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What is Hive Being, and Why the Name?

You have likely heard talk of a hive mind, where one global mind finds more or less figurative expression in various local minds. Such talk is common enough in nature documentaries, especially ones concerning ants or bees, and in sci-fi programs. Take that notion, at least a loose version of it, and broaden its scope. That will be a decent first step in understanding the title I have chosen both for my Blog and for the first five-volume installment of my magnum opus Made For You and Me, a fragmentary collection of minimalist stanzas from 2016 to 2020.

In alignment with Spinoza (the 17th Century Rationalist to whom I devoted my doctoral studies), I view reality in its totality as a grand hive Being: all entities are but pulsating manifestations of the buckstopping fount of everything, an ultimate being we might call “God” or “Nature” (so long as, out of respect for the capital “G” and the capital “N,” we limit it neither to some anthropomorphic cloud father hurling lightning bolts nor to mere wilderness untouched by human smog). According to the hive-Being view (where reality is one lone superorganism, a monistic—and we might even say unividualist—conception I defend in both my creative and academic capacities), each non-foundational being (each being, that is, whose essence does not involve existence) is an utterly necessitated expression or eruption or exudation of this eternal source—each is, perhaps better put, a mode or manner of being, and so a focal point through which is disclosed, what classical theists sometimes call “being itself” (ipsum esse subsistens): the realness of the real, the being of whatever may be, the sheer activity of being, the very isness of whatever is. This Blog, which duplicates my Substack, throbs as but one among many literary unfurlings of this self-necessitated foundation, this supreme wellspring, of which we—like black holes and broken beliefs, like fractal ferns and flickering flames—are the inevitable stylings.

My Journey

I am an academic who found himself pressured into early retirement by the rising tides of cancel culture. The illiberal scourge of censoring, silencing, and shaming—although always with us throughout our evolution—reached a local peak around 2021. That was the turbulent year my creative pursuits, which the old left once encouraged as a healthy outlet for the stresses of a childhood steeped in poverty and illiteracy, drew the ire of the new safe-space left. A small cadre of self-proclaimed victims and their allies, several of whom continue to berate me years later under pseudonyms as see through as their sexual infatuation, sought to erase me and my heterodoxy. They found support from a wannabe-woke dean, covered in the grand inquisitor robes of our decadent modernity (full-body tattoos) and just itching to signal his commitment to protecting “vulnerable populations” from triggering material (even if just, as it was in my case, off-duty poems “unbecoming for someone calling himself a teacher”). Although I eventually won my due-process case with the help of The Foundation for Individual Rights and Expression, I slunk away from a college that turned its back on protecting freedom of expression and from an institution increasingly intolerant of intellectual diversity.  

The wrecking ball to my too-comfy office in the windowless ivory tower came with a silver lining. From the ashes of my professional aspirations rose a phoenix of increased freedom to fulfill the literary calling I have pursued for decades. Reputation concerns never stopped me, even within academia’s sterile halls of conformity. Indeed, my unapologetic defiance, which has long baffled friends and family, no doubt chummed even safe waters—almost as if I were asking for it all along—until the cancel shiver grew too frenzied to hold back its blind thrashings. But now, now I piston the most forbidden territories of human thought with no longer even a twinge of conscience. The newfound freedom means extra time to hone my craft. When not assisting special-needs communities (a day job far more rewarding than freeway-flyer drudgeries), I pursue my literary mission with Dionysian fervor.

Call for Co-Conspirators

This space, my digital sanctuary, showcases the fruits of my mission. Think of my posts, even those linking to my publications, as works in progress. I want your input, unflinching brutality included. Each post begins with an invitation to action: “Let’s workshop this [draft about x, y, z].” Your contributions, whether through public comments or my contact page, help hammer scraps of ore into polished blades fit for magazine publication.

Your input is valuable, even if you are neither a writer nor a reader of literature—twin disciplines dying by the cyber nanosecond. Sometimes—even if at the risk of uttering banalities—an outsider’s fresh vantage can pierce the veils of convention to reveal what insiders miss. It often takes an outsider to make us even think to question our ingrained presuppositions and attitudes. I stand by the hygienic value of contagion. That is one reason I advocate so strongly for intellectual diversity and freedom of expression. And that is also one reason I was so harrowed by the anti-diversity swell of cancel culture in academia (an institution that should be the utmost caretaker of such values)—harrowed especially insofar as that swell masqueraded under the gaslighting guise of “diversity”).

