston the most forbidden territories of human thought with no longer even a twinge of conscience. The newfound freedom means extra time to hone my craft. When not assisting special-needs communities (a day job far more rewarding than freeway-flyer drudgeries), I pursue my literary mission with Dionysian fervor.
Call for Co-Conspirators
This space, my digital sanctuary, showcases the fruits of my mission. Think of my posts, even those linking to my publications, as works in progress. I want your input, unflinching brutality included. Each post begins with an invitation to action: “Let’s workshop this [draft about x, y, z].” Your contributions, whether through public comments or my contact page, help hammer scraps of ore into polished blades fit for magazine publication.
Your input is valuable, even if you are neither a writer nor a reader of literature—twin disciplines dying by the cyber nanosecond. Sometimes—even if at the risk of uttering banalities—an outsider’s fresh vantage can pierce the veils of convention to reveal what insiders miss. It often takes an outsider to make us even think to question our ingrained presuppositions and attitudes. I stand by the hygienic value of contagion. That is one reason I advocate so strongly for intellectual diversity and freedom of expression. And that is also one reason I was so harrowed by the anti-diversity swell of cancel culture in academia (an institution that should be the utmost caretaker of such values)—harrowed especially insofar as that swell masqueraded under the gaslighting guise of “diversity”).
You will witness the breathing evolution of my writings over time. To track these changes, I label each revision by round: “ROUND 2,” ROUND 3,” and so forth. Each piece undergoes continuous refinement based on your feedback and my own revisitations. Sometimes changes will mar the work. That is the risk of creative tinkering as a finite creature. I hope you will alert me to missteps. After many semesters of university writing workshops, one rule has impressed itself upon me: when someone senses a flaw, something almost always needs to change—even if, yes, the proposed solution misses the mark (which often it does). From a quick look into the archives, accessible here, you can see how much I have benefited from your feedback so far.
My Hope
Sharing drafts can be daunting. But showing you the ravaged and unperfumed real deal unfiltered by makeup (stuttering starts and falsities, awkward line breaks and clumsy word choices, grammatical errors and misspellings)—that not only makes my work more relatable, but helps me refine things through your input. I hope the unfiltered look at the raw process of fumbling, rather than just the polished product, also helps other writers develop their craft. Imperfect works often instruct more than perfect ones: whereas the perfect ones tend to have a grace by which they slip inside us without activating our scrutiny, the imperfect ones—especially the near perfect ones—show us glaringly what not to do.
People laugh at me, seeing—in my tilting at the windmills of literary excellence—a Don Quixote clunking around in Arthurian armor in a post-knight era. I am not naïve. I am well aware of the diminishing ability to read, let alone well: slowly and deeply, with gratitude. I am also aware that my style, which often nests subpoints within larger points, never waters down virtuosity for the sake of mass appeal. I watch readers stumble over my sentences, unable to unlock even just the music of the envelope let alone the semantic meat within, which—given my tendency to flashlight through the darker facets of human nature (the addicts, the miscreants, the abusers among us)—only adds an additional alienating layer of difficulty). Beholding these depressive scenes of even supportive family members getting bucked off my syntactic bronco makes me feel like a dinosaur who should get a hint and, if not succumb to the brain rot of skibidi-toilet speak, just hang himself already. Even though the decline in linguistic background and grammatical voltage makes my compositions seem quixotic in a world binging Netflix and TikTok, I persist—raging against the dying of the light—by some internal compulsion to celebrate the richness of language and thought.
My hope is that, despite social media’s unparalleled power to farm our attention, people never forget the unique power of writing. Beyond unveiling hypocrisy, teasing out complex implications, and detailing the commonalities between even the most alien phenomena, writing offers something we need today—trapped in agoraphobic cyber bubbles only thickened by the Lyme dangers of forests and the COVID dangers of cities—perhaps more than ever. Granting us rich access to the first-person perspectives of others (to how things feel to them), writing serves as one of humanity’s best tools for combating loneliness. It allows us to linger, broadly and deeply and at high resolution, within the inner lives of others in a way that other arts can only suggest.
What to Expect
My work spans a broad spectrum: from metaphysical discourses on free will and determinism and the ontology of holes to the ephemera of western culture (whether the childhood impacts of the hypersexual mono-image of black woman as squirting twerkers or Terrence Howard’s sham revolution of mathematics). Some tight and minimal, others free-flowing sprawls; some heady and abstract, others emotional and imagistic—my inkwell musings, which often blend scholarly rigor with a dark humor from both high and low culture, aim to capture the visceral intensity of our personal and social and ultimately existential predicaments.
By no means can I deny that drug abuse, sexual assault, and the tales of the broken and the damned loom large in the tag cloud of my work. My writing will never be a paradise of easy truths and comforting lies. It will challenge you, provoke you, and at times even repulse you. I offer no apologies for the monsters I unleash. They are as much a part of us, at long root scared rodent mammals scurrying in the shadows of dinosaurs, as our noblest aspirations.
But make no mistake. It is not all downer darkness. The archives are my receipts. You will find pieces exploring the pursuit of authenticity in a media-saturated world, the search for meaning in an indifferent cosmos, and the celebration of beauty in both the sublime and the profane. I locate much of my inspiration, in fact, in novelists like Dostoevsky and poets like Ted Kooser—writers unafraid to pursue moral agendas or risk Hallmark sentimentality in an age that often sneers at sincerity.
Be they satirical dissections of modern social dynamics or poignant poems about addiction or academic articles on moral responsibility, my goal is to provoke thought, evoke emotion, and foster meaningful dialogue. Fear has not and will not stop me from challenging humanity’s fundamental taboos (like bestiality and cannibalism) or self-reflecting into the dark chaos of the subconscious, even if that means exposing the Jungian shadows—the inner Goebbels—lurking within us all!
Expect posts each day, no day missed. Donations are welcome, but I impose no paywall: it feels wrong to charge for art, especially given our date with obliteration. Feel free to explore what amounts to, at the time of writing this, close to a thousand pieces of poetry and prose here. That should give you a sense of what awaits.
Join me—specula holstered—on this literary odyssey into the public and private nooks of the hive Being. Let us navigate the labyrinth of creation together, confronting our demons and even slaying our darlings if we must. Let us dance on the razor’s edge between the sublime and the profane in pursuit of an elusive literary perfection never to be confused—as it has been confused in our declining civilization—with the pursuit of popularity or likeability over truth.
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Hive Being About Page
"Welcome to Hive Being: M. A. Istvan Jr.'s Academic and Creative Writing" introduces readers to the intricate and profound literary world of Michael Anthony Istvan Jr. The name "Hive Being" draws from Spinoza's philosophical framework, presenting reality as a unified organism where every entity is a necessary manifestation of the ultimate being—whether termed "God" or "Nature." This conceptual foundation informs Istvan's expansive body of work, encompassing both academic and creative endeavors. His literary journey is marked by resilience in the face of cancel culture, a phenomenon that pressured him into early retirement but also granted him the freedom to pursue his craft with unbridled passion.
The narrative describes how Istvan's unapologetic defiance and commitment to intellectual freedom often placed him at odds with the safe-space ideologies permeating modern academia. Despite winning a due-process case with the help of The Foundation for Individual Rights and Expression, he chose to distance himself from an increasingly intolerant institution, redirecting his energies towards more rewarding and creative pursuits. His Substack serves as a digital sanctuary for his diverse writings, inviting readers to engage with and critique his evolving work.
Istvan's call for co-conspirators emphasizes the importance of diverse perspectives in refining his work. He welcomes input from both insiders and outsiders, valuing fresh viewpoints that challenge conventions and reveal overlooked insights. His commitment to continuous refinement is evident in his practice of labeling each revision by round, encouraging readers to witness and contribute to the evolution of his pieces.
Sharing drafts publicly, Istvan highlights, serves not only as a means for personal growth but also as an educational tool for other writers. By exposing the raw, unpolished stages of his work, he hopes to offer relatable insights into the creative process, illustrating that imperfection often teaches more than perfection. Despite the challenges posed by the decline in linguistic and literary engagement, Istvan remains driven by an internal compulsion to celebrate the richness of language and thought.
The introduction culminates in a declaration of Istvan's hope for writing's enduring power. In a world increasingly dominated by fleeting digital distractions, he underscores writing's unique ability to combat loneliness by providing rich, first-person perspectives. His work spans a broad spectrum, from metaphysical discourses to critiques of Western culture, blending scholarly rigor with dark humor. While his themes often delve into the darker facets of human nature, Istvan also draws inspiration from writers unafraid to pursue moral agendas and sincerity.
The narrative assures readers of a regular stream of content, emphasizing the absence of a paywall to keep art accessible. With nearly a thousand pieces available at the time of writing, Istvan invites readers to explore his extensive archive. He concludes with a representative poem, inviting readers to join him on a literary journey through the public and private nooks of the hive Being.
Michael Anthony Istvan Jr., Hive Being, Spinoza, academic writing, creative writing, cancel culture, intellectual freedom, literary journey, resilience, metaphysical discourse, Western culture critique, literary odyssey, public engagement, continuous refinement, Substack, literary sanctuary.

