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What is Hive Being, and Why the Name?

You have likely heard talk of a hive mind, where one global mind finds more or less figurative expression in various local minds. Such talk is common enough in nature documentaries, especially ones concerning ants or bees, and in sci-fi programs. Take that notion, at least a loose version of it, and broaden its scope. That will be a decent first step in understanding the title I have chosen both for my Blog and for the first five-volume installment of my magnum opus Made For You and Me, a fragmentary collection of minimalist stanzas from 2016 to 2020.

In alignment with Spinoza (the 17th Century Rationalist to whom I devoted my doctoral studies), I view reality in its totality as a grand hive Being: all entities are but pulsating manifestations of the buckstopping fount of everything, an ultimate being we might call “God” or “Nature” (so long as, out of respect for the capital “G” and the capital “N,” we limit it neither to some anthropomorphic cloud father hurling lightning bolts nor to mere wilderness untouched by human smog). According to the hive-Being view (where reality is one lone superorganism, a monistic—and we might even say unividualist—conception I defend in both my creative and academic capacities), each non-foundational being (each being, that is, whose essence does not involve existence) is an utterly necessitated expression or eruption or exudation of this eternal source—each is, perhaps better put, a mode or manner of being, and so a focal point through which is disclosed, what classical theists sometimes call “being itself” (ipsum esse subsistens): the realness of the real, the being of whatever may be, the sheer activity of being, the very isness of whatever is. This Blog, which duplicates my Substack, throbs as but one among many literary unfurlings of this self-necessitated foundation, this supreme wellspring, of which we—like black holes and broken beliefs, like fractal ferns and flickering flames—are the inevitable stylings.

My Journey

I am an academic who found himself pressured into early retirement by the rising tides of cancel culture. The illiberal scourge of censoring, silencing, and shaming—although always with us throughout our evolution—reached a local peak around 2021. That was the turbulent year my creative pursuits, which the old left once encouraged as a healthy outlet for the stresses of a childhood steeped in poverty and illiteracy, drew the ire of the new safe-space left. A small cadre of self-proclaimed victims and their allies, several of whom continue to berate me years later under pseudonyms as see through as their sexual infatuation, sought to erase me and my heterodoxy. They found support from a wannabe-woke dean, covered in the grand inquisitor robes of our decadent modernity (full-body tattoos) and just itching to signal his commitment to protecting “vulnerable populations” from triggering material (even if just, as it was in my case, off-duty poems “unbecoming for someone calling himself a teacher”). Although I eventually won my due-process case with the help of The Foundation for Individual Rights and Expression, I slunk away from a college that turned its back on protecting freedom of expression and from an institution increasingly intolerant of intellectual diversity.  

The wrecking ball to my too-comfy office in the windowless ivory tower came with a silver lining. From the ashes of my professional aspirations rose a phoenix of increased freedom to fulfill the literary calling I have pursued for decades. Reputation concerns never stopped me, even within academia’s sterile halls of conformity. Indeed, my unapologetic defiance, which has long baffled friends and family, no doubt chummed even safe waters—almost as if I were asking for it all along—until the cancel shiver grew too frenzied to hold back its blind thrashings. But now, now I piston the most forbidden territories of human thought with no longer even a twinge of conscience. The newfound freedom means extra time to hone my craft. When not assisting special-needs communities (a day job far more rewarding than freeway-flyer drudgeries), I pursue my literary mission with Dionysian fervor.

Call for Co-Conspirators

This space, my digital sanctuary, showcases the fruits of my mission. Think of my posts, even those linking to my publications, as works in progress. I want your input, unflinching brutality included. Each post begins with an invitation to action: “Let’s workshop this [draft about x, y, z].” Your contributions, whether through public comments or my contact page, help hammer scraps of ore into polished blades fit for magazine publication.

Your input is valuable, even if you are neither a writer nor a reader of literature—twin disciplines dying by the cyber nanosecond. Sometimes—even if at the risk of uttering banalities—an outsider’s fresh vantage can pierce the veils of convention to reveal what insiders miss. It often takes an outsider to make us even think to question our ingrained presuppositions and attitudes. I stand by the hygienic value of contagion. That is one reason I advocate so strongly for intellectual diversity and freedom of expression. And that is also one reason I was so harrowed by the anti-diversity swell of cancel culture in academia (an institution that should be the utmost caretaker of such values)—harrowed especially insofar as that swell masqueraded under the gaslighting guise of “diversity”).