You will witness the breathing evolution of my writings over time. To track these changes, I label each revision by round: “ROUND 2,” ROUND 3,” and so forth. Each piece undergoes continuous refinement based on your feedback and my own revisitations. Sometimes changes will mar the work. That is the risk of creative tinkering as a finite creature. I hope you will alert me to missteps. After many semesters of university writing workshops, one rule has impressed itself upon me: when someone senses a flaw, something almost always needs to change—even if, yes, the proposed solution misses the mark (which often it does). From a quick look into the archives, accessible here, you can see how much I have benefited from your feedback so far.

My Hope

Sharing drafts can be daunting. But showing you the ravaged and unperfumed real deal unfiltered by makeup (stuttering starts and falsities, awkward line breaks and clumsy word choices, grammatical errors and misspellings)—that not only makes my work more relatable, but helps me refine things through your input. I hope the unfiltered look at the raw process of fumbling, rather than just the polished product, also helps other writers develop their craft. Imperfect works often instruct more than perfect ones: whereas the perfect ones tend to have a grace by which they slip inside us without activating our scrutiny, the imperfect ones—especially the near perfect ones—show us glaringly what not to do.

People laugh at me, seeing—in my tilting at the windmills of literary excellence—a Don Quixote clunking around in Arthurian armor in a post-knight era. I am not naïve. I am well aware of the diminishing ability to read, let alone well: slowly and deeply, with gratitude. I am also aware that my style, which often nests subpoints within larger points, never waters down virtuosity for the sake of mass appeal. I watch readers stumble over my sentences, unable to unlock even just the music of the envelope let alone the semantic meat within, which—given my tendency to flashlight through the darker facets of human nature (the addicts, the miscreants, the abusers among us)—only adds an additional alienating layer of difficulty). Beholding these depressive scenes of even supportive family members getting bucked off my syntactic bronco makes me feel like a dinosaur who should get a hint and, if not succumb to the brain rot of skibidi-toilet speak, just hang himself already. Even though the decline in linguistic background and grammatical voltage makes my compositions seem quixotic in a world binging Netflix and TikTok, I persist—raging against the dying of the light—by some internal compulsion to celebrate the richness of language and thought.

My hope is that, despite social media’s unparalleled power to farm our attention, people never forget the unique power of writing. Beyond unveiling hypocrisy, teasing out complex implications, and detailing the commonalities between even the most alien phenomena, writing offers something we need today—trapped in agoraphobic cyber bubbles only thickened by the Lyme dangers of forests and the COVID dangers of cities—perhaps more than ever. Granting us rich access to the first-person perspectives of others (to how things feel to them), writing serves as one of humanity’s best tools for combating loneliness. It allows us to linger, broadly and deeply and at high resolution, within the inner lives of others in a way that other arts can only suggest.

What to Expect

My work spans a broad spectrum: from metaphysical discourses on free will and determinism and the ontology of holes to the ephemera of western culture (whether the childhood impacts of the hypersexual mono-image of black woman as squirting twerkers or Terrence Howard’s sham revolution of mathematics). Some tight and minimal, others free-flowing sprawls; some heady and abstract, others emotional and imagistic—my inkwell musings, which often blend scholarly rigor with a dark humor from both high and low culture, aim to capture the visceral intensity of our personal and social and ultimately existential predicaments.

By no means can I deny that drug abuse, sexual assault, and the tales of the broken and the damned loom large in the tag cloud of my work. My writing will never be a paradise of easy truths and comforting lies. It will challenge you, provoke you, and at times even repulse you. I offer no apologies for the monsters I unleash. They are as much a part of us, at long root scared rodent mammals scurrying in the shadows of dinosaurs, as our noblest aspirations.

But make no mistake. It is not all downer darkness. The archives are my receipts. You will find pieces exploring the pursuit of authenticity in a media-saturated world, the search for meaning in an indifferent cosmos, and the celebration of beauty in both the sublime and the profane. I locate much of my inspiration, in fact, in novelists like Dostoevsky and poets like Ted Kooser—writers unafraid to pursue moral agendas or risk Hallmark sentimentality in an age that often sneers at sincerity.

