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What is Hive Being, and Why the Name?

You have likely heard talk of a hive mind, where one global mind finds more or less figurative expression in various local minds. Such talk is common enough in nature documentaries, especially ones concerning ants or bees, and in sci-fi programs. Take that notion, at least a loose version of it, and broaden its scope. That will be a decent first step in understanding the title I have chosen both for my Blog and for the first five-volume installment of my magnum opus Made For You and Me, a fragmentary collection of minimalist stanzas from 2016 to 2020.

In alignment with Spinoza (the 17th Century Rationalist to whom I devoted my doctoral studies), I view reality in its totality as a grand hive Being: all entities are but pulsating manifestations of the buckstopping fount of everything, an ultimate being we might call “God” or “Nature” (so long as, out of respect for the capital “G” and the capital “N,” we limit it neither to some anthropomorphic cloud father hurling lightning bolts nor to mere wilderness untouched by human smog). According to the hive-Being view (where reality is one lone superorganism, a monistic—and we might even say unividualist—conception I defend in both my creative and academic capacities), each non-foundational being (each being, that is, whose essence does not involve existence) is an utterly necessitated expression or eruption or exudation of this eternal source—each is, perhaps better put, a mode or manner of being, and so a focal point through which is disclosed, what classical theists sometimes call “being itself” (ipsum esse subsistens): the realness of the real, the being of whatever may be, the sheer activity of being, the very isness of whatever is. This Blog, which duplicates my Substack, throbs as but one among many literary unfurlings of this self-necessitated foundation, this supreme wellspring, of which we—like black holes and broken beliefs, like fractal ferns and flickering flames—are the inevitable stylings.

My Journey

I am an academic who found himself pressured into early retirement by the rising tides of cancel culture. The illiberal scourge of censoring, silencing, and shaming—although always with us throughout our evolution—reached a local peak around 2021. That was the turbulent year my creative pursuits, which the old left once encouraged as a healthy outlet for the stresses of a childhood steeped in poverty and illiteracy, drew the ire of the new safe-space left. A small cadre of self-proclaimed victims and their allies, several of whom continue to berate me years later under pseudonyms as see through as their sexual infatuation, sought to erase me and my heterodoxy. They found support from a wannabe-woke dean, covered in the grand inquisitor robes of our decadent modernity (full-body tattoos) and just itching to signal his commitment to protecting “vulnerable populations” from triggering material (even if just, as it was in my case, off-duty poems “unbecoming for someone calling himself a teacher”). Although I eventually won my due-process case with the help of The Foundation for Individual Rights and Expression, I slunk away from a college that turned its back on protecting freedom of expression and from an institution increasingly intolerant of intellectual diversity.  

The wrecking ball to my too-comfy office in the windowless ivory tower came with a silver lining. From the ashes of my professional aspirations rose a phoenix of increased freedom to fulfill the literary calling I have pursued for decades. Reputation concerns never stopped me, even within academia’s sterile halls of conformity. Indeed, my unapologetic defiance, which has long baffled friends and family, no doubt chummed even safe waters—almost as if I were asking for it all along—until the cancel shiver grew too frenzied to hold back its blind thrashings. But now, now I piston the most forbidden territories of human thought with no longer even a twinge of conscience. The newfound freedom means extra time to hone my craft. When not assisting special-needs communities (a day job far more rewarding than freeway-flyer drudgeries), I pursue my literary mission with Dionysian fervor.

Call for Co-Conspirators

This space, my digital sanctuary, showcases the fruits of my mission. Think of my posts, even those linking to my publications, as works in progress. I want your input, unflinching brutality included. Each post begins with an invitation to action: “Let’s workshop this [draft about x, y, z].” Your contributions, whether through public comments or my contact page, help hammer scraps of ore into polished blades fit for magazine publication.

Your input is valuable, even if you are neither a writer nor a reader of literature—twin disciplines dying by the cyber nanosecond. Sometimes—even if at the risk of uttering banalities—an outsider’s fresh vantage can pierce the veils of convention to reveal what insiders miss. It often takes an outsider to make us even think to question our ingrained presuppositions and attitudes. I stand by the hygienic value of contagion. That is one reason I advocate so strongly for intellectual diversity and freedom of expression. And that is also one reason I was so harrowed by the anti-diversity swell of cancel culture in academia (an institution that should be the utmost caretaker of such values)—harrowed especially insofar as that swell masqueraded under the gaslighting guise of “diversity”).

You will witness the breathing evolution of my writings over time. To track these changes, I label each revision by round: “ROUND 2,” ROUND 3,” and so forth. Each piece undergoes continuous refinement based on your feedback and my own revisitations. Sometimes changes will mar the work. That is the risk of creative tinkering as a finite creature. I hope you will alert me to missteps. After many semesters of university writing workshops, one rule has impressed itself upon me: when someone senses a flaw, something almost always needs to change—even if, yes, the proposed solution misses the mark (which often it does). From a quick look into the archives, accessible here, you can see how much I have benefited from your feedback so far.

My Hope

Sharing drafts can be daunting. But showing you the ravaged and unperfumed real deal unfiltered by makeup (stuttering starts and falsities, awkward line breaks and clumsy word choices, grammatical errors and misspellings)—that not only makes my work more relatable, but helps me refine things through your input. I hope the unfiltered look at the raw process of fumbling, rather than just the polished product, also helps other writers develop their craft. Imperfect works often instruct more than perfect ones: whereas the perfect ones tend to have a grace by which they slip inside us without activating our scrutiny, the imperfect ones—especially the near perfect ones—show us glaringly what not to do.

People laugh at me, seeing—in my tilting at the windmills of literary excellence—a Don Quixote clunking around in Arthurian armor in a post-knight era. I am not naïve. I am well aware of the diminishing ability to read, let alone well: slowly and deeply, with gratitude. I am also aware that my style, which often nests subpoints within larger points, never waters down virtuosity for the sake of mass appeal. I watch readers stumble over my sentences, unable to unlock even just the music of the envelope let alone the semantic meat within, which—given my tendency to flashlight through the darker facets of human nature (the addicts, the miscreants, the abusers among us)—only adds an additional alienating layer of difficulty). Beholding these depressive scenes of even supportive family members getting bucked off my syntactic bronco makes me feel like a dinosaur who should get a hint and, if not succumb to the brain rot of skibidi-toilet speak, just hang himself already. Even though the decline in linguistic background and grammatical voltage makes my compositions seem quixotic in a world binging Netflix and TikTok, I persist—raging against the dying of the light—by some internal compulsion to celebrate the richness of language and thought.

My hope is that, despite social media’s unparalleled power to farm our attention, people never forget the unique power of writing. Beyond unveiling hypocrisy, teasing out complex implications, and detailing the commonalities between even the most alien phenomena, writing offers something we need today—trapped in agoraphobic cyber bubbles only thickened by the Lyme dangers of forests and the COVID dangers of cities—perhaps more than ever. Granting us rich access to the first-person perspectives of others (to how things feel to them), writing serves as one of humanity’s best tools for combating loneliness. It allows us to linger, broadly and deeply and at high resolution, within the inner lives of others in a way that other arts can only suggest.

What to Expect

My work spans a broad spectrum: from metaphysical discourses on free will and determinism and the ontology of holes to the ephemera of western culture (whether the childhood impacts of the hypersexual mono-image of black woman as squirting twerkers or Terrence Howard’s sham revolution of mathematics). Some tight and minimal, others free-flowing sprawls; some heady and abstract, others emotional and imagistic—my inkwell musings, which often blend scholarly rigor with a dark humor from both high and low culture, aim to capture the visceral intensity of our personal and social and ultimately existential predicaments.