You will witness the breathing evolution of my writings over time. To track these changes, I label each revision by round: “ROUND 2,” ROUND 3,” and so forth. Each piece undergoes continuous refinement based on your feedback and my own revisitations. Sometimes changes will mar the work. That is the risk of creative tinkering as a finite creature. I hope you will alert me to missteps. After many semesters of university writing workshops, one rule has impressed itself upon me: when someone senses a flaw, something almost always needs to change—even if, yes, the proposed solution misses the mark (which often it does). From a quick look into the archives, accessible here, you can see how much I have benefited from your feedback so far.

My Hope

Sharing drafts can be daunting. But showing you the ravaged and unperfumed real deal unfiltered by makeup (stuttering starts and falsities, awkward line breaks and clumsy word choices, grammatical errors and misspellings)—that not only makes my work more relatable, but helps me refine things through your input. I hope the unfiltered look at the raw process of fumbling, rather than just the polished product, also helps other writers develop their craft. Imperfect works often instruct more than perfect ones: whereas the perfect ones tend to have a grace by which they slip inside us without activating our scrutiny, the imperfect ones—especially the near perfect ones—show us glaringly what not to do.

People laugh at me, seeing—in my tilting at the windmills of literary excellence—a Don Quixote clunking around in Arthurian armor in a post-knight era. I am not naïve. I am well aware of the diminishing ability to read, let alone well: slowly and deeply, with gratitude. I am also aware that my style, which often nests subpoints within larger points, never waters down virtuosity for the sake of mass appeal. I watch readers stumble over my sentences, unable to unlock even just the music of the envelope let alone the semantic meat within, which—given my tendency to flashlight through the darker facets of human nature (the addicts, the miscreants, the abusers among us)—only adds an additional alienating layer of difficulty). Beholding these depressive scenes of even supportive family members getting bucked off my syntactic bronco makes me feel like a dinosaur who should get a hint and, if not succumb to the brain rot of skibidi-toilet speak, just hang himself already. Even though the decline in linguistic background and grammatical voltage makes my compositions seem quixotic in a world binging Netflix and TikTok, I persist—raging against the dying of the light—by some internal compulsion to celebrate the richness of language and thought.

My hope is that, despite social media’s unparalleled power to farm our attention, people never forget the unique power of writing. Beyond unveiling hypocrisy, teasing out complex implications, and detailing the commonalities between even the most alien phenomena, writing offers something we need today—trapped in agoraphobic cyber bubbles only thickened by the Lyme dangers of forests and the COVID dangers of cities—perhaps more than ever. Granting us rich access to the first-person perspectives of others (to how things feel to them), writing serves as one of humanity’s best tools for combating loneliness. It allows us to linger, broadly and deeply and at high resolution, within the inner lives of others in a way that other arts can only suggest.

What to Expect

My work spans a broad spectrum: from metaphysical discourses on free will and determinism and the ontology of holes to the ephemera of western culture (whether the childhood impacts of the hypersexual mono-image of black woman as squirting twerkers or Terrence Howard’s sham revolution of mathematics). Some tight and minimal, others free-flowing sprawls; some heady and abstract, others emotional and imagistic—my inkwell musings, which often blend scholarly rigor with a dark humor from both high and low culture, aim to capture the visceral intensity of our personal and social and ultimately existential predicaments.

By no means can I deny that drug abuse, sexual assault, and the tales of the broken and the damned loom large in the tag cloud of my work. My writing will never be a paradise of easy truths and comforting lies. It will challenge you, provoke you, and at times even repulse you. I offer no apologies for the monsters I unleash. They are as much a part of us, at long root scared rodent mammals scurrying in the shadows of dinosaurs, as our noblest aspirations.

But make no mistake. It is not all downer darkness. The archives are my receipts. You will find pieces exploring the pursuit of authenticity in a media-saturated world, the search for meaning in an indifferent cosmos, and the celebration of beauty in both the sublime and the profane. I locate much of my inspiration, in fact, in novelists like Dostoevsky and poets like Ted Kooser—writers unafraid to pursue moral agendas or risk Hallmark sentimentality in an age that often sneers at sincerity.