Be they satirical dissections of modern social dynamics or poignant poems about addiction or academic articles on moral responsibility, my goal is to provoke thought, evoke emotion, and foster meaningful dialogue. Fear has not and will not stop me from challenging humanity’s fundamental taboos (like bestiality and cannibalism) or self-reflecting into the dark chaos of the subconscious, even if that means exposing the Jungian shadows—the inner Goebbels—lurking within us all!

Expect posts each day, no day missed. Donations are welcome, but I impose no paywall: it feels wrong to charge for art, especially given our date with obliteration. Feel free to explore what amounts to, at the time of writing this, close to a thousand pieces of poetry and prose here. That should give you a sense of what awaits.

Join me—specula holstered—on this literary odyssey into the public and private nooks of the hive Being. Let us navigate the labyrinth of creation together, confronting our demons and even slaying our darlings if we must. Let us dance on the razor’s edge between the sublime and the profane in pursuit of an elusive literary perfection never to be confused—as it has been confused in our declining civilization—with the pursuit of popularity or likeability over truth.

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Are All the Muses Cats?
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Are All the Muses Cats?

"Are All the Muses Cats?" explores the tension between creative inspiration and the self-consciousness that can interrupt its flow. The poem presents a moment of hesitation: the speaker wishes to record a fleeting moment of creative magic but fears that any attempt to capture it will disrupt the delicate balance required for artistic expression. The muse, often represented as an elusive force in artistic traditions, is here likened to a cat—independent, unbothered by human concerns, and easily scared off by overt efforts to control or pin it down. The speaker’s internal struggle mirrors the creative process itself, where inspiration can be as fragile and fickle as a cat, slipping away when sought too eagerly.

The trek "downstairs" becomes a metaphor for the peril of overthinking or trying too hard, with the speaker recognizing the risk of losing the trance-like state that fosters creativity. The poem reflects on how the ego can intrude upon artistic work, turning the search for inspiration into a "muse-dissing parade," a self-centered performance rather than a pure, intuitive act. The mention of being "uncalibrated to the trance" suggests a loss of the natural rhythm that allows creativity to flow unimpeded, and the speaker's fear of exile from this state highlights the fragility of creative moments. The poem captures the precariousness of the artist’s mind, always aware that overanalysis and the desire to memorialize can sabotage the very magic they seek to immortalize.

The poem thus reflects the timeless artist's dilemma: the fear that in trying to capture or commodify inspiration, the artist may destroy the very thing they wish to preserve. The fleeting, almost mystical nature of creativity is at the heart of this poem, where the muse—like a cat—demands respect for its autonomy, unwilling to be caged or commanded at will.

creativity, inspiration, muses, artistic process, self-consciousness, ego, creative trance, fleeting moments, creative exile, artistic struggle, capturing creativity.

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Tough Love
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Tough Love

"Tough Love" presents a poignant reflection on the artist's fraught relationship with their creations, exploring the emotional toll of the creative process. The imagery of the artist’s works "suckling" him, likened to "starved kittens," introduces a dynamic of dependency and need, where the creations are portrayed as endlessly clamoring for attention and refinement. This metaphor suggests that the artist feels both responsible for and exhausted by their creations, as if they are not just works of art, but living beings demanding sustenance. The use of "evermore revision" emphasizes the perpetual nature of this struggle, where the drive for perfection traps the artist in an ongoing loop of dissatisfaction.

The poem's central tension lies in the artist’s fight to move on from these creations, a process compared to the impossibility of getting "pine sap off the palms." The comparison suggests that the attachment to the work is sticky and persistent, not easily shed, and its "infuriation" builds over time. This frustration, while painful, serves a dual purpose: it creates the emotional distance needed for the artist to finally let go. The concluding image of abandoning the works on "cold public steps" carries a sense of bittersweet resolution. The public setting symbolizes the release of these creations into the world, where they are no longer the artist’s sole burden, but now stand vulnerable, exposed, and perhaps neglected. The artist’s choice to desert them, while described as "heartrending," also feels necessary—a form of "tough love" where letting go is an act of survival.