By no means can I deny that drug abuse, sexual assault, and the tales of the broken and the damned loom large in the tag cloud of my work. My writing will never be a paradise of easy truths and comforting lies. It will challenge you, provoke you, and at times even repulse you. I offer no apologies for the monsters I unleash. They are as much a part of us, at long root scared rodent mammals scurrying in the shadows of dinosaurs, as our noblest aspirations.

But make no mistake. It is not all downer darkness. The archives are my receipts. You will find pieces exploring the pursuit of authenticity in a media-saturated world, the search for meaning in an indifferent cosmos, and the celebration of beauty in both the sublime and the profane. I locate much of my inspiration, in fact, in novelists like Dostoevsky and poets like Ted Kooser—writers unafraid to pursue moral agendas or risk Hallmark sentimentality in an age that often sneers at sincerity.

Be they satirical dissections of modern social dynamics or poignant poems about addiction or academic articles on moral responsibility, my goal is to provoke thought, evoke emotion, and foster meaningful dialogue. Fear has not and will not stop me from challenging humanity’s fundamental taboos (like bestiality and cannibalism) or self-reflecting into the dark chaos of the subconscious, even if that means exposing the Jungian shadows—the inner Goebbels—lurking within us all!

Expect posts each day, no day missed. Donations are welcome, but I impose no paywall: it feels wrong to charge for art, especially given our date with obliteration. Feel free to explore what amounts to, at the time of writing this, close to a thousand pieces of poetry and prose here. That should give you a sense of what awaits.

Join me—specula holstered—on this literary odyssey into the public and private nooks of the hive Being. Let us navigate the labyrinth of creation together, confronting our demons and even slaying our darlings if we must. Let us dance on the razor’s edge between the sublime and the profane in pursuit of an elusive literary perfection never to be confused—as it has been confused in our declining civilization—with the pursuit of popularity or likeability over truth.

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Coke Lessons
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Coke Lessons

In "Coke Lessons," M. A. Istvan Jr. delves into the dichotomy of drug-induced euphoria and the subsequent disillusionment, reflecting on how initial ecstasy devolves into a cycle of craving and regret. The poem begins with the protagonist's memory of his first experience with cocaine, marked by an overwhelming sense of euphoria and philosophical expansiveness that seemed permanent and untainted by the inevitable comedown. This initial high is described as a "new dilation of ecstasy," a metaphor suggesting an opening up to new dimensions of feeling and thought, which at the time appeared immune to the passage of time or change.

Years later, the protagonist finds himself understanding his friend's earlier reservations during their shared experience. The friend, despite indulging in the drug, was already aware of the impending crash, a mixture of craving for more and a foretaste of the "grinding-bitter comedown." The protagonist now empathizes with this perspective, recognizing that the anticipation of the low diminishes the purity of the high, an awareness that he couldn't comprehend during his first encounter.

The poem shifts to a present moment where the protagonist, now a seasoned user, finds himself in the company of a newbie. The newbie's enthusiasm and naive confessions—ranging from incestuous thoughts to gay thoughts—during their drug-induced bonding reveal the raw vulnerability and disorientation that come with the first rush of cocaine. The protagonist feels a deep sense of unease, knowing the cycle of regret and self-disgust that awaits the newbie, evident in the hurried flipping of records mid-song and the unrestrained giving of gifts that will soon be regretted.

This unease grows as the night progresses into dawn, with the newbie making desperate phone calls to people from his past, illustrating the isolating and desperate nature of addiction. The protagonist feels trapped, sickened by the dependency on an unreliable euphoria that is "fake, unnatural." The questioning of this artificial ecstasy versus natural joy culminates in a profound moment of introspection. The protagonist wonders why the chemical-induced happiness should be considered any less real than the joy derived from significant life events, such as the birth of a child. This philosophical quandary underscores the poem's exploration of the nature of happiness and the human condition's susceptibility to both natural and artificial stimuli.

"Coke Lessons" is a powerful narrative that juxtaposes the fleeting euphoria of drug use with the lasting consequences of addiction. Through vivid imagery and reflective introspection, Istvan captures the tragic arc from initial thrill to inevitable despair, highlighting the complex interplay between temporary ecstasy and enduring regret.

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Istvan Verse on "Beacon Speaks"
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Istvan Verse on "Beacon Speaks"

In the poem "Beacon Speaks," M. A. Istvan Jr. and collaborators explore the enduring influence of Beacon, a city in New York's Hudson Valley, on its former residents. Through various voices and perspectives, the poem captures the complexities of identity, memory, and the struggle to rise above one's origins while still being inevitably shaped by them. The chorus sections emphasize the lasting impact of Beacon's culture and environment on those who have left, while the verses delve into personal experiences and the gritty realities of life in and around Beacon.

The poem opens with a chorus that sets the stage for the exploration of Beacon's influence, noting how even those who have "made it out on top" carry traces of their past: "bad teeth, self-doubt, slang, even our bop." This establishes a theme of inescapable heritage, where one's origins continue to speak through their current selves, often in ways that are subtly discernible to others.

Istvan's verse delves into the specific social dynamics and characters of Beacon, painting a vivid picture of life in the city. He describes the allure of "hoodrats" and the chaotic scenes of black preggos, acrylic-nail scratches, and blunt-rolling alley cats. This verse highlights the cyclical nature of life in Beacon, where even those who leave are drawn back to familiar environments and relationships, often fraught with dysfunction and struggle. The scene is raw, filled with blunt-rolling alley cats and Baby Phat-wearing women. The struggle is palpable—child support dodges, cracked 40 Miller drafts, and chaotic confrontations. These characters are deeply entrenched in a cycle that seems impossible to break, highlighting the relentless grip of their environment.

The second chorus shifts the focus to those who have given up certain vices but still carry emotional and psychological scars: "teary eyes, rage-outs, fear, even our cocks." This section underscores the pervasive sense of incompleteness and the lingering effects of past behaviors and experiences.

The third chorus extends the theme of being perceived as "off" by others due to past behaviors and associations, this time focusing on the physical and social markers that set former Beacon residents apart: "crooked grills, distrust, dress, even jump shots." The refrain reinforces the idea that the influence of one's origins is pervasive and recognizable, affecting how they are received in new environments.

The fourth chorus addresses those who have sought philosophical or spiritual insights, noting how even such pursuits are colored by their past: "drug abuse, con ways, stress, even our ox." This section suggests that no matter how far one moves intellectually or spiritually, the influence of one's background persists.

Overall, "Beacon Speaks" is a powerful exploration of the inescapable influence of one's origins. It captures the enduring mark of a place on its people, illustrating how past environments and experiences continue to shape identities and perceptions. Through vivid imagery and personal narratives, the poem delves into themes of identity, struggle, and the complex relationship between one's past and present.

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Kennedy Fried Chicken
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Kennedy Fried Chicken

"Kennedy Fried Chicken" by Michael Anthony Istvan Jr. captures the intricate dance between survival and parenthood within an urban setting. The poem delves into the life of a corner dealer, a figure deeply entrenched in the city’s gritty reality. His attempt to maintain a semblance of normalcy and connection with his child is depicted against the backdrop of his illicit activities. The opening lines introduce us to the dealer, who, despite his circumstances, tries to assure himself of his presence in his child’s life. The mention of "his ex in her phone" suggests a fragmented relationship, emphasizing the isolation that often accompanies such a lifestyle. The act of lifting his child high and inquiring about his behavior is a fleeting attempt at normalcy, a brief moment of connection amidst the chaos.