Be they satirical dissections of modern social dynamics or poignant poems about addiction or academic articles on moral responsibility, my goal is to provoke thought, evoke emotion, and foster meaningful dialogue. Fear has not and will not stop me from challenging humanity’s fundamental taboos (like bestiality and cannibalism) or self-reflecting into the dark chaos of the subconscious, even if that means exposing the Jungian shadows—the inner Goebbels—lurking within us all!

Expect posts each day, no day missed. Donations are welcome, but I impose no paywall: it feels wrong to charge for art, especially given our date with obliteration. Feel free to explore what amounts to, at the time of writing this, close to a thousand pieces of poetry and prose here. That should give you a sense of what awaits.

Join me—specula holstered—on this literary odyssey into the public and private nooks of the hive Being. Let us navigate the labyrinth of creation together, confronting our demons and even slaying our darlings if we must. Let us dance on the razor’s edge between the sublime and the profane in pursuit of an elusive literary perfection never to be confused—as it has been confused in our declining civilization—with the pursuit of popularity or likeability over truth.

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MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 33)
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 33)

In this excerpt from "Made for You and Me 2017," M. A. Istvan Jr. weaves together a series of poignant and thought-provoking observations, creating a tapestry of existential reflections and societal critiques. The mosaic of imagery and themes invites readers to delve into the complexities of human experience, touching on addiction, loss, resilience, and the quest for meaning in a seemingly indifferent universe.

The opening line, "junkies, fibrotic even at the quirkiest needle sites, driveling over unspoiled vascularity," immediately sets a tone of decay and desperation. The depiction of addicts, whose bodies bear the scars of their relentless search for veins, highlights the physical and psychological toll of addiction. The reference to "unspoiled vascularity" underscores a yearning for purity and normalcy, a stark contrast to their current state of degradation.

This theme of destruction extends to the natural world with "one’s birth tree choked out by disease." Here, Istvan juxtaposes the personal and the ecological, suggesting a parallel between the corruption of the body and the demise of nature. The imagery of a tree, a symbol of life and growth, succumbing to disease, evokes a sense of inevitable decline that pervades the poem.

The recurring motif of animals and their behaviors serves as a metaphor for human tendencies. "Dogs returning to their vomit" and "preferring the known of misery over the unknown of change" reflect a profound commentary on the human condition. These lines suggest a proclivity to cling to familiar suffering rather than embrace the uncertainty of transformation. The reference to scientists "popping corks in the atomic glow" adds a layer of irony, highlighting the dissonance between scientific celebration and the potential for catastrophic consequences, underscoring the tension between progress and ethical responsibility.

Istvan's exploration of identity and transformation continues with the image of "Brenda’s Adam’s apple in the morning florescence of the hotel bathroom." This line poignantly captures the vulnerability and complexity of gender identity, hinting at the personal struggles and societal judgments faced by those who do not conform to traditional norms. The morning light, often symbolic of new beginnings, here illuminates the ongoing challenges of self-acceptance and societal perception.

The poet's contemplation of mortality and language is evident in the lines, "although we use it each day (and casually), our behavior shows that we find 'dying' to be the most vile word in the language." This reflection on the aversion to death, despite its inevitability, highlights the paradoxical nature of human existence. The subsequent image of an infant, "unkindled to laughter by the faces meant to make it laugh," delving into reflective curiosity, underscores the innate human tendency towards introspection and the search for meaning, even from an early age.

The poem further examines the aftermath of triumph with "is that regular mode of life following a great victory a chance to reflect and reenergize, or one to wonder why you did not simply kill yourself in the climax?" This line starkly portrays the existential void that can follow significant achievements, questioning the purpose and fulfillment derived from success. The image of wearing a "photo-mask of mom so the orphan will feed from the bottle" evokes themes of deception and survival, illustrating the lengths to which individuals go to nurture and sustain life in the face of loss.

Istvan's meditation on generational trauma is evident in "traumas transmuting across generations without deliberate effort," suggesting the pervasive and enduring impact of past wounds on present and future lives. This notion of inherited pain resonates with the subsequent lines on the absurdity of human desires and the search for spiritual enlightenment, emphasizing the cyclical and often futile nature of these pursuits.