Ultimately, the poem grapples with the paradox of creation: the simultaneous love and frustration that binds the artist to their work, and the painful but crucial act of letting go. In the end, "Tough Love" illustrates the emotional complexity of artistic detachment, where abandoning one’s work is not just a relief, but also a wound.

artistic process, revision, detachment, creative struggle, abandonment, artist's burden, emotional complexity, creation dependency, artistic frustration, tough love, letting go.

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Realistic Silver Linings
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Realistic Silver Linings

The poem "Realistic Silver Linings" offers a provocative exploration of the cultural and psychological impact of exposure to trans individuals in public spaces, particularly focusing on how societal perceptions of the penis—and male sexuality more broadly—are shaped by Western taboos and anxieties. The poem begins by reframing the contentious issue of trans women using female restrooms as an "upshot," suggesting a potential positive outcome from an otherwise controversial situation. It positions the exposure of young girls to transgender individuals as a possible catalyst for demystifying the penis, an organ that, in Western culture, has long carried an outsized symbolic weight tied to power, dominance, and fear.

The poem critiques the "Western magic" surrounding the penis, a phrase loaded with irony, as it calls attention to the way male sexuality has been overinflated to the point of near-absurdity in modern discourse. In lines such as “its piddly pulses on your subway leg” and “just its zipper wink,” the poem addresses the subtle but pervasive presence of male genitalia in public spaces and the often exaggerated reactions to these fleeting encounters. These moments, seemingly insignificant, are described as having the power to "spell lifelong therapy"—an indictment of how Western culture has pathologized these interactions and turned them into sources of trauma.

In contrast to this psychological baggage, the poem invokes the image of tribespeople who, by comparison, possess a more grounded and less neurotic relationship with sexuality. Their indifference to the penis is likened to their well-adjusted gut flora—symbolizing a natural, untroubled integration of bodily functions and experiences. The implication is that exposure to transgender individuals in restrooms might help to neutralize the intense emotions and psychological distress often associated with the penis in the Western mind. The poem gestures toward the possibility of a cultural shift where the penis is no longer a totem of danger or trauma but something that can be laughed off as insignificant.

The poem suggests that this exposure may lead to a broader social liberation from the "Western magic" of the penis—specifically, the power it holds over women's psyches in certain cultures. The idea of being "freed" to laugh at it as the tribespeople do points to a desired future where the penis loses its threatening, almost mythic status and becomes just another part of the human body. This "realistic silver lining" reflects the speaker's hope that, through increased exposure and desensitization, we might achieve a healthier, less fraught relationship with male genitalia and, by extension, with male sexuality itself.

However, the poem also raises questions about whether this desired cultural shift is achievable or desirable. While the poem presents a hopeful vision of cultural desensitization, it also hints at the deep-seated complexities of this issue. The penis in Western culture has been so thoroughly imbued with layers of meaning—danger, power, vulnerability, and taboo—that achieving the kind of casual indifference the speaker imagines may be far more difficult than it seems. In this way, the poem straddles the line between satire and genuine aspiration, offering a complex meditation on gender, sexuality, and the power of cultural symbols.

Western magic, trans individuals, public restrooms, male sexuality, cultural taboos, gender dynamics, psychological trauma, societal perceptions, desensitization, transgender issues, sexual symbolism, tribal societies, cultural critique, gender relations, body politics.

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Cast the First Stone
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Cast the First Stone

The poem "Cast the First Stone" is a pointed critique of moral hypocrisy and the ease with which individuals claim a higher ground while conveniently forgetting their own past compliance with societal pressures. Addressed to those who claim they would resist contemporary moral trends, the poem holds a mirror to those same individuals, reminding them that they were once themselves eager to fit in, as symbolized by their desire to wear Jordans. The rhetorical move here is to question the reader's ability to truly stand apart from peer pressure, particularly when it comes to controversial and rapidly shifting social norms—namely, the use of new pronouns and the policing of language in educational settings.

The poem juxtaposes two periods of social conformity: the speaker recalls a time when wearing Jordans was a near-necessity for acceptance in school, subtly underlining how even minor acts of conformity can be driven by immense social pressures. This detail is not arbitrary; it calls into question the reader’s potential to stand up to much more intense social dynamics, like those faced by today’s youth navigating issues of gender identity. The poem draws attention to a new kind of conformity that exists under the guise of personal empowerment but is deeply embedded in a trend-driven culture where the stakes are much higher—this time involving the life-altering decisions of transitioning and gender identity politics. The question the poem raises is not just about whether one would resist these trends today, but whether anyone really has the strength to stand against the tide when conformity is woven into the fabric of adolescence and peer identity.