Istvan’s use of vivid imagery paints a stark picture of the dealer’s world. The constant need for vigilance is highlighted by his sweeping gaze for cops among the "nonstop horns." This vigilance is not just a part of his professional life but also intrudes into his personal moments, creating a tension between his role as a father and his need for survival. The dealer’s eye constantly scanning for threats underscores the persistent danger in his environment, detracting from his ability to fully engage with his child.

The poem’s structure and enjambment emphasize the fragmentation of the dealer’s existence. Lines like "in that window / of lifting him high" illustrate the brief, transient nature of his interactions with his child. These moments are overshadowed by the external pressures that define his life. The presence of a client, "hands in jean pockets, edging closer," serves as a reminder of the inescapable demands of his trade, constantly intruding upon personal interactions.

Istvan’s portrayal of the urban environment is both vivid and oppressive. The "nonstop horns" create a backdrop of constant noise and activity, reflecting the relentless pace of the dealer’s life. This setting amplifies the tension between his desire to be a good father and the realities of his circumstances. The client’s approach, subtle yet inevitable, symbolizes the persistent encroachment of his illicit activities on his personal life.

In "Kennedy Fried Chicken," Istvan masterfully captures the duality of the dealer’s existence. His struggle to balance his illicit livelihood with his parental responsibilities is depicted with sensitivity and depth. The poem highlights the inherent conflict in trying to maintain personal connections while navigating a life fraught with danger and uncertainty. Through its concise yet powerful imagery, the poem offers a poignant reflection on the challenges of parenthood within the context of urban survival, underscoring the dealer’s perpetual state of alertness and the fleeting nature of his moments of connection with his child.

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Rainbow Flags
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Rainbow Flags

"Rainbow Flags" is a compact yet evocative poem that juxtaposes the sinister with the celebratory, creating a striking commentary on contemporary culture and identity. Through vivid imagery and unexpected associations, the poem explores themes of transformation, subversion, and the influence of substances on self-expression.

The poem opens with a provocative comparison between Pazuzu, a demon from ancient Mesopotamian mythology often associated with possession and chaos, and Crystal Meth, a powerful and destructive drug. This pairing sets the tone for the rest of the poem, suggesting a descent into altered states of being. The line "Pazuzu will have you / speaking Latin" evokes the idea of possession, as Latin is traditionally associated with exorcisms and the Catholic Church. It hints at an unsettling transformation, where the self is overtaken by an external force.

In contrast, Crystal Meth's influence is depicted through the imagery of a crop-top tank top and vibrant self-expression. The tank top, described as "purple," semaphores "drum-and-bass pulses," alluding to the energetic and often frenetic atmosphere of dance and rave cultures. This imagery captures the drug's effect on individuals, heightening their senses and altering their behaviors in ways that are both liberating and destructive.

The poem's setting shifts to a main strip leading to a university, a place typically associated with learning and intellectual growth. However, the presence of "horns dopplering" suggests a chaotic and perhaps celebratory environment, reminiscent of a parade or a festival. This contrasts with the traditional academic setting, highlighting a clash between conventional norms and subversive forms of expression.

The final lines introduce a striking image of "cheilitis lips" holding a "steel referee whistle." Cheilitis, an inflammation of the lips often caused by environmental factors or substance abuse, adds a layer of physical consequence to the poem's themes. The steel referee whistle, an object of authority and control, ironically in the possession of someone in a state of altered consciousness, underscores the poem's exploration of power dynamics and the unexpected ways in which they manifest.

"Rainbow Flags" uses its compact form to pack a powerful punch, blending elements of the sinister and the celebratory to comment on contemporary issues of identity, self-expression, and the transformative effects of substances. The poem's vivid and often jarring imagery invites readers to reflect on the complexities of these themes, leaving a lasting impression with its sharp contrasts and rich symbolism.

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Foster Home at Five
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Foster Home at Five

"Foster Home at Five" is a deeply moving narrative that delves into the traumatic and transformative experience of a young child placed in foster care during a tumultuous period of parental conflict. The story is recounted with vivid, sensory detail, capturing the confusion, fear, and resilience of a five-year-old boy navigating an incomprehensible situation. Through the child's eyes, we see a world that is both mundane and surreal, where everyday objects and interactions take on heightened significance against the backdrop of familial disruption.

The narrative begins with the child's attempt to stay awake at his grandmother's kitchen table, a symbolic representation of his struggle to remain grounded amid the chaos of his parents' custody battle. The rainy gray outside mirrors the internal turmoil of the child's life, characterized by yelling, crying, and the instability of moving between different homes and environments. This setting establishes a tone of disorientation and helplessness that permeates the story.

The father's unexpected appearance in a suit, a departure from his usual attire, adds to the child's sense of unreality. The father's emotional vulnerability, expressed through his tearful eyes and the tender gesture of carrying the child to the couch, contrasts sharply with the cold, procedural nature of the foster care system that soon intervenes. The father's promise to get the child back "soon" underscores a sense of urgency and desperation, highlighting the father's impotence in the face of legal decisions.

As the child is taken away by the social worker, the narrative shifts to the sensory and emotional experiences of the journey. The social worker's attempt to engage the child with offers of McDonald's serves as a stark juxtaposition to the child's inner turmoil. The child's refusal to eat reflects his emotional withdrawal and guardedness, a coping mechanism that resurfaces later in his interactions with a family violence counselor. This guardedness is a recurring theme, suggesting a long-standing pattern of self-protection in response to trauma.

The description of the foster home, with its lively atmosphere and numerous children, provides a brief respite from the child's anxiety. The interactions with other children, particularly the empathetic gesture of the little black boy offering his corndog, highlight moments of human connection and kindness amid the broader context of displacement and uncertainty. These interactions also underscore the child's sense of isolation, as he struggles to engage with his new environment while grappling with the loss of his family.

The narrative's most poignant moments occur during the child's visits to city hall, where he reunites briefly with his parents. These visits are marked by a profound sense of transience and impermanence, as the child clings to familiar objects like his teddy bear and absorbs the emotional atmosphere of the brief encounters. The child's internalization of these visits, coupled with his eventual acclimation to the foster home, illustrates the adaptive resilience of children even in the face of profound instability.

The climactic moment of the story occurs when the child, mistaken in his belief that he has been forgotten, chases after the foster family's van in a panic. This scene encapsulates the child's deep-seated fear of abandonment and his desperate need for reassurance. The foster father's calm explanation that they were merely going to the supermarket provides a moment of relief, but it also underscores the persistent anxiety that shadows the child's experience.

The narrative concludes with the child's return home, marked by a mixture of joy and lingering apprehension. The child's game of blinking to "cut" power lines with the car's antennae symbolizes his attempt to exert control over an unpredictable world. The final interaction with the social worker and the crying black girl serves as a poignant reminder of the shared suffering and resilience of children within the foster care system. The child's unspoken urge to console the girl reflects his emerging empathy, tempered by the realization that her journey may not mirror his own.

"Foster Home at Five" is a powerful exploration of childhood trauma, resilience, and the complexities of the foster care system. The narrative's rich sensory detail and emotional depth provide a compelling window into the child's inner world, revealing the enduring impact of early experiences on one's sense of self and belonging. Through the child's perspective, the story captures the vulnerability and strength of those navigating the uncertain terrain of familial disruption and institutional care.