The poem concludes with a reflection on the self and the impossibility of fully transcending one's identity. "Religions that ask a given self to discover its own nonexistence ask the impossible of that self" encapsulates the tension between spiritual aspirations and the inherent limitations of human consciousness.

Istvan's "Made for You and Me 2017" is a profound exploration of human frailty, resilience, and the relentless quest for meaning amidst the chaos of existence. Through vivid imagery and poignant reflections, the poet invites readers to confront the darkest and most vulnerable aspects of their own humanity.

M. A. Istvan Jr., Made for You and Me 2017, existential reflections, addiction, identity, resilience, human experience, quest for meaning, societal critique, vivid imagery, poetry, generational trauma, spiritual enlightenment, human frailty, philosophical poetry.

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Istvan Academic BIO FAQ
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Istvan Academic BIO FAQ

The pursuit of becoming a professor in philosophy, as described in the provided academic biography, is a narrative that intertwines personal struggle, intellectual curiosity, and a deep commitment to the search for truth. The author's journey is marked by an early and profound engagement with existential questions, driven not by formal education or traditional mentorship but by a personal quest for understanding amidst challenging circumstances.

From an early age, the author was captivated by the profound questions that touch upon the essence of human existence. This intellectual curiosity was not sparked by a serendipitous encounter with a philosophical text or a mentor but rather emerged from the author's introspective nature and the harsh realities of their environment. Growing up in a community where academic pursuits were foreign and survival often took precedence, the author's early life was characterized by a sense of alienation and a relentless pursuit of understanding.

The author's narrative reveals a profound dissatisfaction with the conventional narratives and imaginative games of childhood, leading to a deeper engagement with philosophical inquiry. This early introspection, combined with an acute awareness of the emptiness of societal norms, laid the groundwork for a lifelong commitment to exploring the fundamental questions of existence. The author's journey into academia was not a straightforward path but rather a pilgrimage marked by personal struggle and intellectual discovery.

In high school and later in undergraduate studies, the author found glimpses of philosophical inquiry in literature and other academic disciplines. However, it was not until college that the author formally encountered philosophy, which offered a structured way to explore the deep questions that had always intrigued them. This formal introduction to philosophy provided the author with the tools to study cosmic conundrums head-on, without the crutch of plot and character found in literature.

The author's academic journey, including earning degrees in Philosophy and English, and later an MA in Philosophy and Creative Writing, reflects a balance between continental and analytic philosophical traditions. This diverse educational background enabled the author to approach philosophical questions from multiple perspectives, blending rigorous argumentation with a poetic and imaginative exploration of reality.

Throughout their academic career, the author grappled with the central problems of philosophy, focusing particularly on metaphysical questions about God and free will. The author's work is characterized by a commitment to logical rigor and an aversion to rhetorical sleight-of-hand, reflecting a deep-seated belief in the principle of sufficient reason. This philosophical orientation, rooted in the rationalist tradition of Spinoza and Nietzsche, underpins the author's approach to intellectual inquiry and teaching.

Despite the challenges of balancing teaching, research, and personal life, the author remained dedicated to the pursuit of philosophical truth. The narrative reveals a profound sense of mission, driven by the belief that philosophical inquiry is essential to understanding the human condition and addressing contemporary societal issues. The author's commitment to philosophy is portrayed as a relentless quest for understanding, driven by an insatiable curiosity and a desire to challenge conventional thinking.

In conclusion, the provided academic biography offers a rich and nuanced portrait of a philosopher's journey. It highlights the interplay between personal struggle and intellectual curiosity, revealing how the author's early experiences and deep-seated philosophical questions shaped their academic career. The narrative underscores the importance of philosophy as a lifelong endeavor, characterized by a relentless pursuit of truth and a commitment to exploring the fundamental questions of existence.

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Sims School Bus in the Tsunami
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Sims School Bus in the Tsunami

"Sims School Bus in the Tsunami" is a concise yet profound poem that delves into existential themes of suffering, resilience, and the human capacity for adaptation in the face of overwhelming adversity. Through its stark imagery and philosophical undertones, the poem captures a poignant reflection on the nature of existence and the relentless challenges posed by the universe.