Kaminazi
**Kaminazi** is a powerful and provocative poem that addresses themes of racial injustice, hypocrisy, and the selective application of historical guilt in American society. The poem challenges the reader to consider the double standards present in how different racial and ethnic groups are treated, particularly in academic settings.
The poem begins by asserting that America, referred to as "Amerikkka" to emphasize its systemic racism, is deeply anti-black. It suggests that if this were not the case, Asian Americans might face similar historical bullying as white Americans do for slavery, specifically being blamed for Pearl Harbor. This comparison highlights the selective way in which historical guilt is assigned and perpetuated.
The poem also critiques the performative activism often seen on college campuses and in liberal, "sanctuary" cities. The term "keffiyah wokes" likely refers to those who adopt symbols of resistance without fully engaging in meaningful activism. The imagery of "baby-bottle-shot abortion jamborees" suggests a superficial and sensationalized approach to serious issues, contrasting with the genuine struggles faced by marginalized groups.
Overall, **Kaminazi** is a scathing commentary on racial hypocrisy and the uneven distribution of historical blame, urging readers to reflect on the deeper societal injustices and the performative nature of some modern activism. It critiques the selective moral outrage and absurdity in American society. It draws parallels between the baseless accusations faced by minority groups, imagining a world where Korean kids are blamed for Pearl Harbor. This poem highlights the hypocrisy and injustice prevalent on campuses and in progressive spaces, shedding light on the nuanced struggles of marginalized communities.

Rot
In "Rot," M. A. Istvan Jr. captures the haunting passage of time through the juxtaposition of a serene backyard fire and the poignant memory of a father-son project. The poem opens with a "hush" broken only by the "staccato pops" of flames, setting a contemplative tone. The warmth of the fire evokes a sense of comfort and nostalgia, as hands are warmed over the wooden planks. These planks, once part of a cherished tree-house built with his father, now serve as a metaphor for the fleeting nature of time and the inevitable decay of cherished memories. The tree-house nails, "too damn many" in number, symbolize the effort and love invested in moments that now seem like "only a heartbeat ago."
Istvan's use of imagery and sensory details in this poem brings to life the bittersweet realization of how quickly time passes. The fire represents both destruction and warmth, a duality reflecting the complex emotions tied to memories of the past. The nails, which once held together a symbol of childhood and bonding, now lie in a pile, hinting at the inevitable disintegration of even the most solid structures. This poignant reflection on time and memory resonates deeply, illustrating Istvan's ability to evoke profound emotions through concise, vivid language.
The poem's strength lies in its brevity and the evocative power of its imagery. Istvan invites readers to contemplate their own experiences of time's passage and the bittersweet nature of nostalgia. The scene of warmth contrasted with the underlying theme of decay creates a powerful emotional impact, highlighting the transient nature of human connections and the moments we hold dear.
M. A. Istvan Jr., Rot, poem, time passage, memory, nostalgia, backyard fire, tree-house, father-son bond, imagery, sensory details, fleeting moments, literary reflection, decay, cherished memories.