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Father and Son
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Father and Son

"Father and Son" poignantly captures the cyclical nature of parental anxiety and the ways in which it manifests across generations. The poem begins with a personal anecdote from the speaker's childhood, set during Halloween—a time typically associated with joy and indulgence. However, for the young narrator, it becomes an occasion of fear and meticulous scrutiny. Haunted by the thought of malicious adults inserting razorblades and poison into Halloween treats, the child meticulously examines and discards most of his candy. This act of self-protection, driven by media-fueled fears, highlights the vulnerability and paranoia that can overshadow childhood innocence.

The narrative then shifts to the present, where the speaker's own son exhibits a similar, albeit different, form of anxiety. The son's fear revolves around the school environment and the potential punishment of having the lights turned off during lunch if the students are too noisy. This punishment, although seemingly minor compared to the life-threatening dangers imagined by the speaker as a child, is significant in the child's mind. The son's earnest plea to avoid packing crunchy celery, which might provoke the teacher's rebuke, mirrors the father's own childhood vigilance.

Through the juxtaposition of these two scenarios, the poem explores the theme of inherited fears and the protective instincts that parents pass down to their children. The reference to the Halloween memory arising at the son's anxious request underscores the connection between past and present, suggesting that the speaker's early experiences of fear and caution have influenced his understanding of his son's worries.

The poem also subtly critiques the ways in which societal and environmental factors shape children's anxieties. The son's concern about the teacher's reaction points to a broader commentary on disciplinary practices in schools and the pressures placed on children to conform to behavioral expectations. This modern-day anxiety, although different in nature from the speaker's Halloween fear, reflects the ongoing struggle to navigate and manage perceived threats in everyday life.

"Father and Son" uses these personal experiences to illustrate the continuity of anxiety and the protective measures that both parents and children employ. The careful inspection of Halloween candy and the avoidance of crunchy snacks in lunchboxes serve as metaphors for the broader efforts to shield oneself from harm. The poem invites readers to reflect on their own childhood fears and the ways in which they may have been influenced by their parents' concerns, as well as how they, in turn, address the anxieties of the next generation.

Ultimately, the poem underscores the bond between parent and child through shared experiences of fear and caution. It suggests that while the specific nature of these anxieties may change over time, the underlying desire to protect and ensure safety remains a constant, connecting generations through the simple yet profound act of caring for one another.

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Daily Affirmations for a Campus Warrior
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Daily Affirmations for a Campus Warrior

In "Daily Affirmations for a Campus Warrior," the author presents a satirical take on contemporary campus culture, particularly focusing on the extreme sensitivity and self-righteousness perceived among some student activists. The poem, dedicated to Margaret Atwood, critiques the modern phenomena of trigger warnings, safe spaces, and the cancel culture prevalent in academic environments.

The poem is structured as a series of affirmations, which are typically used to reinforce positive thinking and self-worth. However, in this context, the affirmations are exaggerated to highlight what the author sees as the absurdity of certain attitudes. Each line is a statement that mocks the extremes of victim mentality and the entitlement to absolute emotional protection and moral authority.

The opening lines, "Anything can be a trigger / I stand up for myself and have a right to be recognized," set the tone for the poem. These lines reflect the idea that the current campus environment allows for an overly broad interpretation of what constitutes a trigger, granting individuals the power to demand recognition and accommodation for any perceived slight or discomfort.

As the poem progresses, the affirmations become increasingly hyperbolic, reflecting the author's view that the demands for emotional safety and recognition have gone too far. Lines such as "My virtue, as a victim, gives me absolute moral license" and "Worthy, I am entitled to shout down what is alien to me" critique the notion that victimhood confers moral superiority and the right to silence dissenting voices.

The poem also addresses the culture of canceling and censoring ideas that are deemed offensive. Lines like "I am allowed to censor art and people if it makes me feel better" and "Ban problematic 'art' before examination; it only gives us pain" suggest that the drive to protect students from discomfort has led to a stifling of free expression and critical engagement.

In addition to the critique of cancel culture, the poem mocks the idea that emotional fragility should be indulged rather than worked on. Lines such as "Emotional fragility is to be indulged, not 'worked on'" and "Meltdowns are okay to get what I want: they mean I deserve it" highlight the author's belief that the emphasis on emotional safety can hinder personal growth and resilience.

The poem's conclusion, "Triggering equals raping; raping calls for instant cancellation / Emotional fragility is to be indulged, not 'worked on,'" encapsulates the satirical message. The comparison between triggering and rape is an extreme exaggeration meant to underscore the perceived irrationality of equating emotional discomfort with severe trauma. It also criticizes the tendency to immediately cancel individuals without due process based on subjective feelings of offense.

Overall, "Daily Affirmations for a Campus Warrior" uses satire to critique what the author views as the excesses of modern campus culture. By presenting these exaggerated affirmations, the poem calls into question the balance between protecting individuals from genuine harm and fostering an environment of robust intellectual engagement and personal growth. Through its biting humor and pointed commentary, the poem challenges readers to reconsider the implications of prioritizing emotional comfort over the pursuit of truth and resilience.

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Italian Way?
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Italian Way?

"Italian Way?" explores the nuanced and often misunderstood cultural differences in social interactions, particularly focusing on the affectionate behavior of Italians and the discomfort it can cause for someone from a more reserved culture like the United States. The poem examines these interactions through the lens of the narrator's personal experiences, highlighting the tension between cultural norms and individual perceptions.

The opening lines, "Everyone says, 'It’s not / that they’re fags. Italians / just tend to get real close, / in your face when speaking,'" immediately set up the central theme of cultural misunderstanding. The use of the derogatory term "fags" underscores the narrator's discomfort and the casual homophobia that can color interpretations of affectionate behavior. This phrase captures a common stereotype about Italian men, reflecting the narrator's internal conflict and the societal prejudices they carry.

The line "But there must be some link" hints at the narrator's suspicion and inability to fully accept the cultural explanation provided. This skepticism drives the narrative forward, as the narrator recounts their experiences with Italian friends who "snuggle up, / nudging to ass-dick me." The crude imagery here accentuates the narrator's discomfort and the perceived invasion of personal space, a stark contrast to the Italian way of expressing friendship.

The whispered reassurance, "USA. We friends, no?" adds a layer of complexity to the narrative. It suggests that the Italians are aware of the cultural differences and are trying to bridge the gap with a simple, friendly affirmation. This phrase also highlights the narrator's struggle to reconcile their own cultural norms with the affectionate behavior they encounter.

The involvement of the Italian mothers further complicates the narrative. The mother’s insistence that the narrator not sleep on the floor, coupled with her cheerful inquiry, "Young men have much good night?" suggests a cultural expectation of closeness and hospitality. The mother’s potential wink, while the father's head is buried in the newspaper, adds a subtle undercurrent of complicity and perhaps a gentle acknowledgment of the narrator's discomfort.

The narrator's failure to "attend close / enough to see for sure" speaks to their ongoing confusion and inability to fully understand or accept the nuances of Italian social norms. This line suggests a deliberate distance or avoidance, a way of coping with the discomfort and ambiguity of the situation.

Overall, "Italian Way?" uses vivid, sometimes uncomfortable imagery to explore the clash of cultural norms. The narrator's experiences highlight the tension between personal space and affectionate behavior, questioning the boundaries of friendship and hospitality. The poem encapsulates the complexities of cross-cultural interactions, where well-meaning actions can be misinterpreted through the lens of prejudice and discomfort.

The poem’s strength lies in its ability to capture the subtleties of these interactions, leaving the reader to ponder the balance between cultural acceptance and personal boundaries. Through the narrator's eyes, we see the challenges of navigating a world where social norms are fluid and often contradictory, ultimately questioning how we can bridge these gaps with understanding and respect.