The poem opens with an assertion about the cosmos, suggesting it "insinuates malignant design." This phrase implies a universe that often appears hostile or indifferent to human suffering, evoking a sense of malevolent intent behind the random chaos of life. The reference to a "dental-drilling demiurge" further emphasizes this idea, painting a picture of a creator or force that is both painful and uncaring, akin to the discomfort and dread associated with a relentless dental drill.

In contrast to this cosmic indifference, the poem introduces a "Promethean knack" within humans—a reference to Prometheus, the mythological figure who defied the gods to bring fire (and thus knowledge and progress) to humanity. This symbolizes the human spirit's tenacity and ingenuity, its ability to adapt and find new baselines of normalcy even as suffering intensifies. The metaphor of "frogs in water slowly heated" vividly illustrates this gradual adaptation to worsening conditions, highlighting how humans often acclimate to pain and distress until it becomes unbearable.

The poem's culmination in the line "until death obliterates us / into untorturable smithereens" brings a stark conclusion to the meditation on suffering and resilience. Here, death is portrayed not merely as an end but as a release from the capacity to be tortured—an obliteration into "smithereens" that cannot be tormented any further. This final image offers a bleak yet perhaps comforting resolution, suggesting that in death, the relentless cycle of suffering ceases.

"Sims School Bus in the Tsunami" employs its compact form to deliver a powerful exploration of existential angst, the resilience of the human spirit, and the ultimate release from suffering. The poem's use of mythological and everyday imagery juxtaposes the grandeur of human defiance with the mundane reality of enduring pain, inviting readers to ponder the profound complexities of life and death.

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MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 31)
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 31)

In "Kudzu Vines of Cult Indoctrination," a segment from the larger mosaic poem "MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017—part 31)," the poet navigates a labyrinth of modern existential dilemmas and societal critiques. This passage encapsulates the fragmentation and complexity of contemporary life through a series of vivid, often unsettling images that provoke reflection on themes of identity, societal norms, and the human condition.

The opening metaphor of "kudzu vines of cult indoctrination strangling gardens of parental investment" sets the tone for the poem. Kudzu, an invasive species known for its rapid and uncontrollable spread, symbolizes the pervasive and destructive nature of cult-like ideologies. These ideologies suffocate the carefully nurtured values and investments of parents, illustrating a struggle between individual upbringing and overpowering external influences. This metaphor resonates with the anxiety of losing control over one's cultural and moral legacy to more aggressive, external forces.

The following line, "reviving someone only to beat the shit out of them," presents a stark and brutal image. This line conveys a sense of cyclical violence and futility, highlighting the cruelty of giving life only to inflict pain. It reflects a deeper commentary on societal practices that ostensibly aim to help or heal but end up perpetuating harm.

"The furry pause between teen identities seems more pregnant than ever" captures the liminality and turbulence of adolescence. The "furry pause" suggests a moment of softness and uncertainty, a transitional phase laden with potential and anxiety. This period is described as "pregnant," emphasizing its significance and the myriad possibilities it holds for personal growth and identity formation.

"Toes curled away from the cold tile of dawn footsteps" evokes a visceral reaction to discomfort and fear. The image of curling toes in response to cold tiles at dawn suggests a reluctance to face the harsh realities of the new day, symbolizing a broader hesitation to confront uncomfortable truths or challenges.

The poem continues with "wondering whether you were liked because of your race or in spite of it," touching on the complex and often painful considerations of racial identity and acceptance. This line underscores the internal conflict and self-doubt experienced by individuals navigating racially charged environments, where acceptance may be conditional or superficial.

"Illegal to eat a swan—nasty, ornery, source of coronation down—in a land of famine" juxtaposes luxury and necessity, highlighting societal contradictions. The swan, a symbol of beauty and nobility, is protected even in times of extreme scarcity, suggesting misplaced priorities and the absurdities of legal and social norms.

The passage also delves into the dynamics of heroism and resistance with "struggling, real hard, to resist the fatalistic tug of his groomer-camp-counselor look." This line portrays the inner battle against predestined roles or manipulative influences, emphasizing the effort required to maintain autonomy and resist external pressures.

"Dramatic dying, even if tamer than grenade-leaping heroism (even if no more than shunning hospice’s morphined stupor), is—like free-range kids popping wheelies on knee-bloody bikes beyond screens—safeguarded, for now, by the grubby poor" contrasts different forms of valor and the socio-economic factors that preserve certain freedoms. It suggests that genuine, everyday acts of defiance and resilience are often preserved by those living on society's margins.