Buds Desperate to Be Pried the Fuck Open
"Buds Desperate to Be Pried the Fuck Open" is a powerful critique of contemporary culture's fixation on explicit and violent sexual themes, underscoring the pervasive influence of media and celebrities on youth. The poem delves into the negative aspects of what it terms the "anal-Perc beat-it-up monomania," a phrase that captures the aggressive, singular focus on violent sexuality that permeates much of today's popular culture. This obsession, reinforced by idols starring in Amazon ads and other mainstream platforms, is portrayed as distorting the natural development of young minds, pushing them toward premature and unhealthy sexual experiences.
The poem's title, "Buds Desperate to Be Pried the Fuck Open," evokes a forceful and unnatural acceleration of sexual maturity. The metaphor of buds, which should naturally open in their own time, being pried open suggests a violent disruption of organic growth. This imagery is mirrored in the explicit content promoted by media figures, which "kinks kids like rape," indicating a severe and harmful distortion of their sexual development.
One of the poem's central paradoxes is that this cultural obsession might paradoxically accelerate the onset of sexual maturity, plunging the lusting age. This is a complex and troubling notion, suggesting that while explicit media content is intended to be titillating and appealing, it might also hasten sexual awareness and activity among young people. The poem questions whether this is a deliberate consequence of such content or an unintended byproduct of a society increasingly desensitized to explicit material.
The reference to the ban on BPA (Bisphenol A) adds another layer of complexity to the poem. BPA, a chemical found in many plastics, has been linked to hormonal changes and early puberty. By mentioning BPA in the context of a ban on "titty-blooming and pussy-juicing," the poem hints at the interplay between environmental factors and cultural influences in shaping sexual development. This ban might curb or amplify the effects of explicit content, complicating the straightforward narrative of cultural corruption.
The poem concludes with a stark and explicit quotation from Doja Cat: "Spank me, slap me, choke me, bite me... / Give a fuck bout what your wifey's sayin... / I just want to fuck all night." These lyrics encapsulate the aggressive and explicit nature of the content shaping young minds today, serving as a vivid example of the messages being disseminated and their potential impacts. The use of such direct and provocative language in popular music underscores the poem's urgent call to scrutinize the effects of these cultural influences.
Overall, "Buds Desperate to Be Pried the Fuck Open" is a searing commentary on the intersection of media, celebrity influence, and sexual development. It challenges readers to consider the implications of a culture steeped in explicit content and the potential long-term effects on young people. By blending vivid imagery with poignant critique, the poem urges a re-examination of societal norms and the ways in which they shape, distort, and accelerate the natural processes of growth and maturity.

MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 29)
In "Shoot me, nigga: I wanna live in your fuckin head forever!," M. A. Istvan Jr. crafts a mosaic of stark, thought-provoking stanzas that traverse the landscape of modern human experience, delving into themes of identity, memory, and societal decay. The fragmented narrative captures a series of intense, often disturbing snapshots that challenge readers to confront uncomfortable truths about contemporary life and the human condition.
The opening line, "Shoot me, nigga: I wanna live in your fuckin head forever!" immediately grabs attention with its raw, provocative imagery, suggesting a desire for lasting impact and a fear of being forgotten. This yearning for permanence and the struggle against erasure permeates the entire sequence, reflecting broader anxieties about identity and legacy in a transient world.
Istvan's exploration of memory and legacy is evident in the lines about degrees rescinded due to atrocities later committed, highlighting the fragility of reputation and the harsh judgment of history. The poet delves into the complexities of personal interactions, from accusations of pulling away too quickly from a hug to the cynical observation that "crows will chase squirrels into the roadkill lane—that smart," illustrating the often ruthless nature of both human and animal behavior.
The sequence also addresses societal issues, such as the rigid gender norms in "a land where tomboys must really be boys then," and the chilling image of "sewage shallow enough now to wade through for bodies of family," which starkly portrays the aftermath of disaster and the search for lost loved ones. These lines underscore the pervasive sense of loss and the struggle to maintain connections in a fragmented world.
Istvan's keen observation of human behavior extends to the professional sphere, where "hatred for this president could result in unsafe-optic professors stripped of degrees." This line, alongside the depiction of professors grading papers in their cars due to encroaching poverty, underscores the precariousness of academic and intellectual life in contemporary society.
The poem's middle section, featuring lines like "clocks ticking and walls closing, you need to get her out so you can poop and have peace," juxtaposes mundane personal concerns with larger existential anxieties, blending the trivial with the profound. This interplay continues with reflections on historical memory and cultural artifacts, where "the museum curator, unable to face his shadow, convinced himself the artifact was cursed."
Themes of social inequality and isolation are woven throughout the poem, as seen in the lines about poverty creeping into academia and the imagined future anthropologists sifting through our digital archives, misinterpreting our online presence as religious totems. This portrayal of our digital legacy raises questions about the meaning and permanence of our digital footprints in an increasingly transient world.
Istvan's poetic voice also touches on the challenges of maintaining family connections amidst economic hardship, as "between family members long-separated, filling the silence takes time and energy, and so the poorest are less likely to reach out." This observation poignantly highlights the emotional and logistical barriers that economic struggles impose on familial bonds.
The poem concludes with a reflection on the human need for validation and belonging, as seen in "that urge to prove one’s belonging to whatever group it may seem to advantage one to belong to," and the poignant image of a dark girl in a white grade-school acting as a note-passer between crushes. This final image encapsulates the overarching theme of navigating identity and connection within a societal framework often defined by superficial judgments and deep-seated biases.
M. A. Istvan Jr., poem, identity, memory, societal decay, contemporary life, legacy, human connection, academic life, gender norms, digital legacy, social inequality, family connections, economic hardship, validation, belonging, modern experience, provocative imagery, fragmented narrative.

Morse Code of Distress
Morse Code of Distress is a concise, evocative poem that captures the turmoil and desperation of a young boy. It highlights his compulsive need to scrape a concealed weapon against the rough textures of the urban environment. This act, set against the twilight backdrop, symbolizes his search for a decisive action that could end his life, a life from which he feels trapped and unable to escape on his own. The poem powerfully conveys themes of distress, compulsion, and the silent cries for help through the boy's actions.