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Black Girl Dreams in 2021
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Black Girl Dreams in 2021

"Black Girl Dreams in 2021" delves into the intersection of personal and collective anxieties through the lens of a young girl's dream, bridging the intimate and the public. The poem captures the disorienting blend of waking and dreaming states, using a coughing fit as the catalyst for an abrupt shift in consciousness. This poem is not just about the experience of a singular night, but rather an exploration of the broader socio-political landscape that infiltrates even the most private moments of rest.

The opening lines, "Her coughing fit startled me up / once again. I groaned the pillow / around my head," immediately set a tone of disturbance and discomfort. The coughing fit, a recurring disturbance, serves as a metaphor for the persistent interruptions and unrest in the lives of marginalized individuals. The speaker's reaction—groaning into the pillow—suggests a desire to escape or muffle the external chaos, a common response to overwhelming stress or anxiety.

The transition from the physical disturbance to the auditory hallucination of a "tense whisper" blurs the line between reality and dream. This shift signifies how deeply ingrained societal issues permeate the subconscious. The whisper, "rapid and as if to someone at her side," evokes a sense of urgency and secrecy, hinting at a clandestine or suppressed conversation that must be addressed despite the risk of being overheard.

The escalation of the girl's whisper to a public address, "Her decibel and cadence perked / to public address. 'Americans. / May I have your attention?'" signifies a pivotal moment of transformation from private anxiety to public declaration. This shift reflects the internalization of societal pressures and the compulsion to speak out against systemic injustices. The use of "Americans" as the addressee broadens the scope of the poem, implicating the entire nation in the shared responsibility and awareness of these issues.

By placing the phrase "May I have your attention?" at the climax, the poem underscores the urgency for recognition and action. This plea for attention echoes the real-world demands for social justice, equity, and acknowledgment of the struggles faced by Black individuals, particularly women, in contemporary society. The girl's dream becomes a microcosm of the larger societal demand for visibility and change.

The poem's concise structure and vivid imagery create a powerful narrative that resonates with the reader on multiple levels. On one hand, it portrays a personal experience of unrest and disruption; on the other, it encapsulates the broader socio-political climate of 2021, marked by calls for racial justice and equity. The dream, situated within the context of a coughing fit, symbolizes the pervasive and inescapable nature of these societal issues, suggesting that they infiltrate even the most private and vulnerable moments.

Moreover, the poem's ambiguity regarding the exact content of the dream leaves space for interpretation and reflection. This openness invites readers to project their own understandings of the socio-political context into the narrative, making the poem a participatory experience. It encourages readers to consider their own roles and responsibilities within the larger societal framework, particularly in relation to issues of race and justice.

"Black Girl Dreams in 2021" is a poignant exploration of the intersection between personal and collective consciousness, using the motif of a dream to highlight the pervasive and inescapable nature of societal issues. Through its vivid imagery and concise narrative, the poem captures the urgency and necessity of addressing these issues, both on an individual and collective level. It stands as a powerful reminder of the ongoing struggle for justice and the importance of giving voice to those who are often silenced or overlooked.

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Foreplayed by the R&amp;B Talkdown
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Foreplayed by the R&B Talkdown

"Foreplayed by the R&B Talk Down" is a poem that meticulously mimics the format and style of an R&B monologue, often characterized by a smooth-talking, repetitive cadence filled with emotional platitudes. However, upon closer examination, it becomes evident that the poem serves as a satirical critique of this genre, exposing the emptiness and superficiality often found in such monologues. The dedication to the poet's father adds a layer of irony, suggesting a generational commentary on the acceptance and perpetuation of these hollow expressions of emotion.

The opening lines, "Look here, baby gurl—fine thang. / I saw ya the other day and—," immediately set the stage for what appears to be a heartfelt and intimate conversation. However, the casual and clichéd language, such as "baby gurl" and "fine thang," quickly reveals the superficial nature of the speaker's declarations. The ellipses and pauses mimic the flow of spoken word, but instead of adding depth, they highlight the lack of substance and the performative aspect of the dialogue.

Throughout the poem, the speaker's attempts at expressing genuine emotion are undermined by the repetitive and formulaic nature of their words. Phrases like "these feelin’s are real: genu-wine" and "please believe me when I say" come across as insincere and contrived, suggesting that the speaker is more interested in the performance of affection than in conveying true feelings. This tension between the appearance of sincerity and the underlying emptiness is a central theme of the poem, critiquing the genre's reliance on style over substance.

The middle section, "You’re everythang, everythang I do. / See, promises—they come and go. / And gurl, trust me when I say," underscores the hollowness of the speaker's declarations. The repetition of "everythang" and the vague references to promises and trust fail to convey any real sense of commitment or emotion. Instead, they highlight the speaker's reliance on generic phrases and empty reassurances, reinforcing the poem's critique of the superficiality inherent in many R&B monologues.

As the poem progresses, the speaker's words become increasingly vapid and disjointed. Lines like "Right there, right there in those eyes. / We’ve come so so far and—think. / Think back wit’ me baby, you’ll see" lack coherence and depth, further emphasizing the emptiness of the speaker's rhetoric. The poem's repetitive structure and shallow language serve to mock the genre's tendency to prioritize form over content, highlighting the disconnect between the speaker's words and any genuine emotional expression.

The poem’s closing lines, "Just one thought, one’s all it takes. / I know ya hear me gurl. Yeah. / I know ya understand," encapsulate the speaker's vacuousness. The insistence that "one thought" is sufficient to convey deep emotion is a final ironic twist, underscoring the superficiality of the entire monologue. The repetition of "I know ya" and the final "Yeah. / I know ya understand" ring hollow, leaving the reader with a sense of the speaker's profound emptiness.

The dedication to the poet's father adds an additional layer of irony and complexity to the poem. It suggests a generational reflection on the acceptance and perpetuation of these shallow expressions of emotion, perhaps critiquing a cultural lineage that values performance over genuine connection. This dedication transforms the poem from a simple parody into a more profound commentary on the ways in which superficial emotional expressions are passed down and normalized.

"Foreplayed by the R&B Talk Down" is a satirical and incisive critique of the R&B monologue genre, exposing the superficiality and emptiness often masked by its smooth-talking, repetitive cadence. Through its careful mimicry and ironic dedication, the poem highlights the disconnect between appearance and reality, critiquing a cultural form that prioritizes style over substance. The poem serves as a reflection on the ways in which empty expressions of emotion are perpetuated and accepted, challenging the reader to look beyond the surface and seek deeper, more genuine connections.

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A Middle-School Situation
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

A Middle-School Situation

"A Middle-School Situation" captures the turbulent, awkward, and often humiliating experiences of adolescence through a detailed and visceral recounting of a specific incident. The poem is divided into four distinct sections, each contributing to the development of the central themes: the pressure to conform, the impact of socioeconomic status on self-esteem, the acute self-consciousness of adolescence, and the harsh realities of social dynamics in middle school.

The poem begins by setting the stage with the physical and emotional landscape of seventh grade. This is a period characterized by foreign odors—sweat, cum, and cologne—and the growth of acne and insecurity, highlighting the physical changes and hormonal upheavals typical of early adolescence. The inherent desire to be attractive and accepted is underscored by the social pressures faced by young adolescents. The protagonist’s father buys him the latest Jordans—two sizes too big and conspicuously bootleg—from a corner spot in Beacon. The father’s pragmatic approach, dismissing the dunking logo’s flaws with a casual “Who’s gonna get that fuckin’ close?” contrasts with the protagonist's acute awareness of potential scrutiny. This sets up the central conflict between the appearance of fitting in and the reality of socioeconomic limitations.