The reference to making teachers "dance to your newfangled pronouns" evokes a specific contemporary anxiety about the power dynamics in classrooms, where students wield unprecedented influence over language and behavior. The poem highlights the extent to which these power dynamics can feel coercive to those in authority, often involving threats of being labeled transphobic or politically incorrect. But the poem is more than a critique of these students; it is a critique of those who believe they are somehow immune to these dynamics—those who claim they would resist the pressure to conform to pronoun usage but fail to realize how often they themselves conformed to similarly arbitrary social markers, like brand-name shoes.

In drawing this parallel between the past and the present, the poem suggests that no one is truly above the pressures of conformity. The same individuals who so adamantly wore Jordans in their youth would likely have succumbed to the same pressures faced by today's adolescents. The reference to puberty blockers and "glitter scalpels" makes the stakes of this new conformity more visceral: while past acts of conformity might have seemed trivial, today's pressures involve body-altering, life-changing decisions. The poem asks: would these moral critics have resisted the "bully temptation" to make their teachers comply with pronoun usage, or would they have fallen in line, just as they did with fashion trends?

The poem raises important questions about the nature of social influence, power dynamics, and moral conviction. It reminds us that, regardless of the time or issue, peer pressure has a powerful way of compelling compliance. The concluding rhetorical question—whether the reader truly believes they would have resisted—challenges the reader to confront their own history of conformity and question the strength of their convictions in the face of real-world pressure.

The poem "Cast the First Stone" critiques moral hypocrisy by drawing a parallel between past and present forms of social conformity. It challenges those who believe they would resist current trends, such as the use of pronouns in schools, by reminding them of their own compliance with peer pressures in the past, like the compulsion to wear Jordans. Through this comparison, the poem explores the complexities of peer influence and the illusion of moral superiority, ultimately questioning whether anyone can truly stand apart from societal pressures.

Social conformity, peer pressure, moral hypocrisy, pronouns in schools, gender identity, societal trends, adolescence, power dynamics, contemporary issues, personal empowerment, puberty blockers, body autonomy, moral critique, social trends, classroom authority.

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Bitch-Ass Nigga
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Bitch-Ass Nigga

"Bitch-Ass Nigga" confronts the realities of street life, male aggression, and the complexities of urban youth culture through the lens of a specific community dynamic. The poem’s focus on a neighbor’s intervention in a potentially violent confrontation underscores a layered examination of masculinity, respect, and conflict resolution. The term "bitch-ass nigga," while harsh and laden with racial and gendered connotations, sets the tone for an exploration of social expectations around toughness, respect, and the male body as a site of power and vulnerability.

In the scene, young teens swarm in the “bottle-glass street,” an evocative image that conjures a sense of urban decay and danger, with shattered glass symbolizing both the literal and metaphorical fragmentation of lives in the neighborhood. These teens are on the precipice of violence, reflective of a larger societal issue where disenfranchised youths, particularly young Black men, often find themselves engaging in physical confrontations as a means of asserting dominance or simply surviving in their environment. The “quiet neighbor” emerges as a figure who understands both the risks involved in such altercations—“group stomping, / police fire”—and the potential positive outcomes that can arise from channeling male aggression into structured physical combat. This neighbor embodies a sense of old-school masculinity, where physical confrontation, if managed within the bounds of sport, can serve as a path to earning respect and fostering self-confidence.

The quiet neighbor’s decision to step out with boxing gloves and invite the boys into his backyard is an act of courage, perhaps even mentorship. It reflects a belief in the transformative potential of controlled combat, where violence is not merely a destructive force but a tool for growth and development. This approach to conflict resolution, however, is not without its complications. The neighbor is aware of the risks inherent in this environment, where police violence is a constant threat, and yet he steps forward, offering an alternative to the chaotic violence that might otherwise erupt. His insistence on bringing the boys to his backyard suggests a desire to create a space where they can safely engage in combat while still adhering to a code of respect and discipline.