Before Overwatch’s New "Hamas Hero" There Was Darnell
In "Before Overwatch’s New 'Hamas Hero' There Was Darnell," M. A. Istvan Jr. delves into the intricate landscape of cancel culture and the complexities of digital reparations. The poem highlights a provocative scenario in which a game designer's actions spark a chain reaction of social and cultural shifts within a popular video game, Overwatch. Through this narrative, Istvan explores themes of identity, accountability, and the contentious nature of contemporary social justice movements.
The poem opens with the white game designer whistleblowing on a colleague for retweeting criticism of a university’s decision. This criticism centered around the university cutting ties with a star athlete because of a video showing her father rapping the n-word in the 90s. This act of whistleblowing triggers immediate and severe consequences for the colleague, deemed an “irredeemable bigot.” The subsequent firings and cyber shaming underscore the poem’s examination of the punitive measures often associated with cancel culture, where past actions are scrutinized and lead to severe social penalties.
Istvan satirizes the process of “digital reparations” through the transformation of a central character in the game from Dustin to Darnell. This name change symbolizes a broader cultural shift and the desire to align characters and narratives with contemporary social justice ideals. The brainstorming sessions to redefine Darnell’s “ultimate ability” reflect a hyperbolic and somewhat absurd attempt to incorporate “Black-is-King sentiments,” a reference to Beyoncé’s visual album celebrating Black culture.
The poem’s depiction of the brainstorming results adds layers of dark humor and critique. The third-place idea involves Darnell summoning a stage for twerking and chants, mesmerizing nonBIPOC characters into vulnerability. This visual not only mocks the superficial incorporation of Black culture into media but also questions the authenticity and effectiveness of such gestures.
The second-place idea introduces a “liberation scream” causing spirits of lynched individuals to subdue nonBIPOC characters, highlighting the tension between historical trauma and contemporary activism. This image juxtaposes the gravity of historical injustices with the potentially performative aspects of digital reparations, suggesting a dissonance between the two.
The first-place idea, where Darnell summons bot-controlled men to pummel nonBIPOC characters until they answer questions on “Black epistemology,” serves as a biting commentary on the perceived gatekeeping of knowledge and the pressures to conform to specific ideological perspectives. The multiple-choice questions address controversial topics like colorblind auditions, the legitimacy of historical narratives, and societal responsibilities, encapsulating the contentious debates surrounding race and education.
Istvan’s poem ultimately critiques the extremes of social justice movements and cancel culture, emphasizing the performative and often punitive nature of these phenomena. By presenting a scenario where game mechanics are altered to reflect radical ideological shifts, the poem questions the authenticity and impact of such changes. It invites readers to consider the complexities and potential contradictions inherent in efforts to address historical and cultural injustices within contemporary digital spaces.
M. A. Istvan Jr., poem, cancel culture, digital reparations, social justice, Overwatch, video game narrative, identity, accountability, contemporary activism, satirical poetry, Black culture, historical trauma, cultural shifts, social penalties, ideological perspectives.

michaelistvan.com (live, test run)
Please take a look at my developing website: michaelistvan.com, which you can get to as well via: safespacepress.com. I really appreciate your help. You can find a convenient sitemap here: michaelistvan.com/credits-acknowledgements-sitemap. Please check out my site and let me know if there are any bugs. It is still in draft form and needs a lot of work, but I would appreciate knowing if there any crucial problems with it.

RE: Lotery Grandprize Millon
RE: Lotery Grandprize Millon presents a layered critique of societal vulnerability to deception, blending humor with an underlying sadness that emerges from the modern age's predatory systems. The title itself—a misspelled version of a scam email subject—perfectly sets the tone, signaling a world where the obviousness of deceit is overlooked by those desperate for validation or hope. The poem draws sharp parallels between two exploitative schemes: OnlyFans targeting the young and email lottery fraud targeting the elderly, thus showing how different forms of exploitation prey upon the fragile desires of both age groups.
The first stanza focuses on the world of OnlyFans, where young women—lured by promises of quick fame or fortune—often find themselves commodifying their bodies online. The line "barely legal / OnlyFans debut!" highlights the predatory nature of the platform, with its appeal to a "barely legal" audience, emphasizing the exploitation of youth and the fragile state of being thrust into adulthood with little foresight. The phrase "bagged by such DMs" not only captures how these young individuals are enticed by predatory messaging but also suggests their passive victimhood, entrapped by systems promising quick success.
In contrast, the second half of the poem shifts to focus on the elderly, specifically "gray widowers," who are equally vulnerable to another kind of digital manipulation: email lottery scams. The poem humorously yet tragically describes how these elderly men fall prey to schemes like the one referenced in the poem's title, where scam emails with broken grammar ("Dear Winner Luky") offer the illusion of financial salvation. The vivid image of these men shuffling out to obtain a "SMALL proces fee moneys order" reflects a deep desperation and the almost tragic hopefulness with which they pursue this illusion. The misspelling in the title and email highlights how glaring red flags—such as grammatical errors—are often ignored by those so desperate for relief from loneliness or financial instability.
The poem juxtaposes these two scenarios—youthful exploitation on OnlyFans and elderly deception by scammers—to illustrate a shared vulnerability across age groups. Both the young and the elderly are exploited by the digital age’s promises of quick solutions to deep-seated human desires, whether it’s fame, money, or validation. By weaving together these two forms of manipulation, the poem creates a broader commentary on society’s tendency to prey on the weak, whether young or old, using different techniques but with similar devastating results.
In its tone, the poem blends dark humor with a sharp critique of the systems that facilitate these scams. The casual cruelty of the OnlyFans world—where youth are reduced to objects of consumption—and the almost absurd vulnerability of the elderly—who fall for obvious scams—reflect how deeply predatory mechanisms have woven themselves into modern life. The humor in the poem's closing lines, where "widowers shuffle out" to get their money orders, underscores the tragedy of how the most vulnerable in society are often the easiest to deceive.
Ultimately, RE: Lotery Grandprize Millon draws attention to the universality of exploitation in the digital age, where individuals—whether young or old—are equally susceptible to manipulation. The poem serves as a reminder of the human cost of living in a world where quick gains, false promises, and digital illusions dominate our sense of reality, leaving many, regardless of age, vulnerable to deceit.
digital scams, OnlyFans exploitation, email lottery fraud, elderly vulnerability, youth manipulation, societal critique, digital age deception, human desires, predatory systems, scam culture.