The second section details the protagonist’s arrival at school and the slow, horrifying realization that he has stepped in dog feces. This section is rich with sensory imagery, as the dual nature of the smell—shitty yet somehow perfumed—represents the conflicting realities of adolescence. The protagonist’s hyper-awareness and paranoia about being discovered illustrate the acute self-consciousness and fear of embarrassment common in middle school. His attempts to identify the source of the smell through covert actions, such as a muscleman yawn and stretching forward, add a layer of humor while emphasizing his desperation to avoid detection. The repeated actions of scraping his shoe on the desk’s book storage compartment symbolize the persistent and often futile efforts to erase visible signs of one’s perceived failures or inadequacies. The protagonist’s pretense of being engaged in the lecture while dealing with the crisis beneath the desk underscores the duality of his experience—outwardly maintaining a façade while internally panicking. The reliance on "stealth fantasies" to cope with embarrassment reflects the psychological mechanisms children use to handle overwhelming social anxiety.

The third section explores the social repercussions of the incident. The protagonist attempts to rationalize the lack of immediate confrontation, highlighting the cognitive dissonance that often accompanies social mishaps. The broader impact of the incident is revealed when the entire class has to be evacuated due to the smell, leading to inevitable but unspoken blame on the protagonist. The poem concludes on a poignant note, emphasizing the protagonist's relief mingled with lingering anxiety as the teacher and classmates avoid directly addressing the incident.

The poem's themes revolve around the pressure to conform, self-consciousness and anxiety, socioeconomic disparities, and social dynamics and bullying. The protagonist's efforts to fit in with his peers through material possessions, despite economic constraints, underscore the universal adolescent struggle for social acceptance. The detailed recounting of the protagonist's inner turmoil and outward actions encapsulates the intense self-awareness and fear of humiliation that characterize middle school experiences. The bootleg Jordans and inverted Hilfiger tee symbolize the broader theme of socioeconomic disparities and their impact on self-esteem and social interactions among adolescents. The poem subtly addresses the complex social dynamics of middle school, where perceived weaknesses can make one a target, yet sometimes incidents pass without direct confrontation, leaving lasting psychological scars.

"A Middle-School Situation" is a vivid and empathetic exploration of adolescence. Through its rich sensory detail, humor, and psychological depth, the poem captures the often painful and awkward journey of growing up, highlighting themes of conformity, self-consciousness, and the impact of socioeconomic status on social experiences. The narrative’s authenticity and relatability make it a poignant reflection on the universal trials of navigating middle school.

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Ideomotor
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Ideomotor

"Ideomotor," a compact and evocative poem, delves into themes of communication, autonomy, and the human desire for connection despite severe physical limitations. Through the portrayal of two individuals with significant physical and cognitive impairments, the poem explores the intersection of the body and mind, as well as the role of facilitators in bridging gaps that seem insurmountable.

The poem opens with a striking image: "Two palsied underbites in diapers, / said to have minds of infants." This description immediately sets the tone, highlighting the severe physical disabilities of the subjects. The use of "palsied underbites" and "diapers" evokes a sense of vulnerability and dependence, while "said to have minds of infants" suggests that their cognitive abilities are perceived as extremely limited. This introduction serves to underscore the significant challenges faced by the individuals in question.

The second line, "flirt / on a first date through a facilitator," introduces a layer of unexpected complexity and tenderness. The notion of flirting, typically associated with light-hearted and voluntary interaction, is juxtaposed against the severe disabilities of the individuals. The inclusion of a "facilitator" indicates that their interaction is not entirely self-directed but mediated through an intermediary. This raises questions about autonomy and the nature of their communication. Is their flirting genuine, or is it influenced by the facilitator's guidance?

The poem's middle lines, "Bracing their wrists, she guides / their hands, like Ouija planchettes," employ a vivid simile to convey the process of facilitated communication. The comparison to "Ouija planchettes" is particularly poignant. Just as a planchette moves across a Ouija board seemingly under the influence of an unseen force, the facilitator's hands guide the individuals' hands to form words. This simile evokes the ideomotor effect, a psychological phenomenon wherein a person makes motions unconsciously. The choice of this comparison invites readers to ponder the authenticity and origin of the communication. Are the words truly coming from the individuals, or are they being influenced, consciously or unconsciously, by the facilitator?

The final line, "to letters on the table before them," grounds the poem in a specific action: the process of spelling out words. This image emphasizes the painstaking nature of their interaction, where each letter represents a significant effort. It also highlights the fundamental human drive to communicate and connect, even when faced with profound obstacles.

The poem raises essential questions about the nature of communication for individuals with severe disabilities. It challenges readers to consider the authenticity of facilitated communication and the extent to which these individuals can express their thoughts and emotions independently.

Despite their limitations, the subjects of the poem engage in an inherently human activity: flirting on a first date. This interaction underscores the universal desire for connection, love, and companionship, which persists even in the face of significant barriers.

The facilitator's role is crucial in the poem, acting as a bridge between the individuals and the world around them. This role, however, is fraught with ethical considerations. The facilitator's influence over the communication process raises questions about agency and the potential for misinterpretation or projection.

The poem's comparison to Ouija planchettes invokes the ideomotor effect, prompting readers to reflect on the unconscious influences that might shape communication. This metaphor adds a layer of complexity, suggesting that the boundary between genuine expression and facilitated input is not always clear.

"Ideomotor" is a thought-provoking and layered poem that delves into the complexities of communication and human connection for individuals with severe disabilities. Through its vivid imagery and poignant simile, the poem invites readers to question the nature of facilitated communication and the extent to which autonomy can be maintained in such interactions. It highlights the enduring human desire for connection and the significant role of facilitators in enabling communication, all while raising important ethical and philosophical questions. The poem's brevity belies its depth, offering a rich terrain for reflection on the intersections of body, mind, and communication.

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An Open Letter to Literary Magazines
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

An Open Letter to Literary Magazines

In "An Open Letter to Literary Magazines," the author confronts the contemporary literary landscape, specifically targeting the perceived decline of transgressive writing within reputable and even obscure venues. The piece grapples with the infiltration of politically correct agendas, which aim to sanitize content in the name of creating "safe spaces." This trend, the author argues, has seeped into institutions that were once bastions of intellectual rigor and boundary-pushing discourse, such as comedy clubs, literary magazines, and universities.

The letter opens with a broad condemnation of the current state of literary venues, highlighting a pervasive "HR agenda" that seeks to shield audiences from unsettling content. The author decries this trend as "mediocritizing" and suggests it stifles growth by limiting exposure to challenging ideas. The language used—"niqab reality," "metastasized," and "trigger-minimal"—conveys a sense of suffocation and stagnation. This imagery underscores the perceived loss of authenticity and depth in contemporary literary and academic environments.

Central to the argument is the notion that the right to remain unchallenged has gained undue prominence. This sentiment is portrayed as having spread virally from academic campuses to social media and beyond, infecting even "innocent countries." The letter criticizes the practice of allowing students to opt-out of readings deemed too triggering, positing that this undermines the educational mission of universities. The hyperbolic example of a professor fired for teaching the Chinese word for "um" illustrates the extremes to which this protective impulse can lead, suggesting a stifling environment where even benign content is censored.

The author contends that the concept of "transgressive literature" has been co-opted and diluted by what is, paradoxically, an anti-transgressive agenda. Instead of fostering genuine boundary-pushing content, literary magazines are accused of promoting works that align with a new orthodoxy—what the author derisively terms "militant HR-memos." These works, while superficially bold, ultimately serve to reinforce prevailing ideological norms rather than challenge them. The satirical tone and use of phrases like "militant HR-memos" and "fidelity to orthodoxy" highlight the perceived absurdity of this shift.