The poem critiques superficial judgments with "criticized for having subjects too posed even though poses reveal something about them." It acknowledges the value in seemingly artificial presentations, suggesting that poses can convey deeper truths about individuals.

Through lines like "imagine if we did the NBA like we do now our colleges: Team USA competitiveness plunging—China’s prayers answered—as we chase the jungle’s standard of diversity," the poem satirizes contemporary approaches to diversity and inclusion, questioning their impact on merit and excellence.

The final stanzas delve into personal and societal decay, with images of "prison hospice," "cursory editing of old work so as to get to new work," and "the urge to sew together identical twins." These lines evoke a sense of deterioration and the desperate, often absurd attempts to find meaning or connection in a fragmented world.

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MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 30)
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

MADE FOR YOU AND ME 2: hive Being (Stanzas 2017--part 30)

Michael Anthony Istvan Jr.'s "Made for You and Me 2017" weaves together fragments that capture the stark realities of human existence, exploring themes of death, love, memory, and societal change. This sequence of poetic vignettes provides a multifaceted look at the struggles and intricacies of contemporary life, offering deep reflections through brief, potent lines.

The opening phrase "depression tartar" conjures an image of persistent, uncleanable residue, symbolizing the lingering, often unnoticed effects of depression. This imagery sets a somber tone, echoed in the subsequent vignette about staying "behind the camera in order not to participate," which speaks to a desire to avoid engaging directly with life, a theme common in modern existential angst.

The line "your former F-student, your nurse as you battle to live" suggests the circular nature of life and the unexpected roles people come to play in each other's lives. This theme of reversal and interconnectedness is poignant, hinting at redemption and the unforeseen dependencies that shape our existence.

Avoiding cliché while seeking beauty is a recurring struggle in art and life, as captured by "avoiding cliché at the expense of beauty." It highlights the tension between originality and the inherent appeal of familiar, beautiful things. Similarly, "the secret guilt of medical professionals" unveils the hidden emotional burdens carried by those in caregiving professions, who often grapple with their limitations and the impact of their work on human lives.

The vignette about using "comedy to defuse an attack and uplift the dying" underscores the power of humor as a coping mechanism and a source of comfort amidst suffering. This is a reminder of the multifaceted role comedy plays in human resilience.

"Startled to find him looking so different than he had in life" touches on the shock of encountering death, where the physical transformation underscores the finality of life and the disconnect between memory and reality. The ongoing visit to a grave, as described, reflects the enduring nature of love and remembrance, even when it seems no one else cares.

The complexity of human interaction is captured in the vignette about laughter and the fear of missing a joke, illustrating social anxiety and the delicate dance of fitting in. The transition from a heartbeat to a "heart tick—one too loud in bed" evokes the intrusive nature of health issues, disrupting the intimacy of sleep and the comfort of silence.

Watching a loved one sleep while contemplating potential heartbreak speaks to the vulnerability inherent in love, where deep affection is always shadowed by the fear of loss. This idea of impending loss permeates the imagery of "clawing at earth" against the inevitable pull of graves, symbolizing the human struggle against mortality.

The sequence also critiques societal norms and the superficiality of achievements, as seen in "no nest eggs under our diplomas," which juxtaposes the ephemeral nature of academic success against the lasting impact of high-school sports feats. The cyclical nature of moving and memory is poignantly captured in "every U-Haul move exhumes a mess of memories," a reflection on how physical dislocation often triggers emotional recollection.

Daily realities, like "bath-towel scarves" and "layers poking out from flannel cuffs," ground the poem in the tactile, mundane aspects of life, while more intense moments, such as being "punched around by your spouse the night before the start of a new job," reveal the darker undercurrents of personal relationships.

The fear of red lights in certain neighborhoods speaks to the constant threat of violence and the socio-economic divides that create pockets of insecurity. The vignette about love not turning out well for many underscores the disillusionment that accompanies failed relationships, despite initial optimism.

The reconciliation attempts with old friends, who have already forgiven, illustrate the passage of time and the differing paces at which people move on from past hurts. This theme of reconnection is echoed in the scene where "wisps of snow enter with the booted man," blending the cold outside world with the warmth of human interaction.