White Supremacy on Its Deathbed
"White Supremacy on Its Deathbed" is a bold and confrontational work that challenges the mainstream antiracist movement and its implications for black empowerment. Through a mix of lyrical prose, scholarly critique, satire, and polemic, the author seeks to expose the paradoxical harms inflicted by well-intentioned but misguided efforts to dismantle white supremacy.
The book argues that the contemporary antiracist movement, exemplified by figures like Robin DiAngelo and Ibram X. Kendi, promotes an ideology that, while purporting to empower black Americans, ultimately infantilizes and debilitates them. This movement, according to the author, fosters a narrative of perpetual victimhood and helplessness among black people, which reinforces negative stereotypes and undermines genuine progress. By insisting on the omnipresence of white supremacy in every aspect of society—from everyday interactions to cultural and intellectual achievements—the antiracist movement inadvertently perpetuates the very divisions it seeks to eliminate.
The author critiques the tendency to attribute all disparities in health, education, and crime to systemic racism, while dismissing the role of personal responsibility and cultural factors. This approach, the book contends, not only demoralizes black individuals by suggesting that their fate is entirely dictated by external forces but also fuels racial tensions by framing white people as inherently oppressive and black people as inherently oppressed.
One of the central theses is that the antiracist movement's focus on symbolic gestures and emotional catharsis, rather than practical solutions, fails to address the root causes of inequality. The book criticizes the movement for promoting a form of racial essentialism that mirrors the very racism it opposes, creating racial affinity groups and encouraging a hyper-awareness of racial identity that can lead to further segregation and mistrust.
The book also delves into the economic and social incentives that drive the racism-training industry. It argues that this industry profits from sensationalizing race issues and fostering a culture of fear and division, thereby ensuring a constant demand for its services. The author suggests that this dynamic not only distracts from substantive policy discussions but also perpetuates a cycle of dependency and resentment.
Throughout the book, the author uses a combination of personal anecdotes, historical analysis, and cultural critique to make the case that the current approach to antiracism is counterproductive. By portraying black Americans as fragile and in need of constant protection, the movement undermines their agency and dignity. The author advocates for a shift towards a more empowering narrative that emphasizes resilience, personal responsibility, and a commitment to universal principles of merit and equality.
In essence, "White Supremacy on Its Deathbed" challenges readers to reconsider the dominant narratives around race and to recognize the complex, often unintended consequences of well-meaning but ultimately flawed antiracist strategies. It calls for a more nuanced and constructive approach to addressing racial disparities, one that respects the individuality and capability of black Americans while fostering genuine dialogue and understanding across racial lines.

Expat Painter in Prague
"Expat Painter in Prague" delves into themes of sexual violation and artistic obsession, using the figure of a painter as a metaphor for control, exploitation, and detachment. The poem begins with a chilling statement: "He took her without consent," indicating an act of sexual violence or coercion. The phrase "all giggles below his balcony" introduces a contrast between the lightheartedness or naivety of the victim and the sinister actions of the perpetrator. The juxtaposition of this carefree image with the violent act above underscores the predator-prey dynamic, where the woman is oblivious to the danger.
The "café girls" sitting in the "iron seat" evoke an atmosphere of everyday life in a European city like Prague, but the casualness of the setting contrasts sharply with the violation occurring. The painter’s "oil strokes," described as "reviving native unclinicality," point to an artistic style that becomes increasingly untamed and uncontrolled, much like his predatory impulses. The mention of "feral" suggests that his artistic endeavors are no longer about capturing beauty or truth but are driven by base, primal desires that overwhelm his ability to objectively represent his subjects.
The poem further suggests that his growing inability to "siphon details from new sitters" reflects his emotional detachment or inability to see the humanity of those he paints, reducing them to mere objects. Even the presence of a "neon fob of mace"—a symbol of modern self-defense against violence—offers little protection, as it is reduced to a decorative "flamingo" against the stark, unyielding backdrop of "weathered cobble." This emphasizes the futility of resistance in the face of someone who wields control both physically and artistically. The poem speaks to themes of power, control, and the exploitation of the vulnerable, using the painter as a symbol for how art can be complicit in these dynamics of violation and objectification.
Keywords: sexual violence, artistic obsession, power dynamics, exploitation, emotional detachment, predator-prey metaphor, vulnerability, objectification, violation, European city setting.

An Olive Branch to the Cancelers
**An Olive Branch to the Cancelers** is a nuanced and provocative essay that addresses the complex interplay between free expression and the impulse to cancel unsettling art and ideas. The essay seeks to empathize with those who believe in canceling problematic content while proposing a solution that honors both the value of free expression and the dangers it can pose.
The essay begins by acknowledging that even the most well-intentioned cancelers of divergent art and thought, those who believe they are protecting vulnerable groups, have a point. They genuinely feel that their actions are just, even if they resort to extreme measures like censoring, shaming, and destroying the careers of artists and thinkers. This perspective is driven by a belief that unsettling art and ideas can cause real harm to certain groups, and that any length of cruelty against creators is justified to protect these groups.
The essay then delves into the genuine risks posed by artists and thinkers. These individuals hold up a mirror to society, revealing uncomfortable truths and challenging cherished beliefs. The reflections they present can be deeply unsettling, leading to crises of identity and belonging. Art and thought can expose the fragility of human existence, the inherent cruelty in our actions, and the disturbing realities of the universe. For many, facing these truths is intolerable, leading to a desire to suppress and cancel the sources of such discomfort.
The author illustrates how the immune systems of those who cannot digest these dangerous truths often protect them through mechanisms like ignorance, ridicule, and evasion. However, there are exceptions—individuals whose defenses are too weak to block out these truths, leading to significant psychological harm. The canceling impulse is thus seen as a reasonable response to protect these vulnerable individuals.
Despite acknowledging the validity of canceling impulses, the essay also argues that these dangers are often overblown. It highlights the resilience of most people to withstand unsettling art and ideas, suggesting that exposure to such content can foster growth and resilience. The essay contends that the widespread fear of art and thought is often performative and driven by a desire for power and control rather than genuine vulnerability.
The author proposes a radical solution: instead of restricting artists and thinkers from creating, restrict the audience from accessing their work. This gatekeeping approach would involve testing and vetting individuals to determine their ability to handle potentially triggering content. The aim is to protect both the creators and the vulnerable individuals, ensuring that only those with the requisite resilience and critical acumen can engage with challenging art and ideas.
The essay suggests that this approach would not only safeguard artistic expression but also elevate the respect for art and thought. By requiring individuals to prove their worthiness to access certain content, society would foster a deeper appreciation for the value and power of art and thought. The proposal is admittedly extreme and satirical, born out of frustration with the current cancel culture, but it aims to spur discussion on balancing free expression with the need to protect vulnerable individuals.
In the concluding section, the author clarifies that the gatekeeping solution is not an ideal in itself but a tactical response to the rampant censorship and cancel culture. While the author personally leans towards open discourse and the cultivation of emotional resilience, the essay emphasizes the need to counter the performative outrage of cancelers by taking their claims seriously and restricting their access to unsettling content. The proposal serves as a rhetorical jujitsu, flipping the script on cancel culture and exposing its performative nature.
**An Olive Branch to the Cancelers** is a thought-provoking essay that seeks to bridge the gap between free-expression advocates and cancelers. It highlights the genuine dangers posed by unsettling art and ideas while proposing a controversial solution to protect both creators and vulnerable individuals. The essay ultimately calls for a nuanced approach to preserving and celebrating artistic expression while minimizing its potential harm.