The poem ultimately raises questions about the nature of masculinity in such environments. The use of boxing as a metaphor for controlled violence highlights the duality of male aggression: it can be both a destructive force and a means of building confidence and earning respect. In a world where young men are often expected to perform a hyper-masculine role, the quiet neighbor provides a counter-narrative, one that reframes physical combat as a way to develop rather than destroy. The poem thus serves as a meditation on the ways in which communities, particularly Black communities, navigate the complex dynamics of male identity, violence, and respect in the face of systemic pressures like poverty and police presence.

urban masculinity, youth aggression, conflict resolution through sport, controlled violence, respect in Black communities, boxing as mentorship, street life dynamics, hyper-masculine expectations, community intervention, systemic pressures in urban environments.

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Built-In Vetting and Defense
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Built-In Vetting and Defense

In "Built-In Vetting and Defense," the poem portrays a highly calculated, transactional world of drug dealing, where power is subverted through a twisted form of mutual coercion. The dealer insists that the buyer threaten him, flipping the script and making the buyer responsible for initiating the transaction under duress. This method enables the dealer to claim that any illegal sale was done involuntarily, thus protecting himself from legal consequences. The forced recitation of threats during video chats creates a bizarre ritual, demonstrating how paranoia and survival have redefined trust in this dangerous, illicit space.

The poem deftly captures the tension of these interactions, as the buyer is coerced into delivering a violent ultimatum in order to obtain drugs, framing the transaction as legally ambiguous. The inclusion of a disturbing, sing-song chant, “♪ Mr. ’Tato Head, ♪” adds a layer of dark absurdity, revealing how deeply twisted this environment is, where the power of threat becomes intertwined with grim humor. The ritualized threat adds a performative element to the transaction, blending menace with absurdity, as if to downplay the grim reality with a veneer of forced casualness.

The poem examines themes of manipulation, paranoia, and the moral contortions present in criminal dealings. It explores the psychological toll of existing in a world where coercion is mutual and trust is based on threats of violence. The piece critiques the absurd lengths to which individuals go to protect themselves in the underworld, where every move is calculated for survival, and moral lines are blurred beyond recognition.

mutual coercion, drug dealing dynamics, illegal transactions, plausible deniability, under duress, power inversion, paranoia, criminal manipulation, threat-based exchanges, dark humor, moral ambiguity

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The Violinist
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

The Violinist

“The Violinist” is a layered exploration of the complicated relationship between an artist father and his son, marked by both resentment and unexpected joy. The opening lines, “He had pleaded for abortion / (in fear a child would smother / his art),” immediately introduce us to a father who views parenthood as a threat to his creative pursuits. This perspective frames the father’s identity, suggesting that his primary concern lies in preserving his autonomy and the freedom to create, unburdened by familial obligations. In choosing art over potential fatherhood, the father reveals his belief in the inherent conflict between creative freedom and parental responsibility.

Yet, the reality of fatherhood quickly defies these initial fears. His son, the very child he sought to avoid, becomes an unexpected source of both irritation and fulfillment. The father’s dread of being “smothered” by parental duties is inverted, as his son becomes the only other toenails he could “nibble.” This peculiar and intimate image suggests an oddly affectionate but predatory dynamic, where the father is simultaneously drawn to and threatened by the presence of his son. The act of “nibbling” evokes a primal connection, underscoring the interdependence that forms despite the father’s earlier reservations.

The poem skillfully captures the father’s ambivalence as the son grows, gradually surpassing him in various realms: “being bested by a kid / in ever-new areas (math, height, chess, / even music).” This passage reveals the father’s competitive nature, his sense of insecurity deepened by his son’s achievements. What was once a fear of being tied down becomes a more personal fear of inadequacy, as the son not only shares his interests (music) but surpasses him in them. The father’s identity, built upon his artistic ambitions, is challenged by the very person he once feared would hinder his growth.