The image of women balancing bundles on their heads while enlivening their work with competition reveals the resilience and ingenuity of people in the face of monotonous tasks. This is contrasted with the mechanical nature of "drum-machine music," reflecting a societal shift towards automation and the loss of human nuance.

Finally, the poem anticipates a dystopian future where political outrage leads to severe consequences, including the suppression of art and free expression. This chilling prediction underscores the fragility of civil liberties in times of societal upheaval.

Michael Anthony Istvan Jr., Made for You and Me 2017, contemporary poetry, existential angst, societal critique, human resilience, memory, love, mortality, human interaction, poetic imagery, societal change, interpersonal relationships, redemption, humor in suffering, fragility of civil liberties.

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Kennedy Fried Chicken
Michael Anthony Istvan Junior Michael Anthony Istvan Junior

Kennedy Fried Chicken

"Kennedy Fried Chicken" by Michael Anthony Istvan Jr. captures the intricate dance between survival and parenthood within an urban setting. The poem delves into the life of a corner dealer, a figure deeply entrenched in the city’s gritty reality. His attempt to maintain a semblance of normalcy and connection with his child is depicted against the backdrop of his illicit activities. The opening lines introduce us to the dealer, who, despite his circumstances, tries to assure himself of his presence in his child’s life. The mention of "his ex in her phone" suggests a fragmented relationship, emphasizing the isolation that often accompanies such a lifestyle. The act of lifting his child high and inquiring about his behavior is a fleeting attempt at normalcy, a brief moment of connection amidst the chaos.

Istvan’s use of vivid imagery paints a stark picture of the dealer’s world. The constant need for vigilance is highlighted by his sweeping gaze for cops among the "nonstop horns." This vigilance is not just a part of his professional life but also intrudes into his personal moments, creating a tension between his role as a father and his need for survival. The dealer’s eye constantly scanning for threats underscores the persistent danger in his environment, detracting from his ability to fully engage with his child.

The poem’s structure and enjambment emphasize the fragmentation of the dealer’s existence. Lines like "in that window / of lifting him high" illustrate the brief, transient nature of his interactions with his child. These moments are overshadowed by the external pressures that define his life. The presence of a client, "hands in jean pockets, edging closer," serves as a reminder of the inescapable demands of his trade, constantly intruding upon personal interactions.

Istvan’s portrayal of the urban environment is both vivid and oppressive. The "nonstop horns" create a backdrop of constant noise and activity, reflecting the relentless pace of the dealer’s life. This setting amplifies the tension between his desire to be a good father and the realities of his circumstances. The client’s approach, subtle yet inevitable, symbolizes the persistent encroachment of his illicit activities on his personal life.

In "Kennedy Fried Chicken," Istvan masterfully captures the duality of the dealer’s existence. His struggle to balance his illicit livelihood with his parental responsibilities is depicted with sensitivity and depth. The poem highlights the inherent conflict in trying to maintain personal connections while navigating a life fraught with danger and uncertainty. Through its concise yet powerful imagery, the poem offers a poignant reflection on the challenges of parenthood within the context of urban survival, underscoring the dealer’s perpetual state of alertness and the fleeting nature of his moments of connection with his child.

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Don’t let anyone tell you that real life is lacking in poetic interest. This is exactly what the poet is for: he has the mind and the imagination to find something of interest in everyday things. Real life supplies the motifs, the points that need to be said—the actual heart of the matter; but it is the poet’s job to fashion it all into a beautiful, animated whole. You are familiar with Fürnstein, the so-called “nature poet”? He has written a poem about growing hops, and you couldn’t imagine anything nicer. I have now asked him to write some poems celebrating the work of skilled artisans, in particular weavers, and I am quite sure he will succeed; he has lived among such people from an early age, he knows the subject inside out, and will be in full command of his material. That is the advantage of small works: you need only choose subjects that you know and have at your command. With a longer poetic work, however, this is not possible. There is no way around it: all the different threads that tie the whole thing together, and are woven into the design, have to be shown in accurate detail. Young people only have a one-sided view of things, whereas a longer work requires a multiplicity of viewpoints—and that’s where they come unstuck.—Goethe (Conversations with Eckermann)


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