Subway Restraint
"Subway Restraint" is an intense, visceral exploration of societal frustrations and the psychological balancing act of restraint versus violent release. Set within the confined, pressurized environment of a subway train, the poem delves into a surreal confrontation where an individual grapples with the mounting desire to break free from both physical entrapment and societal constraints. The speaker teeters on the edge of violent action, contemplating using a concealed weapon to lash out against a chaotic mob led by a "fanatic" obstructing the train doors. This tension becomes a metaphor for the speaker’s internal struggle against social pressures, personal impotence, and the need to maintain control when everything around them invites destruction.
The focus on the weaponry—specifically the "Urban Pal" pocket dagger and later the bear mace—serves as a tangible representation of both the speaker’s desire for self-defense and the underlying rage bubbling beneath the surface. The blade, described with cold practicality, and the bear mace, with its detailed specifications, embody the readiness for violence, suggesting that the speaker is far from indifferent to the consequences of their actions but is fully aware of the calculated nature of their thoughts. This awareness becomes both a tool of restraint and an incitement toward the catharsis of violence.
Social commentary permeates the poem as it critiques modern ideological movements, mob mentality, and institutional failure. The mob’s chants of “No! One! Gets! Off!” and the racial dynamics introduced through the description of the officer’s paralysis in the face of escalating tension reveal the broader social context within which this personal drama plays out. The speaker’s dark reflections on race, media-fueled hysteria, and the moral manipulation of protests add a layer of critique about contemporary societal dysfunction. Through this, the poem engages with the themes of systemic breakdown and individual powerlessness.
Furthermore, the imagery of violence and the meticulous attention to tools of harm highlight the conflict between impulse and control. The subway becomes a crucible where patience, fury, and desire for action clash, with the speaker’s struggle for self-restraint serving as an allegory for the broader societal struggle to contain its most destructive instincts. The poem critiques the notion of “reasonable” behavior in an unreasonable world, suggesting that true power lies not in unchecked action but in the strategic release of violence, only when it can serve the speaker’s interests in a more calculated and perhaps morally justified way. This layered exploration of personal and social violence culminates in an imagined moment of catharsis, where chaos reigns supreme but remains deeply rooted in the speaker’s control.
psychological restraint, mob mentality, subway violence, urban chaos, social critique, calculated aggression, weaponized patience, societal breakdown, racial dynamics, systemic dysfunction, personal agency, catharsis, urban environment.

Upstart 1996
"Upstart 1996" delves into the juxtaposition between the dream of stardom and the gritty realities of daily life, particularly as experienced in the small, cramped spaces of a New York City apartment. The figure of the stardom-dreamer, clad in black tights and heavily applied perfume (the era-evoking CK One), symbolizes youthful ambition and an effort to create an image of glamour and sophistication. However, the poem quickly undermines this projection by placing her in a dingy, banal bathroom, a stark reminder of the grounding forces that weigh down even the loftiest dreams. The details of the bathroom—such as the toothpaste-splattered mirror too small to reflect her fully, and the cracked, groaning infrastructure—serve as a metaphor for the fragmentation of her idealized self-image. The bathroom, an intimate yet unglamorous setting, becomes the stage where the harshness of reality and the mundanity of life collide with her aspirations.
The poem’s rich sensory imagery emphasizes the contrast between the dreamer’s vision of herself and the world she inhabits. The cracked tile, cast-iron pipe, and roach trap evoke a sense of decay and neglect, contrasting sharply with the aspirational glamour suggested by the smokey eye shadow and perfume. This tension between desire and reality is further highlighted by the items strewn about the bathroom: the Bic razor, a symbol of practicality and the maintenance of appearances, and the audaciously stained panties and Monistat tube, which point to the raw and unfiltered aspects of her bodily existence. The image of a legless panhandler on the Z train, who knows her by name, reinforces the sense of shared struggle and disillusionment in the urban environment.
The poem effectively captures the atmosphere of 1990s New York, a time and place often romanticized for its gritty yet vibrant artistic scene. The stardom-dreamer’s studio, located within a dilapidated prewar building, embodies the tension between the allure of artistic rebellion and the often harsh, unsentimental realities that accompany it. The Z train, a symbol of the city's ceaseless movement and anonymity, provides a backdrop of urban grit and resilience, reflecting the broader theme of navigating the space between aspiration and survival. In this way, "Upstart 1996" reflects on the struggle to maintain a sense of self and ambition in the face of overwhelming banality, the dreamer’s performative glamour barely concealing the rawness of her experience.
1990s New York, stardom dreams, urban decay, youthful ambition, artistic struggle, CK One, urban reality, studio life, juxtaposition, daily existence, unglamorous reality, fragmented self-image.

The Tooth
The Tooth presents a raw, visceral portrayal of a strained father-son relationship, shaped by addiction, violence, and a quest for validation. The poem is divided into three sections, each depicting different moments of emotional manipulation, cruel humor, and desperation, where the son—both victim and instigator—comes to terms with his father’s self-destructive behavior while grappling with his own emerging sense of identity and power.
The first section introduces the father’s addictions, presenting them as a backdrop to the son’s childhood. The father’s "oral fixation" manifests in chain-smoking and excessive drinking, both of which the son observes with a mixture of frustration and fascination. The vivid imagery of the father’s substance abuse—Newport 100s lit in succession, cases of Natural Ice consumed daily—sets the tone for the chaotic and dysfunctional dynamic between father and son. The son’s response is initially one of rebellion, expressed through pranks that, although humorous on the surface, hint at a deeper desire for control and revenge against a father who has repeatedly broken promises to quit drinking. The pranks evolve from lighthearted actions like throwing bologna on his sleeping father to darker, more demeaning acts, such as drawing a clown face on him while unconscious. This escalation mirrors the son’s increasing frustration with his father’s inability to change, as well as his own growing thirst for power over the man who once held authority in his life.
The second section delves deeper into the psychological complexity of their relationship. The son uses emotional manipulation to toy with his father’s guilt, constructing false narratives of abuse in order to provoke a reaction. The son’s performance, laden with after-school-special-style dialogue, showcases the depth of his cunning as he exploits his father’s drunken state. The father, despite his inebriation, is drawn in by the son’s fabricated stories, falling into a state of protective rage, sobbing and threatening to kill the imaginary abuser. This scene is both tragic and darkly comedic, as the father’s genuine concern is met with the son’s insincere playacting. The son’s need to provoke an emotional response from his father reveals a deeper longing for attention and validation, even if it means manipulating the man who is already emotionally fragile. The son’s fabricated accusations of "love games" reflect the blurred boundaries between affection, manipulation, and violence that characterize their relationship.
In the final section, the poem reaches its climax with the father’s self-inflicted tooth extraction. The scene is charged with a sense of masochistic pride as the father, goaded by his son’s taunts, proves his love and paternity by pulling out his own molar with a pair of linesman pliers. The son’s manipulation in this moment is both calculated and cruel, as he questions his father’s identity and challenges him to prove his worth. The father’s response—“If I love ya!”—is both a declaration of affection and a submission to the son’s power, as he mutilates himself to affirm his paternal role. The violent act of tooth-pulling becomes a grotesque metaphor for the father’s desperation to hold onto his place in his son’s life, even at the cost of physical pain and humiliation. The linoleum splattered with blood serves as a stark visual representation of the emotional carnage that has been building throughout the poem.
Throughout The Tooth, the son’s relationship with his father is marked by a complex interplay of love, resentment, and power. The son’s pranks and manipulations are not merely acts of rebellion but expressions of a deeper desire for control in a world where the father’s addictions and failures have rendered him powerless. The father, in turn, is portrayed as a tragic figure, both complicit in his own downfall and desperate for his son’s approval, even if it means self-destruction. The poem captures the cyclical nature of their dysfunction, where love is intertwined with cruelty, and validation is sought through pain. The repeated phrase, "If I love ya," underscores the father’s desperate need to prove his worth through extreme actions, while the son’s calculated manipulation reveals his growing understanding of the power dynamics at play.
Ultimately, The Tooth offers a stark commentary on the complexities of familial relationships, where love is often expressed through violence, manipulation, and self-sacrifice. The poem’s visceral imagery and dark humor amplify the emotional intensity of the father-son dynamic, leaving the reader to grapple with the unsettling nature of their bond.
father-son relationship, addiction, manipulation, self-destruction, power dynamics, oral fixation, familial dysfunction, emotional manipulation, tooth-pulling, dark humor, violence, paternal love, visceral imagery.