Yet, the poem culminates in a complex emotional turn: “ominous joy / crescendoed with time.” This line evokes the musical metaphor of a crescendo, suggesting that the father’s emotions swell in intensity over time. The joy he experiences is “ominous,” tinged with darkness and perhaps an underlying anxiety about being outshone by his son. However, the fact that this joy exists at all points to the father’s realization that fatherhood, despite its challenges, has enriched his life. The competitive tension between father and son ultimately produces a deep, albeit fraught, bond, where pride and fear coexist. The poem masterfully portrays the complicated emotional landscape of fatherhood, capturing the father’s oscillation between fear of being overshadowed and pride in his son’s growth.

father-son competition, ambivalence in fatherhood, artistic ambition and family, surpassing parents, emotional complexity of parenthood, fear of inadequacy in fathers, familial intimacy and resentment, generational rivalry, creative tension in family relationships, interdependence of father and son.

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Sandcastle Basement
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Sandcastle Basement

"Sandcastle Basement" delves into the transient nature of human endeavors, particularly the creative and artistic pursuits that people often undertake in an attempt to find meaning or permanence. The poem opens with an evocative image of a "smokescreen of our artistic fury," suggesting that creative efforts often act as a diversion or a facade that obscures deeper existential fears. This "fury" reaches its peak in moments of ecstatic immersion, akin to the intense focus required during a "tennis rally nudging our limits." Here, the rally metaphor implies both the relentless back-and-forth of creative effort and the continual pushing of boundaries in search of some elusive fulfillment.

The poem’s pivot, however, comes with the introduction of a "heart murmur," which represents a subtle yet persistent awareness of life's impermanence—a reminder that no amount of creation or artistic expression can ultimately shield us from "sublivion." This invented term appears to combine "sublime" and "oblivion," hinting at a paradox where human attempts at transcendence (the sublime) are inevitably swallowed by the void (oblivion). This notion captures the futility embedded in the human condition: the recognition that all efforts, regardless of their beauty or intensity, are destined to disintegrate over time.

The final lines of the poem, "that all shrines (to our egos or otherwise) crumble in the entropic hourglass," reinforce the theme of decay and the unstoppable march of entropy. The "shrines" symbolize the structures—both literal and metaphorical—that humans erect to commemorate themselves or their achievements. Yet, the imagery of the "entropic hourglass" suggests that these monuments, much like sandcastles, are inherently fragile and subject to the ravages of time. The poem, therefore, serves as a meditation on the fleeting nature of existence and the human desire to find stability and meaning in a universe governed by chaos and decay.

"Sandcastle Basement" ultimately reflects a deep-seated skepticism about the capacity of art—or any human endeavor—to provide lasting solace against the fundamental uncertainties of existence. It invites readers to confront the uncomfortable truth that, despite our greatest efforts, everything we create is merely a temporary defense against the inevitable erosion of time.

Let's workshop this poem about the existential futility of artistic creation, blending metaphysical musings with vivid imagery. "Sandcastle Basement" opens with a compelling metaphor: our "artistic fury" serves as a "smokescreen," suggesting both the intensity and the potential illusion of creative endeavors. This fury is "thickest when ecstatic," likened to the tension and rhythm of a "tennis rally," a game where players push each other to their limits, much like how we might push ourselves creatively. Yet, behind this passionate pursuit lies a stark realization—a "heart murmur" of doubt—that no creation, no matter how profound or beautiful, can ultimately "anchor us against sublivion." The term "sublivion" either means a tweak on oblivion (capturing the idea that, although we are snuffed out, the energy goes one and has been before) or might be a clever combo of "sublime" with "oblivion," encapsulating the duality of the human experience: our creations may reach sublime heights, but they are always shadowed by the inevitability of decay. The poem concludes with a poignant reflection that all "shrines"—whether to "our egos or otherwise"—are destined to "crumble in the entropic hourglass." This final image not only underscores the temporality of our efforts but also evokes the inexorable march of time that reduces even the grandest achievements to dust. Through its interplay of vigorous action and quiet introspection, the poem poignantly captures the paradox of human creativity—our drive to leave a mark in a universe indifferent to permanence.

A meditation on the impermanence of artistic and human endeavors, "Sandcastle Basement" explores the futility of seeking stability in a universe governed by entropy and decay.

impermanence, artistic endeavor, existential futility, entropy, human condition, creative expression, decay, transience, sublime, oblivion, meaning, existential uncertainty.