Further, the letter critiques the expanding list of what is deemed "problematic," arguing that this trend leads to the exclusion of authentic expressions of human experience. The mention of "trans character that gets murdered," "animal abuse," and "cuisine nonnative to the author" as examples of censored content underscores the perceived overreach of these policies. The author laments the loss of a space where writers can "voice the deepest nuances of our humanity in the nude," free from the "ever-expanding and ever-thickening filters of social media."

In calling for a revival of truly transgressive writing, the author invokes the legacy of figures like Bataille, whose work epitomizes the outsider, subversive, and unspeakable. The rhetorical question at the end—"Is not the right wing, embolismed by children’s books of crossdressing kids, supposed to be the wing that bans art?"—serves to highlight the irony of the left-leaning literary establishment engaging in censorship. This inversion of expectations underscores the essay's central thesis: that the guardians of liberal, progressive values have become the new censors, undermining the very principles they claim to uphold.

"An Open Letter to Literary Magazines" is a passionate and provocative critique of contemporary literary culture. The author challenges the current norms that prioritize emotional safety over intellectual rigor and artistic freedom. Through a blend of satire, hyperbole, and earnest critique, the letter calls for a return to a more robust, challenging, and genuinely transgressive literary environment. The piece serves as a rallying cry for those who believe in the transformative power of unsettling art and the necessity of preserving spaces where the full spectrum of human experience can be explored without fear of censorship.

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Princess Imprints
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Princess Imprints

"Princess Imprints" is a unique business venture offering custom-tailored, worn garments designed to cater to individual sensory desires. The company emphasizes the uniqueness of each piece, providing a range of sources and personalization options to satisfy varied tastes. Customers can choose from everyday items to more exotic garments, each promising a distinct scent and feel that enhances the sensory experience.

Privacy is a top priority for Princess Imprints, with discreet packaging ensuring that all purchases remain confidential. To further personalize the experience, the company offers extras such as Polaroid photos and handwritten notes, adding a touch of intimacy and connection to each order.

The community surrounding Princess Imprints values quality, nostalgia, and sensual connections, creating a sense of belonging for those who share these interests. Every purchase from Princess Imprints is more than just an acquisition; it's a journey into the essence of personal touch and hidden desires, offering customers an intimate and unique experience that goes beyond the ordinary.

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After Careful Consideration
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

After Careful Consideration

"After Careful Consideration" offers a scathing critique of contemporary literary and cultural trends, particularly in the realm of poetry publication and academic environments. The poet reflects on how their more thoughtful and meticulously crafted poems, which demand careful rereading and deep reflection, are often overlooked by literary magazines. Instead, editors tend to favor poems that are deliberately nonsensical, filled with haphazard associations and exaggeratedly politically correct terminology. These "zany baloney" pieces, the poet notes, are akin to spoofs and hoaxes, revealing a preference for superficiality over substance.

The poet initially created these nonsense poems as sting operations to expose the literary world's decline. Over time, these hoaxes became a coping mechanism, highlighting a pervasive decadence that aligns with a cultural ethos where meaning is subjective, and allegations equate to guilt without due process. This societal tendency is characterized by a lack of hope for genuine literary and intellectual engagement.

A professor's commentary within the poem provides historical context, tracing this cultural phenomenon back to American literary traditions embodied by figures like Melville and Twain, where the conman is a central figure. The critique extends to contemporary issues such as the superficiality driven by consumerism, social media, and a preference for instant gratification. This is juxtaposed against the backdrop of a higher education system that prioritizes activism and identity politics over rigorous intellectual inquiry, fostering an environment hostile to genuine diversity of thought.

The professor's lament underscores a broader cultural critique: a society that values appearance over substance, quick fixes over deep understanding, and sensationalism over truth. This critique encompasses the public's preference for simplistic pop music, conspiracy theories, and the elevation of entertainers to positions of political power, all contributing to a landscape where genuine education and intellectual engagement are undervalued.

Overall, "After Careful Consideration" serves as a powerful indictment of contemporary literary and cultural values, emphasizing the poet's frustration with a world that rewards superficiality and political correctness over depth, craftsmanship, and intellectual rigor.

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Creative Translation of the poem "The Eel"
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Creative Translation of the poem "The Eel"

"The Eel," translated by M. A. Istvan Jr., captures the journey of the eel from the frigid Baltic to the Adriatic, symbolizing transformation and resilience. Through vivid imagery and metaphoric language, Montale's poem explores themes of seduction, metamorphosis, and kinship, highlighting the eel's role as both guide and goad in the cycle of life and creation.

Montale's poem begins with the eel's migration from the cold, harsh waters of the Baltic Sea to the warmer, more hospitable Adriatic Sea. This journey represents a powerful transformation, a testament to the eel's resilience and adaptability. The eel becomes a symbol of endurance, navigating through various challenges and embodying the spirit of perseverance.

The poem uses vivid imagery to bring the eel's journey to life, painting a picture of the eel's movement through different landscapes and environments. The frigid Baltic waters, the eel's struggle through obstacles, and the eventual arrival in the Adriatic are all depicted with rich, sensory language. This imagery not only highlights the eel's physical journey but also underscores the metaphorical aspects of transformation and growth.

Montale also employs metaphoric language to explore the themes of seduction and metamorphosis. The eel's journey is likened to a seductive dance, luring the reader into a deeper understanding of the natural world and its cycles. The eel's metamorphosis, from a creature of the cold depths to one thriving in warmer waters, serves as a metaphor for personal and spiritual transformation. It suggests that change, while challenging, can lead to growth and renewal.

Kinship is another significant theme in the poem. The eel is portrayed as a guide and goad, leading and challenging others in the cycle of life and creation. This kinship is not limited to other eels but extends to all creatures and the natural world as a whole. Montale's portrayal of the eel as a central figure in the cycle of life emphasizes the interconnectedness of all living beings and the importance of resilience and adaptability in the face of adversity.

In summary, "The Eel," translated by M. A. Istvan Jr., is a richly layered poem that captures the journey of the eel as a symbol of transformation and resilience. Through vivid imagery and metaphoric language, Montale explores themes of seduction, metamorphosis, and kinship, highlighting the eel's role as both guide and goad in the cycle of life and creation. The poem serves as a powerful reminder of the enduring spirit of nature and the potential for growth and renewal inherent in all living beings.

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The Help
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

The Help

**The Help** delves into the performative solidarity and the underlying self-serving motivations of a group of white women as they navigate their own feelings of guilt and privilege. Set against the backdrop of a watch-party for the film *The Help*, the poem exposes the superficial and often condescending nature of their attempts to connect with and understand the struggles of people of color.

The scene opens with the women gathered, equipped with box rosé, scarves, and tears—a tableau of desperate solidarity. They are eager to absolve their shame and prove their subservience, glancing nervously at their token person of color. This individual, cornered before the film begins, becomes the focus of their awkward attempts at connection. Each woman, in her way, seeks to express her perceived enlightenment and distance herself from the racism of her own circle, whether by criticizing white features, expressing fear of white men (including their own husbands), or showcasing their tokenistic connections to black individuals.

Their conversation brims with self-congratulatory remarks and superficial praises, particularly directed at the actresses of the film. They fawn over Octavia Spencer's beauty, marveling at her skin, and maintain a facade of reverence and reflection, giving the floor to the "oppressed voice" only after the credits roll. This restraint is insufferable for the inebriated group, who are impatient to express their well-meaning yet condescending pity.