Photograph of Woman Who Fell off Her Bike
"Photograph of Woman Who Fell off Her Bike" critiques the dynamics of power, manipulation, and sacrifice in a relationship framed by artistic ambition. Jacques-Henri, likely a reference to the French photographer Jacques-Henri Lartigue, uses his wife not only as a subject for his photography but also as an instrument of his creative process. The poem opens with the wife’s enthusiastic support for her husband’s genius, but this enthusiasm is steeped in her understanding that his art always takes precedence. Her excitement about the bike ride is tempered by the knowledge that it is not a moment for shared leisure but a professional opportunity for Jacques-Henri, who brings his camera “only from habit.” This detail highlights the husband’s detachment from the experience of bonding with his wife, as his creative drive eclipses the personal connection.
The moment when she falls off her bike introduces vulnerability and potential critique. The wife anticipates judgment, bracing herself for his likely lecture about her lack of skill or preparation. Her preemptive groaning and explanation underscore the fear of criticism that defines their relationship. However, Jacques-Henri's response is not focused on her well-being but rather on preserving the aesthetic moment. His sole concern lies in "getting the shot," objectifying her through his lens. By making her reenact the fall for the camera, he strips the event of its personal and emotional reality, reducing his wife to a tool for his artistic vision. The poem captures the wife’s internalization of this dynamic, as she is "happy to oblige," finding solace in the fact that she was not scolded. This acceptance illustrates the depth of her submission and the asymmetry in their relationship, where her value is tied to her utility in advancing his creative endeavors.
"Photograph of a Woman Who Fell off Her Bike" examines the dynamics of artistic obsession and gendered labor, exploring how male genius is often sustained by the sacrifices of women. The poem critiques the erasure of autonomy in the service of art.
power dynamics, artistic ambition, submission, objectification, photography, manipulation, relationship imbalance, creative process, gender roles, vulnerability in marriage.

A Goonie (like Lady Bunny)
The piece titled "A Goonie (like Lady Bunny)" engages with the complex intersections of radical individualism, social taboos, and the contemporary culture wars. Drawing inspiration from controversial figures like Georges Bataille and the Marquis de Sade, the author constructs a persona who champions an eclectic set of beliefs and practices, ranging from miscegenation and crossdressing to more extreme behaviors such as cannibalism and zoophilia. This persona is framed as an unapologetic opponent of societal norms, particularly those that the persona views as hypocritical—such as the consumption of certain animals while condemning others, or the harvesting of plant life while decrying the use of animal byproducts.
The piece further explores the persona's war against what he perceives as the "safe-space ethos" pervasive in contemporary culture, particularly in the context of cancel culture, censorship, and the suppression of dissenting views. The persona criticizes the anti-Nietzschean tendencies of modern society, where intellectual and artistic freedom is curtailed in the name of protecting sensitivities. This critique extends to the policies of HR and DEI (Diversity, Equity, and Inclusion) departments, which the persona sees as reinforcing this ethos beyond the theoretical level.
Interestingly, the persona's alignment against cancel culture and safe-space mentality brings him into uncomfortable proximity with right-wing figures who, despite sharing his disdain for censorship, harbor regressive views on issues like gender identity and body positivity. The piece highlights the irony of this entanglement, as the persona finds himself allied with those who mock trans and fat people, despite his own advocacy for freedom from societal norms. The tension between the persona's radical libertarianism and the bigotry of some of his allies underscores the complexity and contradictions inherent in the modern discourse on freedom, identity, and social justice.
radical individualism, cancel culture, censorship, social taboos, Nietzschean critique, safe-space ethos, Bataille, de Sade, trans rights, fat shaming, identity politics, social justice, DEI, cultural hypocrisy.

Lyrics to "Groveville Taste"
In the lyrics to "Groveville Taste," the speaker navigates the tumultuous landscape of a relationship marked by betrayal, mistrust, and the darker facets of human connection. The refrain, "Now a queen's a queen and a stunt is a stunt, you can tell who's who by the things they want," establishes a dichotomy between genuine affection and manipulative self-interest, framing the ensuing narrative of disillusionment. The verses vividly depict the speaker’s descent into a toxic relationship, characterized by drug use, infidelity, and a blurred line between love and lust. The speaker reflects on the emotional and psychological toll this relationship takes, including the damaging impact it has on his sense of self and his responsibilities as a father. The raw and explicit language, detailing sexual encounters and violent altercations, emphasizes the intensity of the speaker's experiences, conveying a sense of chaos and moral ambiguity.
The lyrics also explore themes of codependency and self-destruction, as the speaker acknowledges his own complicity in the relationship's dysfunction. Despite recognizing the warning signs and the degradation of his partner's character, he remains entangled in a cycle of desire and regret. The narrative culminates in a sense of resignation, as the speaker contemplates the futility of trying to salvage something meaningful from a relationship so steeped in deceit and exploitation. The repeated refrain serves as a stark reminder of the fundamental differences between the speaker and his partner, underscoring the inevitable collapse of their relationship.
Ultimately, "Groveville Taste" presents a gritty and unflinching portrayal of a relationship gone awry, where the pursuit of pleasure and the need for validation lead to a path of emotional ruin. The lyrics offer a commentary on the complexities of love and the ways in which individuals can become trapped in destructive patterns, unable to break free from the very dynamics that harm them.
Groveville Taste lyrics, toxic relationship, betrayal and mistrust, emotional ruin, codependency, raw and explicit language, love and lust, relationship dynamics, dark journey, disillusionment, destructive patterns, M. A. Istvan Jr., hip-hop storytelling, gritty narrative, relationship turmoil.