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Expat Painter in Prague
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Expat Painter in Prague

"Expat Painter in Prague" delves into themes of sexual violation and artistic obsession, using the figure of a painter as a metaphor for control, exploitation, and detachment. The poem begins with a chilling statement: "He took her without consent," indicating an act of sexual violence or coercion. The phrase "all giggles below his balcony" introduces a contrast between the lightheartedness or naivety of the victim and the sinister actions of the perpetrator. The juxtaposition of this carefree image with the violent act above underscores the predator-prey dynamic, where the woman is oblivious to the danger.

The "café girls" sitting in the "iron seat" evoke an atmosphere of everyday life in a European city like Prague, but the casualness of the setting contrasts sharply with the violation occurring. The painter’s "oil strokes," described as "reviving native unclinicality," point to an artistic style that becomes increasingly untamed and uncontrolled, much like his predatory impulses. The mention of "feral" suggests that his artistic endeavors are no longer about capturing beauty or truth but are driven by base, primal desires that overwhelm his ability to objectively represent his subjects.

The poem further suggests that his growing inability to "siphon details from new sitters" reflects his emotional detachment or inability to see the humanity of those he paints, reducing them to mere objects. Even the presence of a "neon fob of mace"—a symbol of modern self-defense against violence—offers little protection, as it is reduced to a decorative "flamingo" against the stark, unyielding backdrop of "weathered cobble." This emphasizes the futility of resistance in the face of someone who wields control both physically and artistically. The poem speaks to themes of power, control, and the exploitation of the vulnerable, using the painter as a symbol for how art can be complicit in these dynamics of violation and objectification.

Keywords: sexual violence, artistic obsession, power dynamics, exploitation, emotional detachment, predator-prey metaphor, vulnerability, objectification, violation, European city setting.

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Photograph of Woman Who Fell off Her Bike
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Photograph of Woman Who Fell off Her Bike

"Photograph of Woman Who Fell off Her Bike" critiques the dynamics of power, manipulation, and sacrifice in a relationship framed by artistic ambition. Jacques-Henri, likely a reference to the French photographer Jacques-Henri Lartigue, uses his wife not only as a subject for his photography but also as an instrument of his creative process. The poem opens with the wife’s enthusiastic support for her husband’s genius, but this enthusiasm is steeped in her understanding that his art always takes precedence. Her excitement about the bike ride is tempered by the knowledge that it is not a moment for shared leisure but a professional opportunity for Jacques-Henri, who brings his camera “only from habit.” This detail highlights the husband’s detachment from the experience of bonding with his wife, as his creative drive eclipses the personal connection.

The moment when she falls off her bike introduces vulnerability and potential critique. The wife anticipates judgment, bracing herself for his likely lecture about her lack of skill or preparation. Her preemptive groaning and explanation underscore the fear of criticism that defines their relationship. However, Jacques-Henri's response is not focused on her well-being but rather on preserving the aesthetic moment. His sole concern lies in "getting the shot," objectifying her through his lens. By making her reenact the fall for the camera, he strips the event of its personal and emotional reality, reducing his wife to a tool for his artistic vision. The poem captures the wife’s internalization of this dynamic, as she is "happy to oblige," finding solace in the fact that she was not scolded. This acceptance illustrates the depth of her submission and the asymmetry in their relationship, where her value is tied to her utility in advancing his creative endeavors.

power dynamics, artistic ambition, submission, objectification, photography, manipulation, relationship imbalance, creative process, gender roles, vulnerability in marriage.

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Don’t let anyone tell you that real life is lacking in poetic interest. This is exactly what the poet is for: he has the mind and the imagination to find something of interest in everyday things. Real life supplies the motifs, the points that need to be said—the actual heart of the matter; but it is the poet’s job to fashion it all into a beautiful, animated whole. You are familiar with Fürnstein, the so-called “nature poet”? He has written a poem about growing hops, and you couldn’t imagine anything nicer. I have now asked him to write some poems celebrating the work of skilled artisans, in particular weavers, and I am quite sure he will succeed; he has lived among such people from an early age, he knows the subject inside out, and will be in full command of his material. That is the advantage of small works: you need only choose subjects that you know and have at your command. With a longer poetic work, however, this is not possible. There is no way around it: all the different threads that tie the whole thing together, and are woven into the design, have to be shown in accurate detail. Young people only have a one-sided view of things, whereas a longer work requires a multiplicity of viewpoints—and that’s where they come unstuck.—Goethe (Conversations with Eckermann)


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