As the poem progresses, it becomes clear that their concern for "people of color" is tainted by their desire to be seen as saviors. They believe it is their duty to educate and uplift, yet their efforts are steeped in a patronizing attitude that fails to recognize the agency and resilience of those they claim to support. Their discussions reveal a disconnect between their self-image and the reality of their impact, highlighting a persistent, albeit well-intentioned, form of racism.

**The Help** critiques the performative nature of allyship and the superficial efforts of those who, while professing solidarity, perpetuate a dynamic of dependency and condescension. Through its vivid portrayal of a watch-party, the poem underscores the complexity and often problematic aspects of modern-day attempts at racial reconciliation.

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Exposure
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Exposure

**Exposure** is a haunting exploration of a man’s descent into homelessness and the emotional struggles that accompany his life on the streets. The poem delves into the memories that shape his present, the complex dynamics of his past, and the philosophical justifications he offers himself to make sense of his situation.

The opening lines set a somber tone, with the man hunkered down against the chill of autumn in the back of a strange pickup truck on an unfamiliar road. This transient setting mirrors his internal state, a life of constant movement and disconnection. The memory that comes to him is described as a young one, no more than two weeks old, yet it holds the weight and permanence of a childhood song or a vivid image from his past, like the schoolhouse triangle’s note or a deer strung up in a tree.

The memory is of a mundane yet significant moment: him casting dice alone under a buzzing street lamp. The scene is filled with sensory details—the loud tings against a dumpster, the clear sight of hypers (drug addicts) zipping along the sidewalk, and the smack men desperate for their next fix. These vivid descriptions place the reader in the midst of the urban decay that surrounds him.

The poem then shifts to his introspection, revealing his identity crisis. Despite being neither a hyper nor a hoocher (an alcoholic), he is perceived by outsiders as just another part of the street's chaos. His flannel shirt and baking soda smile mask the internal turmoil and disconnection he feels, both from society and from his former self. The line “he stood for what happens when the ball drops” poignantly encapsulates his fall from stability.

The poem delves deeper into his past, revealing that his current state is a result of a conscious decision, a reaction to the loss of his wife and the disintegration of his previous life. He had once been entrenched in the typical markers of success—late-night arguments, financial investments, family moments. Yet, these no longer hold meaning for him. His homelessness is framed as a quest for adventure, a rejection of the safety and monotony of his past life.

The loss of his wife, who once would have been angered by his choices but now would understand, is a turning point. Her death signifies the end of his old life and the beginning of a new, unanchored existence. His manipulations and attempts to hold onto his past life have lost their efficacy, leaving him with a need to shed the last remnants of his childhood illusions and embrace the raw reality of his situation.

**Exposure** powerfully captures the complexity of homelessness, the internal and external battles faced by those living on the streets, and the deep-seated need for meaning and identity amidst chaos. Through rich imagery and introspective narrative, the poem offers a poignant glimpse into a life unmoored and searching for something beyond conventional boundaries.

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Docking
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Docking

"Docking," a poem brimming with raw intimacy, offers a glimpse into a pivotal moment of sexual exploration between two young boys, Mark and Dodi. Through evocative imagery and a deliberate use of language, the poem delves into themes of budding sexuality, power dynamics, and the vulnerability of self-discovery.

The poem opens with a direct and provocative image: "Mark peels open and pulls back the tan prepuce." This act of unveiling sets the stage for the poem's exploration of the body as a source of both fascination and trepidation. The word "bewitched" applied to Dodi suggests a long-held, almost mystical, attraction to this hidden part of Mark's anatomy, possibly stemming from a childhood encounter in the "first school shower." This detail hints at the early awakening of their sexuality and the formative impact of shared experiences.

The language used to describe the exposed genitals is both sensuous and precise. The "chiseled peach-cleft underbelly" and "glossy rose-madder glans" create a vivid picture, while the color choices evoke a sense of youthful vibrancy. However, the focus on Mark's body positions him as the one offering, while Dodi assumes the role of the recipient. This initial power dynamic is further emphasized by the verb "plants" used to describe Dodi's action.

The imagery shifts when the focus moves to Dodi. The "meatus smooching flared ruff of flesh" emphasizes the physical act, while the act of "hooding" Mark's hand "full over Dodi's crown" introduces a reversal of roles. This suggests a potential fluidity and shared agency in their exploration.

The poem's central metaphor, "one retractable rod," highlights the physical connection forged by the boys. However, the act of "shafting" carried out with "strong but slight back and forth" movement underscores the tentative and perhaps even hesitant nature of their encounter.

The final line, "Mark's hand-clutch at the seam secures," reinforces the initial power dynamic. Mark's hand becomes an anchoring force, suggesting a need for control or perhaps a fear of losing this newly discovered connection.

"Docking" raises important questions about the complex interplay of power and intimacy in youthful sexual exploration. The poem avoids explicitness, instead relying on suggestive language and imagery. This ambiguity allows the reader to project their own interpretations onto the scene, fostering a sense of both intimacy and voyeurism.

Ultimately, "Docking" offers a compelling snapshot of a pivotal moment in the lives of these two boys. Their exploration is both physically intimate and emotionally charged, hinting at the complexities of self-discovery and the evolving nature of power dynamics in early relationships.

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That Siren
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

That Siren

**That Siren** is a powerful poem that captures the cyclical despair and fleeting empowerment of a man ensnared by alcoholism. Through vivid imagery and evocative language, the poem explores the self-deception and false sense of purpose that sustains the man's existence.

The poem begins with the striking image of a horse, polished-hooved but reeking of piss, clopping away from its spot on the corner. This juxtaposition of cleanliness and filth sets the tone for the man's own condition. The horse, a symbol of strength and dignity, contrasts sharply with the man's degraded state.

The man, described as "nuzzled into the city-block curb," is portrayed as a figure of utter desolation. His action of raising a tin cup to the neon lights suggests a futile plea for help or recognition. The "neon eyes" above his "adamant feet" evoke a sense of stubbornness and entrenchment in his situation, highlighting the unyielding nature of his despair.

The physical need to urinate, triggered by his own thoughts, underscores the man's lack of control over his own body and life. The phrase "easy empowerment" reveals the man's internal justification for his actions, as he convinces himself that he is merely "gathering fuel" for some future purpose. This self-deception is personified by "that siren," a seductive force that lures him into making the streets his home.

**That Siren** poignantly depicts the struggles of a man caught in the grips of alcoholism, finding false comfort in the belief that his actions have a greater purpose. Through its rich imagery and exploration of self-deception, the poem offers a deep and empathetic look at the complexities of addiction and despair.

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Don’t let anyone tell you that real life is lacking in poetic interest. This is exactly what the poet is for: he has the mind and the imagination to find something of interest in everyday things. Real life supplies the motifs, the points that need to be said—the actual heart of the matter; but it is the poet’s job to fashion it all into a beautiful, animated whole. You are familiar with Fürnstein, the so-called “nature poet”? He has written a poem about growing hops, and you couldn’t imagine anything nicer. I have now asked him to write some poems celebrating the work of skilled artisans, in particular weavers, and I am quite sure he will succeed; he has lived among such people from an early age, he knows the subject inside out, and will be in full command of his material. That is the advantage of small works: you need only choose subjects that you know and have at your command. With a longer poetic work, however, this is not possible. There is no way around it: all the different threads that tie the whole thing together, and are woven into the design, have to be shown in accurate detail. Young people only have a one-sided view of things, whereas a longer work requires a multiplicity of viewpoints—and that’s where they come unstuck.—Goethe (Conversations with Eckermann)


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