Niagara Falls
In this poem, M. A. Istvan Jr. navigates the unsettling terrain of suspicion, moral uncertainty, and the tension between perception and reality. The poem unfolds as a tense narrative, where the speaker and their companion observe what they believe to be a potential predator trailing two young girls at Niagara Falls. The language, punctuated by phrases like "g*ope their breasts" and "reach up one of their dresses," evokes a visceral unease, capturing the intense scrutiny of the observers as they grapple with their own fears and judgments. The poem's setting—a public space like Niagara Falls, filled with tourists and cameras—heightens the irony of the situation, as the "creep" appears to be filming scenes already ubiquitous online, yet his actions are perceived as menacing and predatory.
The narrative tension is further amplified by the bystanders' internal conflict, where they question their own courage, wondering if they would have the "balls to do anything" if the situation escalated. Their hesitation is not just about physical confrontation but also about the moral implications of acting on assumptions. The poem captures this psychological struggle, where the fear of inaction is weighed against the fear of overreaction.
Istvan skillfully subverts expectations when the girl finally approaches the man. The bystanders, poised to intervene, are met with an anticlimax as the man simply hands the girl a coin for the binoculars. The reader is left to grapple with the ambiguity of the situation—was the man truly a threat, or were the observers projecting their anxieties onto an innocent scene? The image of "tight jeans we picture c*m crusted" reveals the extent to which the bystanders' imaginations have been tainted by their fears, turning a mundane interaction into something sinister.
The poem serves as a commentary on the ease with which suspicion can warp perception, leading to misjudgment and moral paralysis. Istvan leaves the reader with a sense of unease, not only about the characters within the poem but also about our own tendencies to jump to conclusions based on incomplete or biased information. "Niagara Falls" is a powerful exploration of the complexities of human judgment, the thin line between vigilance and paranoia, and the often-overlooked consequences of our assumptions.
M. A. Istvan Jr., Niagara Falls poem, moral uncertainty, human perception, vigilance vs. paranoia, predatory behavior, suspicion and reality, psychological tension, bystander effect, projection of fears, judgment and misjudgment, poetic exploration, complex human behavior.

Even on Dawns Less Spectacular
In "Even on Dawns Less Spectacular," M. A. Istvan Jr. presents a poignant, unflinching portrayal of the mundane struggles and indignities of daily life through the lens of a working-class man. The poem opens with a vivid image of the protagonist's disheveled state, evoking the exhaustion and disarray of pre-dawn rituals. The shuffling of bed slippers across a worn hardwood floor sets the tone for a morning routine marked by a palpable sense of weariness.
The protagonist’s head, "burrowed into blue-collar forearms," highlights his physical and emotional fatigue, while his "hypotenusal lean" against the toilet cabinet emphasizes the awkwardness and discomfort of his position. Istvan's attention to detail captures the raw authenticity of the scene, where the man's closed eyes signify a desperate attempt to cling to the remnants of sleep amidst the demands of waking life.
As the man rolls his hips, his careful movements betray the intimate, unglamorous reality of his bodily functions. The transition from "liquid on liquid sounds" to the silence that follows signifies the cessation of urination, a mundane act that the poem elevates to a moment of introspection. This act, though ordinary, is rendered with a delicate touch that underscores the protagonist's vulnerability.
The stubborn insistence on completing the flow, despite the body's natural resistance, symbolizes the man's broader struggle against the constraints of his existence. His dribble-stained path back to the bedroom carpet, a trail of daily drudgery, speaks to the relentlessness of his routine. The man’s return to bed, where he turns away from the brightening dawn, captures his resignation to the day ahead.
The saffron stains on the mattress, which "grow" even on less spectacular dawns, represent the physical traces of his struggle. These stains, blamed on his wife during their monthly end-for-end flipping of the mattress, reflect a deeper undercurrent of denial and displacement. The protagonist’s adamant refusal to accept responsibility for the stains, insisting that he "never pissed it," underscores his need to maintain some semblance of dignity and control in a life that often feels uncontrollable and degrading.
Istvan’s poem is a study in the interplay between the mundane and the profound, where everyday acts are imbued with existential weight. "Even on Dawns Less Spectacular" delves into themes of weariness, denial, and the relentless passage of time, offering a raw, empathetic glimpse into the life of a man navigating the quiet battles of daily existence.
M. A. Istvan Jr., Even on Dawns Less Spectacular, daily struggles, working-class life, mundane routines, existential reflections, bodily functions, weariness, denial, passage of time, raw authenticity, poetic portrayal, blue-collar forearms, morning rituals, intimate vulnerability.


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Don’t let anyone tell you that real life is lacking in poetic interest. This is exactly what the poet is for: he has the mind and the imagination to find something of interest in everyday things. Real life supplies the motifs, the points that need to be said—the actual heart of the matter; but it is the poet’s job to fashion it all into a beautiful, animated whole. You are familiar with Fürnstein, the so-called “nature poet”? He has written a poem about growing hops, and you couldn’t imagine anything nicer. I have now asked him to write some poems celebrating the work of skilled artisans, in particular weavers, and I am quite sure he will succeed; he has lived among such people from an early age, he knows the subject inside out, and will be in full command of his material. That is the advantage of small works: you need only choose subjects that you know and have at your command. With a longer poetic work, however, this is not possible. There is no way around it: all the different threads that tie the whole thing together, and are woven into the design, have to be shown in accurate detail. Young people only have a one-sided view of things, whereas a longer work requires a multiplicity of viewpoints—and that’s where they come unstuck.—Goethe (Conversations with Eckermann)

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